007: I've Been On A Diet Since I Was 11 Years Old with Sahara Rose

I've been on a diet since I was 11 years old, when the first time that kid called me a chubby pig who wouldn't fit down the slide. I've been thinking of ways to become smaller. I grew up reading magazines on how to drop 10 pounds in a month and fell asleep counting calories instead of sheep. I've turned down too many trips to the beach because I didn't want to let my body show and said, no, it's okay, I'm full to too many desserts I know I wanted. And I'm done with the restrictions that I've placed in my mind so I can fit the restrictions placed by society on the female body by the constant burden of weighing less tomorrow than I did yesterday and the disappointment when I don't. I'm done with the amount of time I've spent deliberating what I ate and what I didn't and wishing I could reverse them, of staring at my body in the mirror, wishing it were thinner, smaller, or just disappear. I'm done. I have too much soul living in this belly to suck it in. And you know what? I'm gonna let it all hang out. My hopes, my dreams, my fears, my insecurities. I'm ready to go as naked as I should have been that beach day instead of covering up in that sarong. My mind has too many beautiful things to wonder about to be stuck figuring out how many carbs that raw vegan cookie has. So I'm going to eat that cookie and save the mental space to think about the things that matter. I want to know why humans were put here on this planet, what it means to love, what tears are made of, how to activate my third eye. I want to know about my ancestors and past lives and the future and my children's. I want to count stars and feel small in the vastness of the universe. I've been on a diet since I was 11 years old, and today I'm ready to fill myself up with the depth of my own soul.