445: The Time I Was Caught in a Sand Storm - Lessons From the Sahara Desert, Morocco Travel Recap

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And now let's get into the episode. If it's your first time listening, welcome. This podcast is all about actualizing your fullest expression. And today's episode is going to be a bit different. Normally we have deep conversations about spirituality, but this time I want to share with you the recap of my recent trip to Morocco. I just came back a few days ago from a whole month in Morocco, and I have to say it was the best trip of my entire life. So I wanted to share this episode with you to share both where I stayed and what I did and just the tangible and also the lessons learned, especially in the Sahara desert. Yes, Sahara was in the Sahara. And it was no ordinary day there. Let's just. Let's just start there. So why Morocco? My entire life, I have been so drawn to Moroccan architecture, the Moroccan aesthetic. You know, my parents came from Iran, so very similar type of architecture there. A lot of beautiful mosques with mosaic work and just Morocco specifically. I loved just how bohemian it looked. Just the textiles, the. The bags, everything Moroccan. I, for my entire life, have been obsessed with and definitely have had past lives in Morocco. And I'll talk a little bit more about that later in the episode. And I actually went to Morocco for one day when I was 15 years old, from Spain to town called Tetuan. And it was like real life Aladdin being there. So I always knew I wanted to go back. And with things finally being back, open flights, post Covid, I was just missing going to a country, getting lost in the markets, and just immersing myself in a new culture. I hadn't done that since the last time I went to India, which was in 2018 when I shot Eat Feel Fresh. So I just deeply missed. You know, it's very different when you go to Tulum or something that's, like, very Westernized now. Even in Costa Rica, a lot of it is very westernized. But going to a country where just it looks like you're in a different world, it's just such a different way of being. For me, that is the ultimate reset. So I. I decided now is the time for me to go to Morocco for no other reason than following my soul's exploration. So my husband and I, which luckily both of us really love to travel and go off the beaten path and, like, explore villages and just things that you normally wouldn't see as a Taurus. So both of us really love doing that together. So we took off. So before I went to Morocco, I actually asked my friend Krista Williams, who's the host of the Almost 30 podcast, her suggestions, because I knew she used to work at a Morocco travel agency. So she linked me up with the person that she worked with there, named Abdu at Let's Travel Morocco, who I highly recommend if you do go to Morocco. He was amazing. And I started chatting with him, I started sharing with him. You know, my interests are going to the nomadic villages, and I want to teach English. I want to volunteer, I want to bring school supplies, and I want to go to the blue city. I want to go to the Moroccan hammams, I want to go to the most amazing spas. I want to see the architecture. So I want to have that. That both and going to the deep desert and places that they've never seen tourists before and also go to, you know, some of the most incredible places that every tourist must go while they're in Morocco. So he was very, very helpful, and we really coordinated for months of putting together the perfect itinerary, which I will share with you. And it really was encompassed all of those things. So I do recommend before going to Morocco, or really any country, whether it's India, to work with someone that's on the ground there. Because had I gone to Morocco without. Without him, there's no way I would have been able to access nomadic villages in the middle of the Sahara Desert or go to schools or, you know, just go to people's house, see the things that I got to see. So I definitely recommend. And even, you know, I used to live in India for two years, and I've spent a lot of time traveling back and forth with India, and I always lived with families there. So I do recommend especially coming as a volunteer. There's a really great website called idealist.org where you can find volunteer jobs all over the place. That's how I used to travel Nicaragua, Vietnam, Thailand, Peru. Always being a volunteer and staying with different families there and working, teaching English in different orphanages, different schools, taking language classes. So to me, volunteering is, like the ultimate way to really get to know a culture. While I was in Morocco, we actually stayed at hotels, and I will name all of the hotels again, I don't work with any of these companies at all. I paid for the entire trip, But I'm just sharing with you because y' all are my friends, and I just want it. I want to keep it real. I know if I wanted to go to Morocco, I would want. Like, I spent so much time on these blogs and Pinterest about people who went to Morocco. So I'm paying it forward in case any of you guys want to go. All right, so we land in Casablanca. Would I recommend Casablanca? The truthful answer, and I'm sorry if anyone's from there, and I don't mean to offend anyone, and anything that I say on this podcast, this is just my personal opinion and in no way represents anything or anyone. I am just one person. Casablanca was not it for me. You know, Casablanca is a financial capital of. It's not the capital of Morocco, but it's very much where the finances are. You know, when we got there, it was cool. Like, the Moroccan soccer team was staying at the hotel that we stayed at. The hotel was. Was very beautiful. But very like, kind of corporate business. It was the four seasons of Casablanca, and there was this beautiful mosque there that we went to called Mosque Hassan ii. But to be honest, would I go back? The answer is no. So we'll kind of just move on so I can share with you the best. The reason why we landed in Casablanca was because I really wanted to go to Chefchowen. Now, Chefchaouen is the blue city. You've probably seen pictures of it before. So there is a blue city in India called Jodhpur, and that's where my book Eat, Feel Fresh was shot. I'm obsessed with blue cities. I'm a mermaid. Turquoise is my favorite color. So I shot all the photography in Jodhpur. But I've always wanted to go to this blue city in Morocco because it looked even more blue. And I was is correct. I mean, just the level of blueness is on another level. And the reason why it is a blue city is because hundreds of years ago, the Jewish neighborhood in Chefchaouen, which, by the way, Morocco, used to be a Jewish country prior to Islam. And prior to Judaism, it was essentially a pagan, a shamanic civilization, just like most of the world before organized religion was. And I'll speak a little bit about that and my experiences, trying to learn more about spirituality outside of religion. But in Chefchaouen, the Jewish district painted their homes blue. And over time and more especially more recently, in the past 30 years, the people in the village notice, oh, these backpackers keep coming here, and they keep taking pictures in front of this, the blue building. So maybe I should paint my house blue, too. So more and more people start to paint their homes blue, and more and more tourists start to come in. So they start to realize, wow, because this is a random village, like, literally in the middle of nowhere. It took us, say, five hours of driving, five to six hours of driving from Casablanca just to get there. So they started to paint their homes blue, and they start to put beautiful artwork in front of it and beautiful leather goods. And now it is like an Instagramable, like, photo op village. And it's a real village that people live in. And it's so stunning. And it was interesting because our tour guide there was like, it kind of shows what competition. Competition, in a way, has made everyone, like, really rise up in creating it even more beautifully, which it's an interesting perspective. So when you walk around Chefchaouen, you see so many places that people have, like, decorated their homes in stunning ways for you to be able to take pictures in front of it, and you can offer a donation normally about 50 cents to take a picture if someone, like, really