191: Ascension and Spiritual Wisdom with Heather of Activation Vibration

Namaste. My name is Sahara Rose and welcome back to the Highest Self Podcast, a place where we discuss what makes you your soul's highest evolvement. Welcome to the Highest Self Podcast. If it is your first time listening, welcome. If you've been a day oner, what up, Boom Boo. Welcome back. And this is part two, which really isn't a part two, but just a kind of continuation of the epic conversation that I was having with Heather of Activation Vibration. So this is like one of those conversations that you just transport to another dimension because you're so in the zone. Like, I can't even tell you what we talked about. We just went there, we talked about it all. We talk about her story, the obstacles she overcame, connecting to your shadow, connecting to your light side, transmuting fear to light, ascension, spiritual wisdom, all of it. And what I love about just organic and dynamic conversations like this is there's no point, right? I feel like we live in such a society that it's like, well, where is it going to get to? And if we just go with the flow, it will take you to so many deeper places than you could have ever planned for. And this is one of those conversations that you're just going to be listening to this and you're going to be like, whoa, like I'm in this vortex with you guys. You're going to be, you're going to be nerding out with us on all the spiritual wisdom. If you're very new to spiritual stuff, welcome. Start here, why not? Spirit brought you here and if you're all into it, you're just going to be like nodding along with us and I'd love to hear your opinion too. So without further ado, let's welcome back Heather of Activation Vibration to the Highest Self Podcast. And before we get started, check out these brands that make Highest Self Podcast possible. I'd love to introduce you to the tea brand I've been loving recently, Vadam Teas. The tea starts in the mountains of the Himalayas and within hours of harvest are packed at their tea facility and shipped all around the world. I'm personally indulging in their Master Tea Assorted pack, which contains 15 loose leaf blends, black, oolong, green and white. They pack their teas in single serve premium pyramid tea bags so you can have the convenience of loose leaf tea anywhere. Not just this, but they've managed to eliminate all middlemen from the sourcing process, thereby retaining all earnings in the source region. For the farmers, these teas are fair trade, organic and pesticide. Free and they benefit the farmers directly, which I deeply care about. Additionally, every time you pick up a pack of Vadum teas, a part of the revenue goes towards educating the tea growers children, which makes it all even more worthwhile. Oprah just listed as one of her top favorite things, so I take Oprah's word for it. If you want to try this out, head over to vaadomteas.com v a h d a m teas.com and use coupon code SAHARA for 20% off. Again, head over to vadometees.com and use coupon code Sahara for 20% off. I am sure you've heard of CBD oil, but have you heard of Full Spectrum Hemp oil? See, there are many cannabinoid compounds found in hemp. See, CBD and THC are the most well known, but there are many others, each with varying effects and this is when Full Spectrum Hemp oil gets involved. See, having all beneficial cannabinoids at your fingertips is like being on a team where all the teammates bring in their own unique skill set, producing what is called the Entourage effect. So I'm really excited to share with you. Veridas Farms they offer a full spectrum hemp oil that promotes overall wellness, reduces your stress level and helps you get more complete rest. Their pure hemp cream also really helped ease my sore achy muscles after my recent elbow surgery and is great for dry skin. Head over to veritasfarms.com v e R-I-T-A-S farms.com and use code SAHARA for 15 off. Again, head over to veritasfarms.Com and use code SAHARA for fifteen off. So do you know like it's Pleiadian, it's Arcturian, it's Sirian. Do you have that or is it just sort of again, a knowing.

At first it was a knowing, but as I've been getting more familiar with their energies, I can actually decipher what energy it's coming through. So for the most part it's been mainly Arcturian and then a lot of Pleiadian as well. But more recently Sirian has come through.

Can you explain to us the differences?

Yeah, definitely. So I will see different colors per different energy. So the Arcturians usually come in as like purplish pink, more like pastel y type of blues as well. Pleiadian is more like very blue, lighter blues, indigo blues, and then Syrian is more of like a darker blue. They've all pretty much been.

And are their messages different?

Yeah, the Way that they approach me is often different. The Arcturians will. So Arcturians have literally appeared while I've been lying in bed. Like, you know, not on any medicine, completely sober, not asleep, like, actually just laying in bed. And I observed that the Arcturians will not come to me physically. They'll just stand around me and they use energy to heal me and ignite me from, like, almost like a distance. They do more.

Do you see their faces?

I do, yeah.

Someone told me I have an Arcturian face, and I looked it up. Well, they said it kind of has, like, almond shaped eyes.

I was gonna say it's the eyes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You feel very Arcturian, actually.

And it's like older knowledge.

I was gonna say they're like the most advanced species of the galaxy. So in other terms, that could be like the highest dimensional beings, but there is no hierarchy. It's just different dimensions. Like, 3D is not worse than 5D. It's just different, but, like, it just serves a different purpose and holds a different energy. So, like, you know, some people can get caught up saying, well, I'm channeling seventh dimensional Arcturian energies. Like, you're just at the fifth dimension. And it's like, okay, bruh. Like, that's not how it works. It's actually just all love. That's the purpose.

Yeah.

So, yeah, Arcturians came to me first, and they were helping me heal my body and raise my personal frequency and raise my personal consciousness, like, helping me on a very individual scale. And the Pleiadians, when they started coming in, I started seeing them. I wouldn't see them when I would sleep or when I was laying down. The Arcturians would come in when I'm, like, meditating or chilling or, like, laying in my living room. The Pleiadians would come in, like when I'm driving and like, different times throughout my day when I'm, like, in action. And they usually channel information to me about my mission and purpose and things to share.

Because aren't they very human? Like, most humans are Pleadian? Yeah.

Yes. Yeah, they're human hybrids. So they look like humans, but there's also a soul essence of the Pleiadian energy that it looks to me like energy, a form of energy, as opposed to, like, an actual being. And that's like the Pleiadian energy. Whereas, like, the Arcturians actually appear in form.

Okay, and then what about the Sirian?

The Sirians haven't necessarily revealed themselves to me yet, at least that I am aware of. Possibly in the sky or possibly just like, upon passing. And I'm just like, oh, it's just a spirit, or, oh, it's just an angel. But the reason why I'm aware that they've been connecting with me more recently is because of the information that's been coming through. I've had a lot of people come through saying, like, oh, you're very Syrian, or, oh, I heard this about Sirius or this. Or, like, people will get me, like, crystals from Sirius or card decks from Sirius. And just like that energy is, like, coming to me without me, like, going out and searching for it. It's like they're coming to me. So it's almost like they are preparing me essentially, for contact with them.

I know. Phil Feel good is very connected to Sirius. Yes.

Yeah, they're a more masculine energy. Arcturian is feminine. Pleiadian is feminine as well. I also connect with Blue Avians and they're more masculine. Yes. Sirius feels very masculine to me and a little bit more, like, heady and a little bit more like Vata, essentially, where Pleiadians vary, like, Pitta. And Arcturian is very. I'd say all of them.

Yeah, yeah, that's. I'm feeling like the Syrian energy is very. Like, when you think of channeling, it's very like, yes, they're here. Like, yeah. Like, do you see people are like, the portals are open between these dates and these times. Like, do you get that information, too?

