Kerrilyn Given's song follows someone trapped in a cycle with an emotionally unavailable partner. She uses vivid metaphors like pins and bowling balls to capture the confusion and hurt, eventually calling him a stupid boy and walking away, though the pain lingers.
You don't know what I mean. It's not the first time, it happens all the time. You don't get how I feel. It's like you're the only one that matters, my feelings aren't real. You get so attached, or not attached at all. You play me like I'm the pins and you're the bowling ball. But I try to understand you, but I just can't see the light. It's like everything I do is just not right to you. You do me wrong and then you say I'm gone and then turn back before it's too late. And then you say it's me and you're frustrated, but you're the one making things so complicated. <LYRICS>How am I supposed to know what you're thinking when you're not thinking anything at all? The words that you say and the things that you do make it hard to stay with you. But you say that you love me. I don't see how that's true, 'cause all you do is confuse me.</LYRICS> And abuse the heart I gave to you. Still I try to understand you, but I just can't see the light. It's like everything I do is just not right. You do me wrong and then you say I'm gone and then turn back before it's too late. And then you say it's me and you're frustrated, but you're the one making things so complicated. It's 11:11 and I just sit here wishing you'd be okay and you'd be the boy I'm kissing. And then I open my eyes and see what I wanted to be mine, a stupid boy that's not even worth my time. Time. I don't want to understand you. I don't care to see the light. Everything I did was right for me. I won't do you wrong, but I'll say that I'm gone and I won't turn back. It's alright, you see, so don't get frustrated. Things will no longer be complicated. I don't care to complicate it. You're a stupid boy that's not even worth my time.
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