went on all out. But overall, they're doing it just to bring tourism into their village. So that was really interesting to learn about. So it is definitely more blue, more like beautified than the blue city in Jodhpur. Just because the one in Jodhpur is a little bit more. They're not really doing it for photo ops at all. The reason why the one in Jodhpur they believed is blue is it had to do with the Brahmin. Brahmins, who are like the priest class in India, wanted to paint their homes blue. So in Jodhpur and shooting my book, it was actually quite difficult sometimes to just find a house that was still completely blue, didn't have trash outside of it. It was definite. We had to walk around a lot. Whereas in Chefchowin, it's much. It's a much smaller city. But, like, everywhere I turned, I was like, photo shoot, photo shoot, photo shoot. So I actually made a really cute reel, which you can find. I've pinned it on top of my Instagram and I walk through this door and you, like, see me in this, like, blue bazaar, essentially. So if you head over to my Instagram, I am Sahara Rose. You'll see that. And I created a highlight of my entire Morocco trip. So it's like the very first highlight in my profile. You can click through and see, like, all of my stories throughout Morocco. I tried to just pick the best because there were so many. So you can actually visually follow along with me on this journey. So as I go through, like, you'll. You'll see Casablanca and then the Chefchaouen and onwards from there. So where did I stay in Chefchaouen? We actually see it in a Riad. So what is a Riad? A Riad, you'll hear this word a lot is essentially Moroccan homes that they've converted into hotels. So these are not just typical Moroccan homes, but these were homes that, like, Moroccan, you know, royalty used to live, or big guest houses, et cetera. And some of them are very, very ornate and beautiful, and some are more simple. So we just stayed at a riad in Chepchaouen called Lena. It was just a simple riad. I wouldn't say. I'm like, you gotta go there. You could kind of just stay anywhere there. But in Chefchaouen, because it's a small village, you're not going to find like even four or five star. It's kind of Everything is very simple. But it was fine. And, you know, it was. It was definitely, for me, chefchaouen was worth going to. It is a drive. But if you really want to take amazing content and you love the color blue, I would say go there. So next we headed over to fez. So I'm going to be real. Fez was the city I was the least excited for. I read somewhere that Fez was a very intense city and that you see, like, spices in one corner and then, like, headless camels next to you. And I was like, oh, my God, that's really intense. Like, you know, I went to Varanasi, which is the city in India on the Genghis river, the Ganga. And this was also a very intense city. It's where they burn. They cremate all of the dead bodies. And there's, like, it's madness there. There's all these people coming up to you. There's, like, bulls, like, running through the alleys. It's crazy. And I would say, like, in India, it was. You know, I love India so much, but Varanasi is not. Not my place. I also did photography in each. Feel fresh there. So you'll see me, like, on the Ganga with these beautiful babas who are blessing me. It was chaotic energy. So I heard Fez was similar to that. So I was like, okay, let's just see how it goes. Okay. We're just spending, like, two, three days there. It's going to be fine. And honestly, it ended up being my favorite. Like, my favorite medina. So a medina is essentially the cities. Back in the day, they would build these walls around them to protect them from, you know, neighboring city states and wars. Like, there. There's so much history that has happened in Morocco. We actually were able to see ancient Roman ruins that were completely intact down to. I could see the mosaics and the designs that they put in their bathroom, like the Pisces, the fish, the. The statue of Venus that they had B.C. like, 2,500 years ago. And it was still completely intact. So there's so much history, and there has been a lot of war and bloodshed that has happened in Morocco as well. So Fez is this ancient city that, literally, you feel like you are in Aladdin meets Indiana Jones combined and every single kind of, like, middle Eastern movie you've ever seen. It was stunning. So what I loved about Fez so much was just, like, how authentic it was. And I was so surprised to see so many children just, like, playing and walking around by themselves. I was like, you know, you just don't do that in the us. You're worried about kidnapping and all these things. But there was just such a level of community and trust. And it was like a labyrinth. Like, not. He said that not one person in Fez knows every single labyrinth that's there. It's the largest medina in Morocco. So there are thousands of streets that all connect to each other. And there's no roads to get there. Everything's by foot. There's no motorcycles to get there, no bikes. Everything is by foot. So even to get to your Riyadh where you're staying, you need to walk like 10 minutes through the Medina through these winding labyrinth roads where there are spices and argan oil and shoes and clothes and a butcher and copper being made and blacksmith and like all these different things. Like it is like being in a real life museum. All I wanted to do is just walk around there and take it all in because it was so rich. So I would say 100% go to Fez. That was one of the highlights for me. And spend as much time as possible in the medina because you will just love getting lost in it. And you just. It makes you appreciate all of the little things that you see so much more. Like from the evil eye jewelry, like you actually see the people making from the mosaics. You see people cut the tile by hand, paste it together, create these beautiful, ornate designs. And you realize just how many hours and love and labor is like put behind every single thing that people have there. And also, what a blessing that so many things are still made by hand. So that was really beautiful. A picture that you may have of Fez or you may have seen before in like a National Geographic magazine is a picture of these different dye pools. And essentially it's a tannery where leather goods are made. So have you ever seen Slumdog Millionaire? There's like that image of the like laundromat there, which has also different kind of like containers that people are in to wash the clothes. So sort of similar to that, but instead it's actually different dyes that people are. A tannery is how they make leather. So you do see the animal skins out. You do see a lot of graphic things. I did see just a camel's head hanging in the bazaar. So I will say that it definitely can be intense. Like it was interesting because the energy wasn't intense because people were just so used to it that like seeing like hanging animals was like normal. But especially if you are. I am an animal lover for sure. But if you're very, very sensitive to that. Like it's hard for you to see a butcher or anything like that. That would be my trigger warning around going to Fez because that is very much a part of the life there. So the tannery was quite interesting. So when you go there, it smells so putrid and so bad. Not that all of the Medina smells like that, but just that one area that you go to to see the tannery because they use cow urine and pigeon feces to create the leather. So they actually hand you a piece of mint to put next to your nose and breathe in to try to block away some of the putrid smell, which is. It doesn't even work. So I would say they are quite pushy with the sales in some places. Like especially in like a tannery like that, which is a very touristic place. Not everywhere was like that, but touristic places like that. So they're really. They were really trying to push on me to buy the leather. But to be honest, I didn't even like anything that they had there and it just wasn't energetically a fit. But when I left, someone on, on Instagram actually shared with me a documentary of the behind the scenes of these tannery and what goes on and just the short lifespans the people that work have due to all of the chemicals and toxins and how it leaks into their water system and it leads to birth defects and deformities. And I re