Yeah, I actually. I don't get the information as, like, dates, but I will feel it. Okay. I will literally feel it and sometimes see it, these portals opening, like, above my body and, like, energy just, like, rushing through my body. So when it happens, it's usually like, the time of. And then I'll usually, like, share something. Like, portals are open now. Like, instant manifestation. Like, be super aware of your triggers. Don't fall back into old patterns. Like, the portals are open. And essentially when those times happen, the different energies that come through, they serve different purposes, but often it's to shift something. So when there's a lot of photonic light that's actually infiltrating Earth, there's more energy available. And so when there's more energy available, we're able to shift our mind, bodies and souls much more efficiently and more instantly. So sometimes manifestation will be easier during those times.

Interesting.

Sometimes healing old wounds.

Is it related to the moon cycles or anything? Or it's just kind of random.

I would love to be more versed on that. I think that is definitely connected to the moon. I think it's connected to, honestly, everything. But I'm not necessarily sure what triggers these like photonic waves of light astrologically. Yeah, I'm not.

Because I see people saying, oh, on like 8808, it's like lions think. And I'm like, right, well this is a made up calendar, so why is it related to that? You know, that's why I'm always like skeptical of that. But I see a lot of people resonating with it, so I'm always curious.

Yeah, the numbers. So numbers hold energies. So even though the calendar in which we're going by is like the Gregorian calendar and it's not like the actual calendar, because we've implemented it for so long, there are imprinted energies in these dates. And because numbers hold imprinted energies as well on these specific dates, it's almost like Earth has arranged itself to utilize these times when the numbers all align and everyone is in alignment with where that calendar day is so that portals can open.

I love that. And I get this question all the time, so I would love, for your perspective on it, what does it mean when people are seeing number sequences?

Yeah. In my observation, what it's meant for me, it's the connection to the higher realm. So numbers are the universal language. It is the language that is spoken through all different cultures and realities, and it doesn't change. And even just their symbols hold such energetic significance in them. Like 1111, like it literally looks like Gates. So 1111 is often the one that most people see when they're just beginning their spiritual awakening. And it's kind of like you're walking through the gates of this higher consciousness. And because it's so significant, when we see numbers repetitively, it's kind of like a pattern interruption where it's just like, oh, I'm noticing that. Like, yes, I'm driving my car and going to the same place I go to every day, But I'm seeing that number right now. So it's like bringing you back into your conscious awareness. And because numbers hold significant energies and different patterns serve different meanings. So like 444 can mean abundance.

I see four for four a lot.

Amazing. Good.

Hell yeah.

Like 555 is like the Christ consciousness. It's like, so you can kind of like geek out on.

Maybe one day.

Yeah. You know when it's taught if it was wild and I wasn't seeing it too.

So yeah, it's so funny. I never see 555.

Wow. There's not 505 coming here, of course, because you're.

You're Jesus.

Yeah. I love it. We love it. That's the best part, too, is, like, we all have different tools, and we all show up to this space with different tools, with different abilities, with different experiences. Because if we were all the same as society desires for us to be all the same and all, like, doing the same things and thinking the same things, then we show up at the end with only, like, one tool. But no, we are.

There would be no gifts if we're all exactly the same.

Exactly.

But I love how 11. 11. You see that as a gate. It's like, welcome.

Yes. Yes. Like, you have begun the path.

Yeah.

You are walking. Yeah.

And I think it's just like. They're just like, okay, we're listening.

Yes.

We're sending you a sign back.

Yes. And sometimes confirmation.

I hear a lot of, like, healers be like, well, ask your guides for a sign. And whenever I ask, they don't show me anything. Like, I go to the beach all the time. I'm like, send me Dolph, and they never send me dolphins. And then, like, the one time I'm just, like, you know, working on my mystical being book, and I look at the beach and there's 10 dolphins right. When I don't ask for it, because I'm just being in alignment.

Yeah, yeah. Yep. That's part of that energy. When you're, like, emitting energy, even when we're taught in the laws of manifestation, when you are emitting such an intense energy, it restricts and limits that space for it to actually occur.

For sure.

Because it's like. Like, I'm going to see the dolphins at this time right now in this space in which I'm looking, like, literally, dolphins could be, like, you know, 50ft out of your perception. Like, they literally could be there. And your guides are like, the dolphins are there. The dolphins. I sent you the dolphins. But then when you're, like, not desiring it, then, of course, then they appear in your perception.

Yes. I think a lot of people. And it's kind of sad because it's like, you want the sign so badly, right? You want the confirmation. You want to believe so badly, and then that desperation is what is withholding you from it.

Exactly. Yeah. You gotta just, like, release attachment to getting it. Because, like. Yeah. I think that that is something that has really helped to serve me, is, like, I'm super devoted and, like, super committed to being a human on Earth right now. And, like, utilizing this temporary time that I have in this form here on this earth plane as well as possible. But at the same time, like, I really don't have attachment to any, like, that's happening, like, at the end of the day. Like, being in connection to the higher realms and actually knowing, like, what exists beyond this, like, allows me to not have attachment to, like, this. And some could say, like, oh, well, then you're not grounded. No, actually I'm like, more present because I don't have attachment to this experience being one certain way.

So when you say you don't have attachment, can you explain more, like, what that looks like?

Yeah. So, like, in a sense, when you're, like, desiring to manifest something and you're thinking about it and you know you're going through all the steps like you're imagining it in your reality, then you're feeling it through your body, then you're getting excited about it. The number one, like, the key to the manifestation is after that, releasing attachment. So, like, literally just like, releasing any, like, need for it to actually be from your body where, like, it can just be an exhale. And then just being like, huh. I'm really actually okay if that doesn't happen. I'm really okay if it doesn't happen. Like, it doesn't need to happen. Just having trust, like whatever it needs to happen is going to happen. And like, ultimately just having that trust that, like, it all works out, like the divine plan happens, it occurs. It really, really does. And. And not like needing to be some certain way and thing and create some certain thing in order for it to happen, like, it happens no matter what. And just like, trusting that you are a divine expression of source along your journey and you are being guided divinely and you are embodying your purpose, essentially. If you were just present and just not resisting and just like, allowing.

So beautiful. Yeah. I think a lot of us, I think we're afraid that, like, okay, well, I need to have my. My game plan right. You know, I need to have, like, this is where I want my life to go. And we love it. We, vision board, we this, we that. But then that's creating an expectation that we can become attached to and then keeping us from it. So it's like, it's a really hard thing to really want something, partnership, abundance, whatever. But to not be, like, so afraid of not getting it. Because that desperation. I just see so many people hold onto it and it's like, you're never gonna get it. Yeah.

Restricts them. Yeah. It's hard to explain in Words. But it really is just a feeling where, like, at the end of the day, it's just like, huh, Cool. Like, okay.

I think that can only come from you realizing, like, the higher perspective.

Yeah, yeah.

Like, because when you're so stuck in the game, all you can think about is winning.

Yeah, yeah. It's the tunnel vision. Like, oh, this is a game.

Yeah.

Like, yeah. Like, yeah, you're so set on winning the game, but higher perspective, it's a game, and you are just an aspect of that essentially right now. So just, like, trusting and just, like, instead of, like, needing and holding on to this, like, one particular thing happening, more so, like, desiring it and then, like, being fully satisfied with, like, just even entertaining the idea of it happening. Like, in that part of manifestation where you're, like, feeling it through your body, allowing yourself to be fully satisfied at that moment. Like, it's as if it happened. It's as if it happened and then releasing it entirely and then going on to the higher perspective of being like, if it doesn't happen, that's okay. And I am still me at the end of the day.

Yes. When I was. Before I met my fiance, I remember I drew, like, a piece of paper. I'm like, my God, man. My ideal guy. We do this together on the weekends, and he looks like this. And, like, all the things about him. I went to this deep meditation, I communicated with him, and the message I got back was, don't look for me. I'll find you when the time is right. You just focus on having fun. So I started going to music festivals, and eventually I found him on Bumble when I wasn't even looking for someone. But I remember in that meditation, I was like, I just want this guy. Like, my God, man. I don't want to waste my time. Even if I'm 75 years old, I'm just gonna wait until then. It doesn't have to be now, but I just want to find him eventually. And I think that unknowingly, I didn't know what Law of Attraction was at that time, but just that being like, this is this bar I'm setting it at. It's on your timeline, right? That's what it happened in a month.

Yeah.

Whereas if I was like, tomorrow, next week, I'm putting on my high heels.

And I'm gonna go find him by February 2020. I must have my man.

Yes.

It's like, that's very limiting because you were actually gonna have him next month, right? Yeah.

So true.

Yeah.

Yeah. And it's Interesting, because I think it's like our human mind wants that so bad. Like, it wants to be able to predict things and. And it gives us comfort to be like, it's happening, it's happening, but also, like, is everyone meant to be with a partner? Who knows? Yeah, you know.

No.

Like, is everyone meant to live the life that they want?

No, no, no. Yeah. Because there's also the play of karma and other lives that we've lived, and everyone's serving such a unique and divine purpose in this life that it's not like everyone reaches 5D consciousness and we all live in love and bliss. Like, for some people, they're actually going to have to cycle out of this incarnation and then perhaps come back and then be a part of it or perhaps, you know, stay in the fourth dimension and be an angel or perhaps not come back and be a cosmic soul.

Yes. And when you say fourth dimension, I want for people to know. The fourth dimension is like the tube that you move through into the fifth dimension.

Yes. Yeah. The astral realm, essentially. That's like where the dream state happens. So it's like the last realm of duality where you can still, like, experience bliss and die. And it is like that middle ground in between, essentially. So, like, even when people pass, I've actually had people who have transitioned my clients, loved ones or siblings come to me during sessions, not even meaning to channel. I didn't know that I could channel them. But I was just having a session with a client. And for example, her sister came through and she showed me where she was at. She was still. Because she was still doing work here on Earth. She didn't leave the fourth dimension. She stayed in the astral realm, which is how she was connecting to her sister through dreams and was still working out some of her own personal soul's karma before actually transitioning. And she didn't necessarily know, so she didn't tell me where she would graduate and transition to, essentially. But having connection from other beings in higher dimensions, I'm imagining that it is like the angelic realm or it is like the. I wouldn't say the fifth dimension, because that is actually going to be implemented here. And it's more of a conscious awareness, but like a different space, essentially.

So people that communicate to us through James, do you think that they're all in the fourth dimension?

I believe that, as you said, it's kind of like the bridge between the realms. I think. Yeah, for sure. Because I've experienced higher dimensional contact through my dreams and I know many people who do experience angelic or extraterrestrial contact through their dreams. So I don't believe that they're all in the fourth dimension, but they just communicate through the fourth dimension because we as humans are able to tap into that space when our consciousness is asleep and our subconscious is aware and open.

Yes. I think dreams are like massive, such a massive thing. And it just stores so much stuff, so much in this life alone. I mean it's a lot and then all of the other stuff. So I feel like dream awareness is going to be like a major thing moving forward and looking into that and what that represents. Vata Dreams are very flying, fleeing, moving fast. Like I used to always have dreams of being, being like I'd be in my house and all these pirates would come and I'd start running. And this reoccurring dream is like my whole life. And so it's vats imbalance, it's me running away, fleeing.

Wow. That's from your mermaid life.

Oh, for sure. Always pirates coming after me.

Yeah. They wanted to capture you.

Yes. And like, and it's always like I'm at home and people trying to get it, get into my space.

Wow. Yeah. Yeah. You hold this gold, you hold this like wealth of information that like is your soul. And so it's interesting. Yeah. I feel like it's been even a theme in past lives where oh for people have wanted to kind of like extract that from you.

Definitely. And attracting like stalkerish, clingy people. Yeah, yeah. And then pitted. Dreams are very action, problem solving. A lot of them are very real life. Like they like will be like, how can, how am I going to have this conversation with someone? Or how am I going to do this and think it's so, it's so problem solving. It's very. Just like right here. And then kapha dreams are either no dreams at all, just very. You're very deep sleep, which is so much earth, or it's like very sensual. Like you're having sex, you're eating chocolate like you're in the sun, just enjoying. I'm like, I need more coffee dreams.

Can I get some of those? Yeah.

So yeah, I think our dreams are super interesting and even like bad dreams too. Yes, I got a lot of bad dreams, but they're like messages.

Yes, always. And that is essentially like another aspect of the shadow. Like even people fear having bad dreams or fear doing medicines because they don't want to experience something traumatic. But it's like everything is derived within you. So obviously if that shadow is coming out when Your other guards are down. AKA when you're sleeping or doing medicine. And the shadow is coming to the forefront. It's trying to speak to you.

Yes.

It's trying to get your attention. And it's probably doing the same thing, just in other ways of your waking life.

Yeah.

That are conflicting and, like, inconvenient and being expressed through, like, your normal life. But if you do the medicine or if you have the dreams, then the shadow is able to fully express itself. And then if you take the time to actually acknowledge it. And rather than just, like, I don't ever want to have that dream again. I'm not even talking about it. Rather than being like that being like, like, oh, okay, this happened because of this. Maybe this is connected to this. Wow. Okay. Going forward, I need to stop doing this. If you, like, take it as a message, then it will no longer haunt you.

Absolutely. And that's all that this stuff is. It's like everything is showing up for you. And, like, what do you want to learn from it? And definitely a lot of people are afraid of plant medicine, because if they're scared, bad things will show up.

Right.

And they probably will.

Yep. And if you're scared that they will, then you for sure need them to.

Yeah.

And it's like, the faster that you deal with them and, like, the deeper you allow yourself to go, the lighter your entire life will become. Your entire being will become.