shared it on my Instagram. So if you look at that Morocco highlight, you will find this video. This video was actually based on the tanneries in India. So I'm grateful that I didn't buy anything there because again, I understand that it's part of the culture. I understand that they've been doing this for so long and with greater education comes more responsibility. And if we know that this is going to be affecting our food system, it's going to be, you know, the average lifespan of the people working there is like 50 years old. Such high levels of just many different diseases. It's going into their water chain. Like I can't consciously know that and still buy things from there. So there definitely is that shadow side of it that I think is also important to know from. And again, it's not that it just happens in the tannery there leather is all around, around the world. Think about every single car has leather in it. So that really made me more aware of again, where do these things that we buy come from and just how much pain and destruction is coming from the leather. Industry, from the animals to the people who are making it and everywhere in between. So after Fez, we took off and the place that I stayed in, Fez, by the way, it was very beautiful, but it's very like old school Morocco. So apparently like the Princess of Morocco stayed there and it was called La Maison Bleu. So it's very beautiful and a little pro tip. So I really wanted to take photos and videos everywhere that I went. So I used Airbnb experiences, which is a part of Airbnb, where people, locals can share different experiences. And from there I found many different photographers. So you'll see all of the stunning photography that I did while I was in Morocco and all of the different places and every photographer that I connected with, I connected with them through Airbnb experiences. So I definitely recommend doing that anywhere that you travel other. Otherwise I was like trying to search with hashtags and it was just hard to try to find these people on Instagram, whereas on the Airbnb experiences you could just book it right there. It was pretty easy. So that was a great hack to, you know, not to try to get my husband to take a picture of me and he's like, doesn't want to do it, but have someone who's like just as down to shoot as I am. So from Fez, it was time to drive to the Sahara Desert. So of course that's my name. I needed to go to the Sahara and it was a nine and a half hour drive. So a full day of driving deep into the desert. Like you witness the process that the desert takes. So first you're, you know, you're driving through, you get leave the city and you're driving through different villages and the villages get more and more remote and you see less and less trees until you see no trees and then it's very rocky and you just see all of the levels. And I learned there was a volcano that erupted in Morocco long ago. So you see fields of just black ash from, I don't know when, hundreds of years ago, thousands of years ago maybe even. And then finally it's like it looks sort of like a New Mexico desert. And then I was so excited to see that terracotta sand of the sand dunes of the Sahara. So I will share that. I wasn't sure if I was going to like it or not because I went to burning man in 2019 and I did not like that experience. I understand the intention around it, but I have many different things to say around that experience. But speaking around the dust I did not like the dust just because it's like all over your face. It's all over all of your things. Like you can't get clean. I just didn't like the dust. I was getting nosebleeds every single night. And in a past life I actually, and I remember this, I had a past life realization. I was back in Egypt and it was, I was a nomad in the desert there, there and it was a cold, cold night and I froze to death. So I think that and also the fact that my family is from the Middle East. My ancestry is Persian, North African Indian. So I have like the lineage and I have like Bedouin blood in me. So a lot of my ancestors probably have actually died in the desert. And I used to go to Iran a lot as a kid and it's, it's very dry and I would get the nosebleeds. So something about me and the body though. My name is Sahara, I'm not, I'm like a water person, not a desert person. So I was not sure if I was going to love being there or not. But once I saw those sand dunes, like something hit me. They were beyond majestic. Like, you know how you have those like screensavers where like you have the different options and one of them is the sand dunes. Like I'm like, I understand why they choose that there. It's like something you've never seen in your life before. Just to look out as far as your eye can see and see these ginormous huge hundred foot sand dunes that it's just made out of sand. So we drove, we drove, we drove, we drove and finally we're getting there and I'm like, we need to buy school supplies. Like there's no way I'm going to this village and I'm not bringing them supplies. But the school wouldn't really tell us what they needed. So I didn't know how many kids were there. I didn't know how many schools we were going to visit. I didn't know what the nomads needed. I didn't want to bring something that they wouldn't have access to later on. Like, you know, imagine I bring something to a school that they're like, oh, that's so great, but we can never sharpen these pencils again. So I wanted to buy something as close as possible so if the school needed, they could get more of that thing. It's not like I'm bringing something from another country that they wouldn't have access to just because I think it's important to also support the local economy and have it be as local as possible. So we went to the stand that sold different school supplies, and I basically bought, like, everything they had, from notebooks to pens, colored pencils, different books, teaching them how to read and write in Arabic. So the main language there is actually Berber. That is the authentic language of Morocco. However, due to colonization, they have learned Arabic first from the Arabs, Arab colonization and year around 800 or so with the Islamic conversion, and then more recently with the French colonization, which they left around 1950s. I want to say 1920, 1950. They were only there. French were only there for about 70 or so years. However, they deeply colonized this country and basically forced everyone to learn French, made Moroccan people. Their servants took their prized jewels like it was. It's very, very horrific the way that the French colonized Morocco. And still, I would say I was shocked by just how intelligent the people of Morocco are. The average person there speaks Berber, Arabic, French, English, Spanish, and sometimes Italian, too. So, like, even the people who are, like, homeless, it was so funny because we were walking by and they were, like, trying to figure out where we're from. So to me, most people assumed I was, like, Hispanic, Colombian. So they're like, hola, quiera eslo. Trying to speak to me in Spanish. And then to my husband, they thought he was Italian. So they're like, bonjour, no. And we're like, we're both Middle Eastern. Like, it was hilarious. So I bought books around, helping them to be able to read and write in Arabic because that is a common language that they use there. And my husband speaks Arabic fluently because he's Jordanian and Lebanese. So we went out into the desert, and we stayed at a place called the Desert Luxury Camp. So I had seen pictures of this. I was so excited. They basically create a camp in the middle of the Sahara Desert. So they bring out carpets. It's completely covered up. They said they have ac. They did not have AC during the day when it's really hot. It was really, really hot. Like, wow. So we got there, and. And I was amazed by how beautiful it was, the carpets. Just the way that they've set this up. It's crazy to think, how did they even set something up like this in the middle of the desert? It takes a lot of work. So it was so beautiful to be there. And it was really windy. So they're like, we can't let you guys eat outside because the wind is really crazy. And it's actually the windy season of the Sahara desert. We're like, oh, okay, interesting. So you know, the first meal, we ate it inside the tent. And the next day I was super excited