Yes. I remember the first time that I did mushrooms in Bali. It was in a kind of ceremony space. And I remember, like, feeling like I didn't want to let go. I didn't want to let go of my ego. And I felt like, okay, I'm either going to be fighting this or I have to. To give in. And it was almost like, okay, are. Are you really ready to see yourself? And then I was just like, yes, just show me everything. And then I started to experience orgasmic waves going up through my body, like full body, like orgasms. And I remember thinking that I was being really loud because it was like. But, like, full on screaming orgasms.

And that's also message, like, too much because of me.

Too much. Yeah.

And.

And I was so embarrassed because I could still feel that I was, like, in a circle with. With humans around me. And I felt like I was. But I couldn't control this. These orgasms. So I was, like, putting my, like, face in, like, the soil and, like, the dirt, and I was, like, trying to, like, like, choke, like, like, just make myself quiet, but they just kept coming through. And then you Know, seeing all the lights and the sacred geometry and just like really going through everything. Then after I like asked my, my friends that were there, I'm like, was I like having really loud orgasms? They were like, no, you were like, oh my God. There's me thinking I'm like a Pantene probing goddess.

Like, oh yeah. And I'm like, hilarious. Oh my God. Yeah. Perfect example of like perception as well. Like that which you are perceiving may not be what everyone else is perceiving. So it's like, just. Do you? Totally just do you?

Yes. Yeah. But I think that it was almost like I had to get into like, I thought I was gonna go really dark place on the. And then I was like, just take me. And it was like. It was orgasms on the other side.

Wow. Wow. Amazing. Yeah, I've actually heard a few clients say the same thing where they were like, I got to that point where it was like, surrender. And I was so scared cuz I didn't want to surrender to the darkness. I didn't want to. But once they actually did surrender, they realized, oh wait, it's actually heaven. Yeah, that's where I was taken.

Yes.

It was like through the birth canal. That was the darkness. It's just like that tunnel to get to the light. And essentially that is what doing all this shadow work is. And like going through our darkness, it's to get to the other side and like going through that birth canal, like it's tight and uncomfortable and you don't know what the fuck is happening. And you're like being pushed through and you can't really breathe. But then once you're out, it's a whole new world. You're liberated, you're free.

So beautiful. So what tool has been massive for you for helping you go through this?

Mmm, mmm. Tool? I think like full self acceptance, like allowing myself to fully be like as weird and crazy and like as I need to be. And not trying to like shape myself to experience it in any one way. Like literally just accepting myself no matter what. Like the ups and the downs, the weird and the bad, like it's actually really funny. Like one of my, like, I believe that we like always are gonna have like some type of something that we're working through and perhaps when we reach 5D, actually we don't. And that's what's been predicted. And so, you know, holding that in my third eye sight, but again, no attachment to it, like so good either way. Like I could keep going through these shadows, but the One that I've been going through recently is, like, that last little debris of ego that, like, feels like I should look a certain way to continue to be credible in sharing this information, because the shit that I'm bringing through is pretty far out. So there's, like, an aspect of me that still wants to appear credible so that it's received by people and that I'm not just, like, some crazy hippie. So I was at the grocery store, and I was wearing sweatpants, and my hair was crazy, and I wasn't wearing makeup, and, you know, I had one of my, like, eccentric scarfs. And like, literally just me. Like, just, like, me on a daily basis. Literally, me on a daily basis. And I, like, put in the wrong code for my card. And the lady, like, immediately took my card from my hand and was like, I'm gonna have to see your ID and see if this is really your card. And I was like. Like, I was like. I laughed at first and, like, Sol was slightly insulted and, like, gave her my id, and I didn't really get it at first, and she's like, oh, it is yours. And I was like, whoa. And so I, like, really, like. I, like, smiled at her and just, like, kind of, like, laughed and, like, made it really, like, casual, because ultimately it's hilarious. Like, yeah, girl, like, this first shirt, my car. Like, I'm buying something for $5. So after laughing and just, like, releasing any, like, energy of it being insulting or, like, I took a look at myself, and I was like, huh, I do look pretty. Like, disheveled. And, like, you know, I. I could appear as, like, a crazy hippie or a gypsy to someone, and that's okay. Like, there was an aspect of me that was like. Like, I don't want that to be a thing. Like, I don't want to, like, experience that where people think I can't afford something for $5. But then I was like, it's okay, because if she took the time to actually look at me in my eyes because. Because I was looking at her in her eyes, and she literally couldn't even look at me in the eyes, like, it was too deep of a connection. But if she took, like, literally three seconds to actually look at me in my eyes, and then I could speak to her, like, two sentences, she would be like, oh, whoa, who? What is this girl? So it doesn't matter how I look. It does not matter how I look. And just allowing myself like, huh, I totally am that crazy hippie gypsy to some people. And that's okay.

You know, I'm so glad that you brought this up. It's something that. That, you know, I think about sometimes because when I got very into my spiritual awakening 2012, I went super hippie gypsy. Like, I was always wearing, like, I had my own clothing line called Saraswati Couture, which was like, these, like, baggy Indian pants and crazy scarves and crazy hair. And, you know, I looked like a spiritual person, quote, unquote, you know, And I felt like I needed to, too, you know, and then I kind of was like, like, I don't need to. And I also like looking. Anything could be cute, but I like looking presentable. And then I was realizing really, the reason why I was dressing like that was again, to, like, fit into another frame, another viewpoint. Like, if you go to, like, we were talking about Encinitas or an Ubud Bali or these, everyone is again, dressing exactly the same. Like those, like, flared pants and, like, the shirts with the long sleeves. And like, what if we just wore, like, black? Just, like, didn't care, you know?

Exactly. And just, like, allowed self to be and then, like, shined our soul even more because of that. Like, yeah, you're not gonna tell by my scarf that I'm spiritual, but if you sit with me for 30 seconds.

You will know, right? Yeah. And I feel like it's like that undercover of just like, we can be anywhere. You don't have to to be a spiritual person. Look, dress, like, do your eye makeup, whatever it quote, unquote, spiritual person. Like, you can. You can wear a suit, you can wear a sweat, sweatsuit, whatever you want to wear.

Yes.

Yes.

Yeah.

I also noticed that I really, especially last year and the year before, only wanted to wear white. I felt like I needed to wear white. Anything besides white, White, loose clothes. And then I realized it was like I was kind of turning into like. Like, you know, those, like, Indian, like, Guruji figures. And I was stepping away from my sensuality and my femininity because I only to wear white, loose clothes. And I didn't want to wear anything that was, like, tight because it didn't feel comfortable, but yet it was stepping away from my sensuality. So now I'm like, oh, well, what is it? Like, how can I dress like sexy and cute? The things that I started running away from, from the spiritual journey with that same perspective.

Yes. That is beautiful. And just knowing that in every phase, we do show up differently and we do actually need to channel different energies for different times. So the second that you feel like hu. Okay, I'VE been doing this for quite some time. I don't think it really resonates anymore. You know, we graduate things and we evolve from them and then we also come back to them and then we take little aspects of those and then we integrate them into the new.

For sure.

Like that's essentially what it is. It's like full self acceptance no matter what. And knowing again, that there is no one way to be and there actually isn't a path that you should be following. Like, the path to enlightenment is your own paved path. And it doesn't look any certain way. Like it's whatever you doing, wherever you at, however you showing up right here, right now, where's your presence?

So true, so good. And yeah, and then, yeah, again, oh my God, 444. I just look up the abundance train. But yeah, it's just even abundance is a really big thing. Like, I had a huge thing like, like, money makes you evil and money is bad, blah, blah, blah. And like, look, my dad was obsessed with money and he wasn't spiritual, therefore all people, blah, blah. And I was just creating these stories. And it's like spirituality and consciousness is never going to be the mainstream if we keep creating these rules and dualities around it.

Right.

Because then, look, we're all going to wear only Indian sweatpants and be broke because that's what they want us to remain as.

Exactly. Yeah. And like not shutting out people just because they do a certain thing.

Yes.

This is a certain theme in their life. Like just knowing that actually everyone is on a spiritual path right now and some are aware of it and some are not aware of it. And so the ones that are not aware of it are most likely receiving extra resistance in their life. So we actually just have to like, hold an even bigger mirror for them and just show more love to them and then just continue along our path and not like, say, oh, you're doing this so you're only this far along.

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I definitely do have people in my life that are not open to this spiritual conscious awareness, at least on their own time. But when I'm with them, I don't even necessarily like mean to, but I'll just exist still in my conscious awareness. Like I never shift my consciousness to meet anyone that's important, like ever. I will hold this space and then hold space for them as well and just like hold it in front of them. So, like, if they're complaining about this and they only want to talk about sports and this, this, this, like, then I will, like, authentically see how that is in connection to.

You're like, why does your inner child want to win?

Exactly.

Ex.

Exactly.

They're like, shut up, I'm watching the game.

Right, exactly. And it's like, well, do you want to play? Like, maybe we should go play. Like, just like starting to implement more conscious things to my unconscious friends or family. But I do notice that as I'm continuing to raise my personal frequency, those who are desiring and choosing to reside in a lower frequency and just entertain lower egoic things, things I observe that we are resonating less and less and. And really just like our realities are shifting away from each other. And then of course, there are the people who I am observing to be toxic in my life or parasitical, and those I will openly just be like, hey, I'm noticing, like, a really unhealthy, energetic exchange between us. You know, it's this on my part, from my perspective, it's this on your part. So I feel like we should have some space for each other. Like maybe see you along the journey.

So you just say it up front like that.

Oh, up front. Fully 100%.

How does that other person take it?

Often, really, really well. Usually really well because I'm also coming from a heart frequency, so they can feel that, like, I'm like, genuinely being like, hey, like, I love you and I'm super grateful for all you've served in my life, but when you do this, I feel super drained. Like, I actually am feeling it in my body right now. So I do have to explore this. I have to honor this. And I think I need sp space from you and just being like, super authentic and open, like, nothing's wrong with you. Like, I still have love for you and appreciate you, but yeah, it's. It's not healthy right now. So this is where we're going to go.

So. Good. Yeah, I definitely. I'm at this place. Like, I'm like, my time is so limited that I'm only going to spend time with people who raise me up.

Yeah.

So I don't have any friends in my life that are like, not totally here, but I know a lot of people, I don't know, maybe they have, like, stronger connections that they feel like they can't let go. But I'm like, if it's not working for both of us, it's not working, right?

Yes. Yeah. I really, really, really resonate with that. And for the most part, those who are not at this space that are still in my life are, like, my neighbors or, like, you know, people who are placed.

Exactly. There's nothing you can do. And then it's like, okay, right?

Yep.

Like, okay, how do you make this work?

How do I bring this in? Like, okay, just bring it in light. I'm just gonna sit here and. Light and. And like, often it was actually funny. Even last night, like, talking to my neighbor, like, super quote unquote unconscious. And, like, I just kept holding his face, just bringing it back to light, you know, like, he really wanted to just be in the depths of just, like, this and, like, blacking out and, like, just all this stuff. And it was just like, all right, I'm just gonna keep bringing it to light. And I'll just hold it here. Like, and, you know, there'll be resistance, of course, but, like, again, like, no attachment. Like, not going into it. Like, I need to turn this unconscious person conscious within this next conversation.

Yeah. Like, no, I used to find myself doing that. I'd be like, well, don't you see this and this? And it's like, it's their journey.

Right, Right. And just like, oh, if there's an opportunity to shine light, like, here's the light. But, like, no attachment to if you want to see it or not. Like, I'm just gonna keep holding it and be it. And then that's also a test for you, you know? Know that's. That's your personal work is like, patience.

That's been a big one for me. It's like, how can I be more patient when I come across these people that I. That it's someone that I have to have in my life, but they are definitely in the shadows. And I'm like, okay, I just gotta be more of love and more of patient while not correcting them.

Yeah. Allowing them and just like, holding the light, like, hey, this is what it looks like for me.

Yeah, yeah.

Up here.

And then just realizing it's like, sometimes you can't. With people's karma.

Right.

That's their journey to learn. And you trying to interject and be like, well, don't you know about the.

Right.

It's like, you just took them to the top of this building, but you didn't give them the ladder. And then they're like, oh, now I'm here and I don't know what to do.

Right.

And then they just drop down and then they blame you.

Right, Right. Yeah. Just like honoring it. And just like if they're ready to receive, then, you know, give them what they're ready to receive. If you feel called, if it resonates with you, and if not, just let them be. And again, that's where like the no attachment comes in. Just like the divine plan does happen, but it's based on free will. So everyone has their own free will, their own ability to choose how they exist and experience this individual expression. And if they do make it to that space.

Yeah, it's so true. It's something like, I personally, it's like I see like family members that really need help. Like they really are not in a good place. And I'm like, I'm like, I'll give like Tony Robbins status speeches. I'm like, this, this, this. And then I just see nothing happens. And I'm like, okay, I just like wasted my own energy and nothing happened. That it's like the detachment of like they're going to figure out in their time and you just shining your light and you sharing what you're doing for yourself is enough for them to decide if they want to follow that path or not. But yeah, I think a lot of us, especially when you care about someone so much, a sibling of parent, you're like, you want to do the intervention and be like, yeah, we're changing everything. And I think that maybe, I don't know, I've never done an intervention for someone. Maybe that could work if that person is ready, open and want and says, yes, I want an intervention. But if they're like, no, I don't want any of this, then that's. That's force.

Yeah. And you end up depleting yourself.

Yeah, yeah.

And so then it's like both are at that low vibration and then that is not holding anything. Like, best advice for like igniting consciousness within others. Be it, just be it. And even when they're like throwing at you, just be it. Continuously give them the tools by showing them the example. This is what it looks like to be here.

And it's hard because they can figure out exactly where your wounds are, you know, always, always. And then they can say things and then you want to get all like political on them and this and that. And it's hard. I mean, I'm. Most of us are in situations and have people in our lives that are not there and it's like g. Like, why don't you just see it and. And get it?

But that's the greatest test. The greatest test how committed to really being this light. Are you?

Yeah, yeah. And I think it's like more stepping in, I think of like that Dalai Lama energy. He's just laughing.

Yeah.