because I was gonna do a photo shoot there. I had a photographer and videographer drive from Rabat. So they drove, you know, nine hours to get there. And I was gonna do this full photo video shoot. Sahara. In the Sahara. I brought a 20 something foot long red dress, silk, red dress that I packed, which by the way, for packing. Guys, I am an over packer and I was there for a month. So I'm like, how am I gonna fit all my shit into a suitcase? And the, the way that I did it was compression bags. I bought compress, put it all in there, fit this dress in there. And that was a huge saver, except for I forgot to bring the little compressing machine. So once I got to Morocco, I got all the clothes there, but then I couldn't fit them back into the bag. So every single day I basically had to like wrestle these plastic bags and try to get everything to fit and like shut my suitcase down just to make it. So we're back. It's the day of the photo shoot. That morning the weather was, you know, very, very, but it wasn't windy. And I was like, oh my God, I can't wait for this photo shoot tonight. We took these camels out, we went for a three hour camel walk through the sand dunes. I got to speak to the local nomads and just get to know the people there. It was so beautiful. When I say hot, I mean it's true when they say like hotter than Sahara, like It is about 110 degrees or so. And especially when you're out on a camel, there's no shade. So luckily like my ancestors have survived many, many hot desert days that I'm very good with the he. But I did see some people staying at a different camp that were like definitely struggling. So I would say if you are going to go to the desert, you are very sensitive to the heat. Maybe don't go in June. Like I did go in the winter months. However, in the winter months it can get very cold at night. Whereas luckily for me it was like in the 80s at night. So it was like very nice at night. It was just during the day it was like so hot that even just touching the sand would have burned you like that level of hot. So I think sometimes like you see a picture, you don't realize like, oh shit, like that person was like sweating balls to get that picture done. So the Beautiful part at this camp though was they had a pool. Like they created a pool in the middle of the Sahara desert. So it was like a tented pool. So like I spent the whole day just like in the pool. And that's when the wind started to pick up more and more and more and it was like, like a full on sandstorm. So I'm like, okay, I'm just going to ride it out. I'm just going to stay in this pool. I'm covered up. And then Steven, my husband, was like, oh, I want to go out. And he's like, sat in this, like, hammock. And I just watched him, like, he was like shaking and it was spinning because it's like a full fledged sandstorm in the desert. Cue the sandstorm song. Nana, remember that? It was like the original, like 90s house music song. So it's time for us to go back. And even going back, it was like sand everywhere, craziness. I'm like, how am I going to do this photo shoot? And it was so hot that there was just no power. Even during the day, let alone ac There was no power. And my dress was extremely wrinkly. And I'm like, I can't not do this shoot. And the sandstorm started to get worse and worse to the point that the entire hut was shaking, the roof was shaking, sand was getting in the hut. There was a point that I was like, do we need to leave for our safety? Like, is it safe for us to stay here? But I saw the people, like working there, they weren't getting us. So I'm like, well, I feel like if we were in danger, they'd probably come get us. But like, maybe, you know, it was to the point because we're staying in some tent, you know, and like, it was shaking so much. They kind of made a pile of sand next to us to protect us from the wind. But like, that was coming undone. Like, everything, it was like as if I was in the middle of a Category 5 hurricane. Like, that is how I can describe it to you. I mean, I've seen some storms here in Miami, but this was like another level of like, everything is shaking. You don't have like concrete walls to protect you. So I was like getting very, very nervous and scared just at this point for my own safety of, what if this tent collapses? Like, what if this wall right here collapses? Like, what would happen? So I just started to pray. I just started to pray to the ancestors of the Sahara. And mind you, the whole day I was so spiritually connected. So I was writing so much poetry, so much ancient wisdom coming through, just so many codes from my ancestors. Just like the thousands of lifetimes that my ancestors have spent in the desert, you know, and I was just so deeply feeling it. So I started communing with the spirits of the Sahara Desert and I just asked them if it's. If this is meant to be for me to take photos here, please allow it to happen. I am here with the intention to share your beauty. Beauty to help people see how beautiful it can be in nothingness and to be a vessel for you to share your wisdom with the world. So please, I'm asking you for support in making the highest possible photos and videos happen tonight. You know, I came all the way here the photographer, videographer, and we are just here to share your beauty. So if it is in alignment, please support us in making it happen. Happen. And I remained just in prayer and prayer. And the wind started to slowly fade away. It was still a lot. I mean, and when I say like when I actually checked the weather, the it was 40 mile per hour winds. So I'm not like kidding around here is like dangerous levels of wind. So start to slow down to like 30 mile per hour winds that I'm like, you know what, what if my ancestors could survive here, so can I. I got enough electricity back and forth. It would like beyond for a little bit off, on, off. I ironed most of the dress sweat and balls and I'm like, I'm just going to go out, climb that sand dune and take these photos. So I go out and that wind is winding. But luckily. And what I really love about the sand, it's not like the dust where it doesn' scatter as much like it does stay a little bit more put. And I just went out there and I climbed that sand dune and I climbed, I climbed. I was praying, please don't have quicksand here. I don't want to be Lawrence of Arabia. But I just trusted and I climbed and I climbed and I climbed and the photos that I took. Now I understand why the Sahara Desert gave me a sandstorm. Because Gaia Pachamama herself was fanning my dress in a way that I could have never before. And I looked out, just bare on top of the sand dune, looking right into the wind like no shield, nowhere to hide. And I just let her speak to me and just the codes that she carried. I later learned the Sahara Desert used to be an ocean. And just the vibration that the water carries was still in that sand. And that is why there's such a frequency shift that happens when you're there. It's like you're at the bottom of the ocean and there actually still are fossils of the fish and the coral that people are still finding there. And by the way, the entire place is packed with crystals. I bought some of the most beautiful crystals I've ever seen from this desert. It was such an initiation to just be there and bring beauty to. To it, you know, not I'm trekking the sand dune and I'm dominating it, but I'm in it in a red dress and jewelry and hair and makeup, and I am climbing that gnarly sand dune. I'm bringing beauty and femininity and bliss and sacredness to it. I am dancing to the wind. And to me, it was just such a reflection of the divine feminine that we overcome so much, but we do it with such grace that it doesn't need to be this like expedition with your hiking shoes and get through it. But it's rather like I'm gonna do it in my 27 foot long red dress and make it look like the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. And the Sahara Desert. My mama right here, she's fanning my dress, making sure it's flying enough for those shots. And it was just such a portal to be in, to just. I realized that my fear of the wind was so much greater than the wind. Like when you hear the wind against a tent, it sound so much more intense. But when you're just there bare, it's like, I'm good, like I'm going to be okay. Like I'm not going to fly away from this wind. There were times that the photographer held the dress so it kind of made it a hot air balloon. And those times I definitely could have flown away. Small animal definitely could have flown away, but I got enough gravity to me that I was good. And it was just such a portal to be in. And as soon as I get those photos and videos, which I've seen some sneak peeks soon, and I'm like, holy freak. Like, there is no way. Because I did another photo shoot in Marrakesh, which I'll share with you in a second, but I did another one with one of those long flying dresses and there was no wind and it was like impossible to get a picture of the dress flying because the dress was so heavy. Whereas with this, it was like. I mean, even if I had 20 gigantic fans and a whole team of people fanning me, I would not be able to get the level of fly that I got for this photo shoot. So I'm so go on my Instagram. I'm going to try to get this out as soon as possible so you can like, see and feel these pictures and just like feel the essence of the divine feminine and our grace and our strength. And like how beautiful it is that the feminine is able to create art out of any experience. We create art out of a storm. And that's like what childbirth is, right? You're going through the most painful portal initiation. You're bringing the most beautiful thing. Life. Life. So that experience definitely changed me. And just also being there and not having cell phone service for two days, because I did have service for the rest of Morocco. And I will say, you know, I was sharing a lot, which was beautiful, but also maybe I wish I could have unplugged a little more, but I was just so excited to share with you guys everything. Whereas in the desert, I didn't have service. So so much poetry was coming through. And that's really what created the shift of me anchoring into my. My inner poet, which has always been a part of me. If you guys don't know, I actually have a song out. It's a spoken word song. If you go on, on Spotify, I haven't been sharing that side of me as often. And being there just so I'm like, wow, words really are my medicine of how I'm here to share. And I think, you know, being an author and especially in the spiritual space, a lot of your writing, like, needs to become very how to and educational and instructional and. And, you know, for the first two weeks in Morocco, I was really writing my joy book and how people become joyful and like, what. What are the pathways to joy? And a big realization that I had there is you can't read something and how to and become that thing. But rather it comes from a frequency shift. Instead of telling people how to be joyful, read them something that's a transmission of joy. So that really reminded me and shifted me and gave me the affirmation that I needed that my next book needs to be poetry. And again, I don't know if it's going to be like straight up poems or just how I write it is going to be in a more poetic way. But letting myself be my artist archetype, which I always have been since I was a child. But, you know, the limiting beliefs when you're a kid that your parents tell you you're never going to make it as an artist, you're going to be a starving artist. You're going to end up homeless. Artists don't make money. That's unrealistic was definitely still playing in my head and it's just like, okay, how do I make it more approachable? How do I make it more easy? More easy for people to grasp easy concepts? And it's like, no, fuck that. I'm not here to be understood. I'm here to understand myself. I'm not here to be approachable. I'm not here to be the girl next door unless she happens to be a mystic. And that is who I am. So that really just like set that anchoring and that trust in the next iteration of me as an artist. Not only a word artist, but also my music and my DJing and just bringing artistic, like everything that I share, letting it be through the lens of beauty and art. We'll take a quick break so I can share with you this special offer. This podcast is sponsored by Better Help. It is so important to have someone that you can openly talk to about your issues and what's going on. Sometimes we use our friends as well as therapists, but that's really not what they're for. 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Podcast listeners get 10% off their first month@betterhelp.com Sahara again, that's better help. H E L P.com Sahara for 10% off. So huge initiation and post the Sahara Desert because it's such a far drive away. I'm talking, you know, 10 hours of driving. We stopped in a desert oasis. So desert oasis. If you've read the Alchemist before are basically areas of the desert where a river once was or still is. And that river has led to irrigation, farming and life. So we stopped at this desert oasis called Darhanini, which was very beautiful. I was actually pleasantly surprised, to be honest. I just thought it was going to be some, like, pit stop. We stay there for two days, like it's just some village. But it was. Was actually gorgeous. And we got to learn more about the farming and what they grow and agriculture, which is the largest industry still in Morocco. So that was a really beautiful and nice surprise. And also just so much gratitude for the water. You know, the Sahara Desert and the dunes are so beautiful. Oh, and I forgot to tell you about visiting the nomads there. Yes. So this is a huge part of it. It. So I've always been drawn to nomadic people. You know, Gypsies, Bedouins, Berber, definitely have had a lot of past lives there. And again, also in this lifetime being part Bedouin. So we went out and the person who actually was the owner of the camp, who grew up as a nomad, he did not even know how to read or write until he was a teenager and never went to school. Grew up as a goat farmer. He took. Took us. We drove through the sand dunes. I'm talking villages that you would. If you didn't drive through a sand dune in like a special jeep that can do that. I don't even know how you would ever get to these places in the middle of nowhere. And we drove to several different nomadic. They weren't even villages because these nomads live on their own. Sometimes there'll be two families, but the ones that we visited were mostly just one family. So they make their homes with whatever leftover kind of trash that they can find. So it was fascinating to see that they used everything from flip flops to T shirts to anything that they just found in the trash in the city that the village that's closest to them, they created their homes with their shelters with. And you can see it all on my story highlight and on my Instagram as well. So, of course, going to it, you know, part of me felt so sad of like, how can people live like this? And. And of course, there's no running water, there's no electricity. These children don't go to school. And I was also trying to look at it from a more anthropological lens of who am I to say what's best. And it's hard because I'm such a, you know, I'm a human rights advocate. So it's hard for Me to sometimes not have that, like, narrative of what's right. And I do believe that every child is worthy of education and every person is worthy of water, for sure. And what really struck me was just the drought that is happening right now. Of course, the desert is always dry, but the past five years, they have been going through a really horrific drought that it has barely been raining, and many of the wells have gone completely dry. So we went to the first nomadic home. They were goat farm herders, and me and Stephen, we love animals. So we went straight up to the goats, and they were running to us. You'll see it. You'll see the video on my story. These hundreds of goats just run to us. Baby goats. They were. At first I was like, wait, are they. What are they going to do? But they're just running to us. And I just held them like puppies. Some of them, like, let me cuddle them and play with them. Like, some of them were definitely reincarnated dogs. But then they kept following me, and I realized they wanted water. There's not enough water there because all of the wells are dry. That water is so scarce. And this family is doing whatever they can. And part of the reason why, the reason why nomads are nomadic is because they need to keep moving to find grass for their goat and their sheep. So as soon as one area, the grass is kind of eaten up, they move to the next