He's like, it's all good. He's not gonna get in an argument with you. I'm like, I need that.

Yes. Yeah. Just like the full contentment and just like. Yeah. Laughing is the highest vibration. So I'm gonna just stay here. Yeah.

I have nothing and even anyone that triggers you. If, even if it's someone who's operating from fear and racism and whatever it is, it's something you're creating from your own consciousness.

Yeah. Yeah. People don't like to take that responsibility, but yes, yes. And if it's in your field, like just to think of like how many people are on earth, how many moments there are on earth, how many places there are on earth. Like there's so many like denominators that like have to be compiled into the formula for you to just experience presence with someone. Experience just one event. Like it's so divine.

Yes.

Just like knowing all that has to occur in order for you to experience whatever it is that you're experiencing in that moment. Like, it's so diverse. Divide. You called idiot.

It's so true. Like my dad, he doesn't eat healthy, he's overweight, diabetes, all the self inflicted things, stress, etc, and I've tried so many times to help him, but he doesn't want it. He says he'd actually rather die than eat healthy food.

Wow.

Like straight up.

And I know those.

Okay. And then I was in this quantum hypnosis, healing hypnosis thing and I was thinking just like, how can I make my dad healthier? Like, what can I do? And she was just like, you can't, can't. There's nothing you can do. And it's not your job too. That's his job too. And you just need to focus on your own path and your own journey. And I was like, okay, I'm really just gonna let go of, of this need for me to like be the good daughter and like help heal him.

Wow.

And then I leave and I get a text from my brother saying that my dad wants to lose like £10 by my wedding. And like a little chart that he made with like he had been like waiting, weighing himself every day.

Yeah.

10 pounds is like definitely a lot more, but like just on his own. And I'm like, there it is, there it is.

Yep. You gotta just release, like it happening in any one way because yeah. A lot of People, they need to, like, feel like they came up with the idea themselves.

They need to.

They need to.

It needs to be their own experience.

Yeah.

On the flip side, this can get dark, but you're Scorpio, so you're ready for.

For it.

People who go through bad, dark situations. Like, I was just thinking, that actor who was, like, harassed and tortured in a Subway. I don't know if you've heard of this, he was like, in some TV show and he's a black and gay actor and some. I don't know who they were, but in a Subway sandwich shop, they like, tortured him for this reason.

Wow.

I think he's alive. I'm not sure. How could this happen? How could he. Someone who is of the light, how can he be attracting such negativity? And in so many situations.

Yeah, so often we will attract dark situations like that. Not necessarily from our immediate vibration that we are emitting, but something that has been embedded from a soul contract or perhaps from karma from earlier, earlier, earlier on in life or even from a past life. Always, though. Always. And so hearing that, one may think, well, I don't deserve it because I've been so good this whole time. But it's necessary to propel them into the next step along their journey. Like, as shitty as it sounds, but to be honest, like, I've had some shitty things happen for me. So, like, I'm not just coming from a space where I've been super privileged and like, like, you're all just creating it. Like, no, no, no, no. Like, for me to take responsibility for what has happened to me and saying, yes, it's happening for me, I've had to do some, like, deep shadow work to even, like, be able to perceive that. But so, like, for something like that, it may have occurred because something else needed to be worked out immediately that maybe couldn't have been presented in a positive way. Like the shift that needed to occur for the evolution of that brain being, for the next step, for their next phase. It needed, unfortunately, to occur in a traumatic, dramatic way where it did inflict pain. And, you know, we have this perception of pain that it's such a bad thing, but actually pain, just like pleasure, is a luxury to be able to feel, to be able to exist in form and have bodies and vessels that we're actively, like, fueling and taking care of and, and experiencing through and feeling these feelings tangibly through. It's a gift. Like, pain is actually a gift. It's a luxury. And the deeper we allow ourselves to feel pain, the more depth we have to feel bliss. And it really actually works that way. Like, it really, really does. Allowing yourself to fully feel the pain and being okay with it. Not thinking like, oh, I'm doing something wrong or I'm out of alignment or my life sucks, sucks because I'm experiencing pain, but actually just being like, whoa, this is a really intense teacher right now. And being okay with it. Just expressing and being as painful or sad or dramatic or traumatic as it needs to be. Not like, trying to have control or, like, project some, like, structure around how we're receiving these things, but instead, like, all we have immediate control over is our reaction. So, like, all right, how am I going to alchemize this?

It's so true. And, and even just an asking you that question, what came up from my guide said that some people have contracts to teach the collective.

Yes.

And sometimes you have to be that martyr.

Wow.

Yeah.

Yeah. That's like literally the conversation I was having with my sister last night. Like, she actually asked me. She's like, she literally asked me this. She's like, okay, I know that I'm cosmic. I know I'm here to serve a purpose. Like, but I'm doing so much for so many people. Why are these things still happening to me? And it was literally like, it's because this is a part of your mission. You are strong enough to experience these things and be able to come out the other side and to be able to translate them. Many other people are not as strong as you are, and that's just where you're at. At. So also knowing, like, the things that happen to us, just being able to look at it from a different perspective. Like, wow, okay, I previously planned to be strong enough to be able to take this. Like, okay, all right. I'm a lot doper than I realize. Like, okay, and just like, try to shift your perspective a little bit and, and change the whole situation. Like, redefining even traumatic events, redefining sadness, you know, it doesn't mean that things are bad or, like, they're wrong even. Like, obviously things are not okay. Like, things shouldn't be done that are like, low vibrational, like inflicting pain on others, obviously. But when we are not able to control when it does happen to us. And instead literally just thinking, okay, this did happen for me. All right, I must be super strong. Okay, well, I must have a really good purpose. Purpose for this. Okay. And again, just like releasing attachment and just flowing, trusting the divine plan. Like, all right, I'm gonna see where this Takes me.

It's so true, you know, and it's something that's so sad. And in no way does anyone deserve anything bad happening to them. Like, in no way. Like, we're all beautiful light beings. And I don't believe, personally, that there's any evil. I just believe it's further away from the light. Like, I don't believe that there's, like, this devil that's, like, infiltrating us. It's just further away from the light. But, yeah, I see that sometimes these things that feel painful happen. And sometimes, like, you're that person that Rosa Parks that had to be kicked off the bus so you could stand up loud and speak. You have to be that Nelson Mandela. And they took a painful opportunity that had happened to many, many people, and they chose, with perhaps backing of their guides to turn this into an example.

Yes.

And I think we all have that opportunity. Like, this can't happen anymore. The MeToo movement. This can't happen anymore. Instead of sitting into the victimhood.

Right. Shifting it.

Yeah.

And you better believe your soul is being rewarded for putting in that work.

Absolutely. You better believe, absolutely. It's like, whenever something's happening to me, I'm like, okay, this is going to be a new thing I'm going to teach people about. It's another skill.

How can I alchemize this? Okay. How can I create this into all art? How do I add this piece to my masterpiece? Yeah.

Yeah. It's awesome. I. I know that Abraham Hicks was on Oprah, and Oprah asked. She's like, well, what about people like me who have been raped? And Abraham Hicks said a similar thing, that in some way, it was created in your subconscious or in a past life or something. And they never played that episode. They brought it straight to YouTube, but they never aired it. And Oprah was like, trust me, trust me, I get it. I know. But it's too far for the general American public to hear, whoa. You know, to take responsibility for something like that, it's not responsibility, but it's like, to see. To see it in that grander scale. It's so painful that it's so hard to.

Right. And it's crazy because, like, the pain comes from liberation, because you're ultimately, like, liberating yourself from having to identify with being a victim and not being in control of where you go from here. So it's like, literally, like, fear of, like, oh, wow. Well, then, like, I am the creator. I'm the ultimate creator. Like, there. No, there's just no way. No, no, no, no, no, no.

Like, yeah, it's amazing. I think we're all like, living in these. We're all in the same world, but it's totally different worlds. Like, it's totally different dimensions. It's like this channel that's like const. Changing and it's just like, depending on us. So we think it's like, oh, we're all experiencing the same thing. And it's like. It's like we don't. We might see the same colors the same way, let alone feel the same emotions and the same everything. Like, it's so individual and forever changing.

Yeah. It's like the same tv. Different channels.

Different channels. And you get to decide based off of how you want to feel.

Yep. Yeah.

Which is freaking dope.

Yeah. And we have the opportunity to continuously shift into higher time timelines.

So do you think we can remain so high vibe that we won't experience pain anymore?

We experience pain in a different way. In a different way. Personally, I've actually always. Even being a Scorpio and like, growing up, I had like. I've always been really connected to being okay with the darkness. Like, I'm like the person in the movies where it's like, you hear the noise in the haunted house and like, I'm like, oh, I gotta go check that out.

Like, I'm like, get me out of here.

Like, literally that weird person where it's like, I gotta go figure out what this is.

That's the Scorpio in you. Yeah.

So I've actually, like, pain has always been something that I've almost, like, that I haven't feared. Like, that I've almost been okay with. Like, the way that I perceive pain is like a really beautiful thing. When I feel physical pain, I literally will just stop everything. And rather than like, allowing my emotions to get triggered immediately and just like having an emotional reaction to pain, pain, I'll take breaths and I'll actually breathe into it.

Oh, go into it. Exactly.

Literally, like, send the breath there and be like, whoa, what does that feel like?

Yeah.

And then, like, as I'm breathing, allowing the pain to even, like expand itself, but not necessarily get bigger or spread, but expand so that I can dissect really where it came from and how it's moving and just get to know it better and really, like, feel into it. And so actually, since doing it, that I've been doing that since I was younger, I have like a crazy high pain tolerance. Like, I'm talking about crazy, like, like.

Did your tattoos hurt?

Not at all. Like, literally I was looking at like.

That must really hurt.

Like literally. They actually, when I'm getting tattooed, like all the dudes, they're like, you know, like 280 pound, buffed, like tatted, like gangsters. They always come in laughing at how I literally don't flinch. All the tattoos, like, I'll have to, like my skin will have to burn and I'll smell it before hearing it.

Oh my God.

It's like that. But I think that it's because of my acceptance of pain. So I literally perceive pain as like on the same type of scale as any other emotion where it's not bad, it's really not. It actually teaches me so much and it helps me release so much. Even more so than a lot of other emotions that people, people cling on to and really desire.

And it's a much faster teacher.

It is, yeah. So just kind of like redefining that. So I don't think that we can transcend the ability to necessarily feel pain, but we just shift how we feel it.

And I think different people have again the different contracts. Like your soul chose to be born as the Scorpio, to love the pain, to experience the painful things, to not be afraid of pain like that, that clearly I don't know how you've died in past lives, but definitely pain has been involved.

Painful. Yeah, yeah. I've like experienced my own past life regressions, you know, not medicine induced, just like fell into like trances and died with many of my past lives actually like I experienced their death and talking to other people who also experience like past life regressions, that's not very common. I've heard other people experiencing that too, but I think that there's an aspect of like when I experienced their death with them, I was able to return part of my soul that was with them back to me in this life essentially. So yeah, like again, like experience a past life regression where you die. Many people may be like, oh my God and just freak out and just like have this emotional reaction that not actually extract the message that was being communicated. But when it was happening I was like wide eyed and like, what's happening? Oh, whoa, this blood. Whoa, this is mine. Whoa, this is my body. Whoa, whoa, whoa. And then was able to actually receive the information and integrate the aspects that were desiring to be revealed to me into my being.

I just did a, an eight hour long past life regression and hypnosis this past week and, and I died twice. And. But it's interesting because neither of, well One of my deaths was I was homeless and I died of alcoholism. But I didn't feel pain. I just felt more empty. Like I'm dead and no one notices here on the side of the street. They just think I'm asleep and just my soul rising and being like, ugh. Like, don't want to go back there again.

Yeah.

And then the next one, I was in ancient Egypt and there was like some sort of illness going by and I'm like coughing and cold. And it was actually me and my partner in that life and we're just like snuggled against each other, like coughing. And then we just kind of just died peacefully and the soul rose and there wasn't pain in the involved, though. It was very. Just like, yeah, it's time's up here.

Yep. And it's interesting that you say there wasn't pain involved, because even when I did, the one life that I'm referring to is an African man. And I was protecting my tribe and it was ravished by others. And so I was like, brutally killed, like, stabbed to death. And though I was experiencing it, like, actually, like I felt like it was my body, though it was obvious that it wasn't my body. I didn't feel pain as I do here. It's different. Yeah, it's very different. It's more of like, anything when you accept it and step into it, it's like, huh. It's not like what my projected mind illusion thought that it was. It's actually far different.

Yeah. I mean, pain on this planet, so all encompassing. I mean, when you're in pain, physical pain, emotional pain, it's like there's nothing else you can think about. You can't fucking watch a movie. You can't listen to music. It's like the. Oh, some people can scream and cry and get emotional, but then that actually just gets you in a head trip about it.

Right.

Which will make it worse. I did the same thing. I was in a very painful experience and I was just like, just breathe into it, just move through it. And I was feeling the pain that every woman has felt on this planet. Like, there's so much collective pain. I mean, just the way that, that we're born through birth. There's so much just pain in that.

Yeah.

Like sometimes I'm like, why did we. Why do we have to go through such pain for life to be here?

Right.

And that we've all gone through this and it's almost like no one talks about it. Then you're just sanitized and like, fix Yourself, Right. It's like we all come from pain, through pain. And there's so much collective pain, but it's this unspoken, right?

It's like, yeah, neglected. Like, it's the shadow. Like, oh, just don't look at it.

Yeah.

And it's like, no, like, let's redefine even after birth.

Like, why is there not more support?

Yeah, that's.

That's massive and it's beautiful. But there's trauma.

Yes, absolutely. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. Yes. Yeah, let's redefine it.

We need to. I know I was talking to someone and it was Kino McGregor. She's like a big yogi. And she was saying how after someone dies in your family, just like you have like pre birthing, like you get three months off postpartum, whatever, they have that for death. They give you, like, legally time off to just grieve. And I'm like, how beautiful is that to like publicly acknowledge that, like, yes, there's pain. And you can't, like, here. If you're like, oh, my dad died. It's like, oh, I'm sorry. Back to work.