area, which has become more difficult now, you know, because the Berbers have no. No borders, right? They travel anywhere. However, because of the Moroccan and Algerian governments political disagreements, the border has shut down. So a lot of these Berber people are really struggling because now they can't cross that border and anymore to Algeria, which they used to just be able to go to when the season required them to go there. So they're really struggling. So a lot of nomadic people have had to leave the nomadic way of living and have had to move to villages where many of them are not doing so well. They don't have education, they cannot read or write. Some of them are even moving to the big cities and becoming homeless. So that was so sad to see, because being a nomad is such a cultural way of life there. That's really, really what the Berber way of life has been about. And because of this drought and because of the political disagreements with Algeria, it's very hard for it to happen. So it was heartbreaking just to see just, first of all, these goats, let alone human beings, struggling and not having enough water. So these goats were like, it's Just this empty bin. And they keep, like, looking at me and they're like trying to lick, and it's completely dry. So that really broke my heart, you know, it's like, I want to do everything that I can. How can I build a well in a drought? You know? And that's why many of these nomadic people have no choice but to leave their life. And in fact, it's getting increasingly rare to find nomadic people who are still doing it because of how challenging it's become. Now, what do they eat? Most of them live off of dates. Dates grow very abundantly in Morocco. Like all of the palm trees, there are date trees. So dates really provide so much sustenance for people to live off of milk, milk from their goats or sheep, and then the meat time and time again. So most of them, that is all they eat at all. And now they, you know, they have to go further and, you know, once a week or so gather water. But it's more and more difficult. Again, they don't have. They don't have cars they have to take. If they're lucky, they have a camel. But camels are even getting very expensive there, so you definitely could feel the struggle. So we went there, we brought. I'm so glad I brought those school supplies because I saw these beautiful girls in the second place that we visited, and I hope they can learn how to read and write. I really do, because it's just going to provide them with so many more opportunities. You know, my grandma was in a forced child marriage when she was 11 years old. Years old. And the one regret she had is that after that marriage, she had to leave school. Luckily, she learned how to read and write before that. But just so many of these girls, when they don't know how to read and write, they'll never have an alternative to getting married. And still, many places around the world, not just in Morocco, have forced marriages. And oftentimes they are too true. Children under 18 years old sometimes, you know, they said the age is getting older and older, but still, in many parts of the world, it's not unnormal for girls. I hope they're older than 11, but that still happen. I mean, in different countries, there are girls as young as 7 years old who are enforced child marriages. So that really just breaks my heart to know that so many of these girls will have no children choice because they were never taught how to read or write, that they will have to marry whoever their family chooses for them to marry. And who their family chooses to marry becomes a money issue. Just because the families don't have money that it goes to who can pay them the highest dowry, who can give them sheep or goat or cows or gold or whatever the dowry is. And the way the dowry works in Islamic cultures is the men actually pay the woman's family to marry her, whereas in Indian culture, the woman pays, raised the man's family so a little different. So these girls and these children were just so stunning. I actually, you know, I gave them some, some snacks as well, because I was like, every child deserves to have chocolate, you know, at least once in their lives. So I gave them some kinder eggs that I had as well, and books and pencils and pens. And I'm just praying that it opens up a doorway that maybe these girls will start to learn how to read and write from these books and maybe their parents will send them to schools, because there are schools for the nomadic children. And that's where we went to next. We actually went to first a preschool. We brought some supplies there and then we went to a school. So it was one classroom that was for everyone between three. I mean, yeah, it's interesting because there's a preschool, but there were like three year old kids in this classroom, up to a boy that was probably, probably like 13. So it's just one classroom for all of the kids. It's better than nothing, but definitely because just supplies are low there. There's just not enough money for different classrooms and teachers and all of that. So we went to the school and I just got into my teacher's role. I started teaching them head, shoulders, knees and toes. And you know, any, by the way, if you go to any country, you want something to teach the kids, teach them head, shoulders, knees and toes. Because that is like a really fun song and it helps helps them learn. Head, shoulders, knees and toes, eyes, ears, mouth and nose. And then I just start to teach them different body parts, hands, feet, eyelashes, eyebrows. And we spend a few hours just working on these. So it gives them something tangible to walk away with. That them knowing a little bit of English can really help them with just getting jobs, their education, learning new things, reading books. It can just open up a pathway. So that was just so beautiful. The children were so lovely. My favorite thing to do on earth is to volunteer. And it just reminded me how deeply I desire to also do volunteer work here in Miami, where I live. And there are many children in need. So wherever you are, you don't need to go to another country to be of service. There's so much available for us Right here. And any country you go to, I highly encourage you to go on idealist.org, ask your waiter, ask the busboy, ask the house cleaner. Where can I teach here? Are there any orphanages here? Where can I bring school supplies? Do you know any hospitals I can visit? They know it doesn't need to be a big fancy organization. Just ask local people. If this guy who didn't own the camp didn't bring me to these nomadic villages, I would have never had access to them. But because he was a nomad himself, I was able to go there. So it doesn't need to be. You know, of course, if. If you've never been to that country, maybe you feel more safe going with a nonprofit organization. But while you're also traveling, go off the beaten path and volunteer. I guarantee you it will be the highlight of your trip and will connect you with the culture more than any else. So after that, in the desert oasis, we went to Marrakech. Now Marrakesh is where we spent the next eight days. And I thought Marrakesh was going to be, like, the city I was the most obsessed with. And actually, it ended up as a city, as a medina, ended up being. My least favorite reason why is because there were motorcycles everywhere. So as you're walking through these labyrinths, there's, like, super, super fast motorcycles going by you on both sides. And it's really dangerous. And I was really worried for just the kids running around there, for the elderly running around there, for the homeless people on the side of the street where these people are just zipping so fast. So whereas Fez felt very, like, very homey and very personal, even though it's actually a larger medina, the one in Marrakech has more of a city energy to it. In Fez, on, honestly, I didn't really experience people begging at us. I never felt unsafe at all. Like, it felt everyone just kind of, like, left us alone, did our own thing, or they would want to talk to us to, like, learn where we're from, you know. Whereas in Marrakesh, that's where I saw, you know, there's this big square in the middle of Marrakesh, and there's just so many people from, like, snake charmers. But it's like they've taken these snakes from the wild and are like, you know, snakes are not meant to live in a little, little pot for you to dance up and down when you play flute. Like, that's not right. But what was even sadder were all of the monkeys on chains. Yeah. So Again, I understand why when people are desperate, they look for whatever they can for money. But there are so many monkeys that literally have, like, metal collars on them with metal chains. And the people are like, hey, do you want to take a picture of this monkey? And I was just like, you know, know, again, cultural thing. I don't want to tell people what not to do. But it's like, monkeys do not. They're not meant. They're. They're communal beings. You know, they're not meant to be on their own, and they're definitely not meant to be on a leash, a metal leash. And I was just so sad for them. What was more surprising was to see freaking tourists pay these people to take pictures with them. I'm like, well, as long as these people are making money off of these monkeys, like, this is going to keep going. So that, like, Marrakesh, the city center is like, where you see a lot of that type of stuff. Like, if you make eye contact with someone, they think you're going to buy something. It can be very, very intense, and you definitely have to have your guard up. Luckily, I did not experience any kind of pickpocketer. But we were warned about this. We were warned about, don't buy the argan oil here. It might be fake argan oil. Don't buy the spices here. It's fake spices. Don't do the henna. It has chemicals in it. So it's definitely the result of a lot of tourism, which causes people to cut corners and do what they can. And. And it was definitely a culture shock for me because my entire experience in Morocco has been so lovely and gentle and warm and sweet, and that's the true essence of what Morocco is. Just, this is like, you know, it's as if you went to Times Square. That's not real New York. It's New York for tourists. So. So I was a bit shocked because everything I saw about Marrakesh online and it just kind of shows you social media versus reality. I thought it was going to be like, I thought I was actually going to buy a second home there. I was like, I'm probably going to end up moving here. Like I told my mom, I'm like, I'm probably. This is where I'm going to. And once I got there, I was like, dude, I don't even want to walk around this mini unit. So overwhelming. So I would say the beautiful part of Marrakesh is it had the most amazing hotels of all of the places. The hotels here were off the charts. So I'll share with you where I stayed. Okay. Who watched Sex and the City 2? So Sex and the City 2 is the one that they went to Abu Dhabi, the one that, that Carrie kissed Aiden. Does anyone remember that scene where Carrie kissed Aiden? So the hotel that she kissed Aiden at, Aiden's hotel is the Amanjana. And this is where I stayed. So this hotel, like, if I were to have a massive budget, I could create any hotel of any aesthetic. What would I create? It would be the Amanjana. It is like everything is peach. These long hallways, these arches, this just like ornate, spacious, sacred, palatial and energy. Like, it wasn't like the Riyads where it's like very like, you know, the Riads are in the middle of the medina, so it's like small and it's like a lot going on. Whereas this is like an empress, the peach with the turquoise, like my two favorite colors coming together. I could not stop staring. Like, I was just in disbelief of the level of beauty. I've never seen something like this before. Just from my aesthetic, it was perfection. So the Amanjenna highly recommend go on their Instagram. It was amazing. Again, I don't work with them. I just really, really liked it. A lot of my pictures from my Instagram that you'll see in the long hallway, the one with the, with the long golden dress, I recorded a beautiful reel there that was in the Amanjana. So that was the most beautiful hotel I've actually ever been in my entire life. And of course in Morocco as well. However, we stayed at another hotel too. And this was where I faced an abundance block. So it's quite fascinating. So this hotel is called, called the Mandarin Oriental and there's Mandarin Orientals all over the place. They're beautiful, very high end, five star hotels. But this one in Morocco was on another level in terms of the service. Like, you walk in and they're like, he's like, I'm Osama, I'm going to be your butler. I'm like, okay. They wouldn't even let you walk holding your cup. They're like, oh, let me hold your cup. I'm like, wait, I can hold my own cup. Like, it was actually to the point that it, it felt too much for me and my husband were like, wait, are we experiencing an abundance block right now? It was like I couldn't handle the level of service just because in the US like, you know, I would say in Europe there really isn't that much service. Like, we went to France before this for my friend's wedding for a few days. And like in France, like, they don't even bring up your bags to your hotel. Like, even in a nice hotel. Like, they're like, okay, you're on your own, like, very much. And I'm not saying everywhere, but in general, as a culture, it's not. They're not into giving service. They're kind of like smoking their cigarettes, doing their own thing. In America, people help you with your bags. There's a level of service, but you don't get, like, butlers, you know, you don't get people who are like, holding your cup as you take a walk from this side of the hotel to the next side, like, walking behind you, who are, like, gonna hold an umbrella for you. It's not like that. Whereas in Morocco, in India, it's very much like that. And it can be very overwhelming. Like, I remember in India going to some restaurants where there's first of all just a staff of people just sitting around your table, and you're just like, this is awkward. And then when you try to reach to, like, grab more vegetables, they're like, oh, let me get that for you. It's like, you don't have the ratio of broccoli versus sauce. I want. Like, I'm good. Like, I will get my own. But, you know, people there are used to it, and it really does come from the poverty gap. Like, that is the reason why there's such a high level of service, because there's a huge amount of wealth and a huge amount of poverty. That that's what allows people to have servants and butlers, et cetera, which is normalized, especially in. In India, like, so many people have servants. It's. And they even call them servants, which like, to me grow. In America, that's like a very offensive term, but because of the disparity gap. Whereas in France, there's not as much of a disparity gap which leads to less. Less service. So. So in Morocco, there is that big disparity gap as well. And it was actually quite hard to receive that level of service. It was so beautiful. Such a gorgeous hotel. Absolutely loved. And I would go back, but I wouldn't say, I don't want. I don't want someone like, catering to my every needs. But it was. It was a gorgeous, gorgeous largest hotel. And we also stayed at the Four Seasons there. So we kind of did like, a few nights in one place, a few nights in the other place. Not on purpose, but, you know, I'm being real on this podcast we were supposed to stay at a Riyadh and we were exhausted. It was our first day when we got to Marrakesh. So we had a six hour drive from the desert oasis to Marrakech. And I'm on my yoga mat. I noticed this like bug on the ground, but I just didn't think anything of it. I thought it's just, just a bug. And then it's finally, it's like we went to dinner, we couldn't find a place again. You're in, you're in these Medinas. There's no cars or anything like that. Even just bringing our bags to the Riad. It was like 15 minutes of going through these alleys. So we're exhausted. It's 1am we're finally going to sleep. And Steven's like, come here, look at this bug. And I look and I see the bug go across the pillow, down the bed. He's like, was that a bed bug? I'm like, fuck. Because I experienced bedbugs in an old apartment I lived in in Santa Monica, which was like on Ocean Ave, which was supposed to be very nice. And this entire building had bedbugs. They didn't tell anyone. It was like a whole thing. And it's traumatizing. Like if you've gone through bedbugs, it's bed bugs before. It's very traumatizing because you have to like get rid of so much of your stuff that can