Right. Wow.

Yeah.

Oh, I love that.

Love that. Yes. We need more.

And I think and accepting it more, like, accept it's okay. Okay to be in pain. Like, and it's okay to feel pain and be encompassed by pain, because often that's actually what is necessary to experience is to be fully encompassed by pain and be in that tunnel and see absolutely no light, any way out in order to work through it. But that's the process. It's like your subconscious will force you to be in that space if you not are not properly dealing with the pain and allowing it.

Yes. And I think on the flip side of that, there are a lot of people who have ties to pain. They look for pain, they want to keep experiencing it. Life is hard. I learned through pain. Pain and to gain, whatever the slogans are. And then it's like, what if we switched it to life is super easy and really fun and really flowing and beautiful and that pain might happen, but you know, you'll get through it.

Exactly. And it's. It's like when the pain happens, like, experience it right then and there and then move on.

Yeah.

Release it. Don't identify with it. It happened for you. It's not you. That's not you. Like, release it.

And now look, because I see a lot of people addicted to the healing when never totally healed. There's always going to be something else. Your childhood, your rebirthing. You're something.

What happens next? Next week.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And then it's like, at what point do you decide? Like, I'm good. Like, there's always going to be layers more, but I'm here to serve and, like, fully be ready. I think we become, again, addicted to. To not stepping up.

Yeah.

Like, that's actually what it is. It's hiding. It's like, I'm healing. I'm in this cocoon of healing. So I have no responsibility because I'm still over here.

It's like, I'm not qualified yet. No, I'm not. I'm not there there yet. Right.

Like, how we actually heal ourselves, a lot of it is to step up into something that you don't even feel ready for.

Exactly.

And to like, okay, well, I don't have everything figured out, but I have this. I'm one foot off the floor, so let me help the people that are 6 inches off the floor.

Right? Yes, yes. And just being transparent and authentic in that process. It's all a process. It's all a process. If we had everyone, like, out on the other side being like, hey, hey, we're over here. It looks like this. It looks like this when you're out of it. Like, okay, how do I get there?

Exactly?

We need people on every.

Every step, and it's always going to be there. And I think we just think it's like, well, once I'm healed and I'm perfect and I'm talking like Heather, then I'm going to be able to help other people. And it's like, no, the only reason you talk like Heather is because you've been doing this since you were going through the midst of your pain. Yes.

Yes. And we don't need everyone to talk like Heather. We need you to talk like you. Because not everyone will be able to receive what I'm saying. Like, yeah, exactly.

Like, we're both tapped into the same source, but it's coming through in different vessels. Yeah.

Yes. Yes. And, like, the people who don't resonate with me will resonate with you or.

Just resonate with either of us, or we're both bad.

Yeah.

If they're just knee deep into our episode, hopefully you can kind of like us.

Right?

Yeah.

If not, it's all good.

They're, like, rolling our eyes, like, what are they talking about? These dimensions. But I can't stop listening.

I promise, 10 years from now, they will all know.

They'll know.

I promise.

But, yeah, I seen, you know, a lot of people, especially in a lot of Times these spiritual vortexes that it's like in the healing, healing, healing their identity becomes. Healing, their identity becomes. I'm just trying to survive this. And it's like, you know, a friend of mine, her whole thing is like from survivor to thrive. Instead of being like, she had experienced a lot of child molestation in her whole life from her father, which is like unspeakable. But she was saying, I'm not a survivor, I'm a thriver. And to like, let go of that, which is. Oh, I mean, like, to hear someone like that say that, and he's like, yes, that's a possibility for all of us.

Yeah. I really resonate with that.

Yeah.

So like, we get to define.

We get to define, we get to decide. And, and it doesn't come overnight.

Yeah.

You know, but at the same time, a lot more can happen instantaneously than you think. I think a lot of us were so tied to like the time perception of like, okay, well, it's gonna take me. The relationship was five years long, therefore it should take me about two years to get over it. Or, you know, and it's like, give yourself some time to grief and some time to heal. But it doesn't need to be forever.

Right.

Like, you can actually let go of a lot in a night, like with an ayahuasca or even your own ceremony than maybe you could in years and years and years of, of, of of regular therapy. Not to say regular therapy doesn't work. I think regular therapy can be great for people, but letting go different faucets.

Yeah.

And it's like, for example, the quantum hypnosis healing thing I did, she was like a social worker and she was saying how she does traditional therapy, but she just notices in that eight hour regression, it does more than what she does for years for people. But not everyone is ready for that. A lot of people, they need to take, Take it, to take it slow. So I think now with this new wave we're seeing that we can heal ourselves in ways that we never have before. And it doesn't, it doesn't need to take as much time.

Yep. And yeah. Because the whole concept of time is becoming less and less relevant anyways. Yes. Yeah.

Yeah. Oh, my God. Well, speaking of time, I've had you on here for like 12 hours. I don't even know how long. So where can listeners connect with you, watch your videos, do a session with you? You?

Yeah. So on Instagram, I share a lot of information at activation vibration. On YouTube, it's also two words, activation vibration. My name is Heather. You could also look it up that way. I do offer personal channeling sessions, psychic sessions, card readings, past life regressions, virtually as well as I'm not doing as many in persons now just going forward, but virtually. My website is holisticheather.org well, thank you.

So much for sharing all of your wisdom with us. I'm sure my voice is, like, gone from all our talking, but I'm sure listeners loved it. And thank you for bringing your just your truth.

Thank you. Yeah. And really, truly thank you for all that you do. And yeah, like, just so appreciate every way in which you show up and how you express and how authentic and real you are. And it is such an honor to sit in front of you and and, like, feel your energy and frequency. Like, I've been feeling it virtually for so long, but to, like, feel you tangibly, like, girl, you the real deal.

Oh, thanks, boo. I got you. Well, hopefully I'll see you again, boo.

I see you. I'll be seeing you.

Namaste.

Namaste.

Okay. Did this episode have to stop? Because I wanted to keep talking to her forever. And since this episode, we've become super, super, super close friends. She is definitely one of my spirit sisters from another lifetime. We both realized a lifetime that we had together was we were both in the battle of Troy. We were both Greek soldiers, and we're essentially, you know, comrades fighting for this beautiful cause together. And we've also experienced lives as sacred dancers. She came over recently and we just went to the beach and danced to no music. And we were just doing the sacred offering dance to ocean shun, the ocean African goddess. And, you know, it's just one of those. It's one of those soulmate connections. So I hope you love her as much as I do. She's an awesome person. Check her out. Activation vibration on instagram. And if you love this episode, I would love if you could leave me a review in the itunes store. And as a free gift, I will share with you the first half of my unreleased book, eat right for your mind body type. Simply email a screenshot of your Review over to SaharaAtFieldFresh.com Again, Sahara S A H A R Aat Feel Fresh.com. and I will send you over the first half of my unreleased book, eat right for your mind body type. Thank you and namaste.

Sam.