live in your frames, they can live in your pillows, they can live anywhere, anywhere. And it's so hard to get rid of them. And they bite you and they suck your blood when they know you're asleep. So you wake up with like a trail of bites on you. So we found the bedbug and we took a picture and luckily Steven was able to kill it. I look it up online, it was a bedbug. And I'm like, dude, I'm not sleeping here tonight knowing that there's bedbugs. He's like, come on, I'm so exhausted, let's just sleep. I'm like, like, you know, part of me was the inner good girl that was like, okay, he's exhausted. Like, yeah, what are we gonna do in the middle of the night? Like walk through the Medina with all the her bags at 1am like, where are we even going to stay? Just sleep there. Like tomorrow we'll leave. That's what my inner people pleaser was telling me. But my inner bad was like, no, like I am not sleeping in a bed knowing that it has bed bugs. Like, we need to find someone that works at this hotel. You know, it's not even a hotel. It's like people's house. There's no locks even on the door at these places. We need to find someone and get out of here. Because if we sleep for one night with bed one, I'm going to wake up with bites on my face. And they can live in our clothes, which will lead to us having bedbugs continually for the rest of our trip. Maybe bring them back to Miami. Like, this is a major hygiene issue. So I'm like, stephen, no, we need to leave. I am not staying here. And I really put my foot down. He was like, kind of like, he didn't, he didn't realize what a big deal bedbugs are. So I went on hotels.com and that's how I found the Four Seasons, which was like, we got there. We're like, ah, such an upgrade. And I share this with you because sometimes as women, we're just like, we like, put up with because it's like easier not to. But it's like, no, I'm not going to put myself in harm's way. I'm not even going to put myself in discomfort. Sway, I'm paying for this. This is my vacation and I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight knowing that there's bedbugs in here. So I later learned that Marrakesh does have a bedbug issue in the city. So I would suggest if you do stay there again. I don't think every single place has it, but New York has a bedbug issue too. It's not just Marrakesh, you know, there are bedbugs in different cities around the world. Look, Santa Monica even had it. So I can't just say it's Marrakech. However, I will say I felt more safe being a little bit outside of the Medina and I just preferred it energetically. It was the Medina there because of just like how intense the energy is. It's a lot for someone like me who feels. Whereas there's lots of hotels that are like a 10 minute drive outside of the medina, which are gorgeous like the Four Seasons, the Mandarin Oriental, Amanjena and so many others. So I would recommend staying there. Now. Another thing that was quite overrated. I'm just keeping it real on this podcast. I'm not sponsored by anyone, so I can say whatever the fuck I want. So there's this hotel that everyone was talking about called La Mamounia and I saw so many Instagram posts about it, and it's like where the royalty stays. And it looked so stunning and so beautiful. So we decided to do the spa, the hammam there. And they were like, it was very, like, tough, like, because, you know, a lot of diplomats and presidents and stuff stay there. And I will say that that that was an overrated experience just for what you pay for there. Like, the hamams in Morocco are amazing and really beautiful. And like, typically you have your own little sauna to yourself, but at this one, you're paying so much more. It's like a shared sauna with people. Like, and the hammam style is very rough. Like, they're very rough in the way that they, like, exfoliate your skin and then they put soap on you and you have to get up and you have to go down. Like, that's part of the. Of the process. But it didn't feel like relaxing to me for sure. And again, they don't let you use the pool or any of the facilities if you're not a hotel guest. And the rooms there were like sixteen hundred dollars a night. So I would say you could go and check it out if you want to, like, take some pictures there. But it just felt very like Vegas hotel. Like, you know, a hotel that got really popular. So they made it really, really big. And there's just like so many people and there's all these, like, design diner stores all in it. It didn't feel authentic anymore. It was just like stores that you would see at the airport. Right? So I would say that that was again, the things that I thought I would love were not the things that I ended up loving. Or there was this other Riyadh that I had seen all over Instagram that was, you know, it was super beautiful. But again, from Instagram, I thought it was going to be this like, gorgeous, like, spacious place. And I got there and it was like, I think. Cause everyone also saw their Instagram. It was like 10 people all crammed up into the space. It was like even. Even hard to get pictures there. So I would say explore, because the things that are really popular on Instagram are going to be popular with a lot of people. So they're going to be feel very touristic and they're going to lose that magic and that essence. The things that were the biggest incredible surprises for me, going to the nomadic village, being in that desert camp, I will say in the desert. So I love the drums. I love music. So follow the drums. Like, every time we heard drums, we would follow Them. So when we were in Fez, we like heard drums from like the side of the street. We like walked our way up and we like ended up in this room with like all these like 20 year old Moroccans just like playing the drums at this like cool bar. They were playing this called Guara music and it was so stunning and just so, yeah, such a cultural experience. And then also when we were in the desert, I was like, who are the local musicians here? I would love to hire them to come perform their local music for us. So this group of men who. And you can culturally see the culture is so much different. The Sahara desert has a much more African culture to it. So the Gwara music is a mixture of African culture with the Berber culture together. And they are Berber people. It's just rather than having, having more of the Arab roots, they have more sub Saharan African roots. So their music is stunning. And just the way that they play instruments and they came and performed and then I'm like, can I drum with you guys? So I was drumming with them and we were just like jam into different beats and I would start a beat and they would, they would play their instruments and start singing. They would start one, I would drum along. So that was so much fun. Like those were the peak highlights of my experience. The things that were spontaneous and they came from me asking, you know, like, you gotta be the person to ask. Like the, the camp didn't offer me them to sing. I asked, do you guys know any locals who would love to sing? The camp didn't offer me to go to a school. I asked where can I go to a school? Didn't offer me to go to the village. I asked where can I go to the village? So I say this because sometimes you see other people and they're having like the vacation of your dreams, but it's like they didn't necessarily sign up for this. If you go to the things that a travel guide or whoever are going to have as an option, those are the things that everyone's already doing. So yes, do some of those things. But while you're there, really take initiative to do what you love. Another really cool thing that on Airbnb experiences, a lot of locals are offering different classes. So there were pottery classes, art classes, dance classes. So many things that were being offered there that give you like a more insider's look of what it's actually, actually like to be in the, in the culture. You know, let's say you, you love mosaic work. You could have taken a mosaics class. For me, I love to dance. I took a dance class. So really make the trip your own. I think sometimes we just do the, the general you've been down the path things, but the things that you love, wouldn't it be cool to do it somewhere else and see how they love doing it? Like go like. We did a cooking class and that was super interesting to learn. So overall, that was my trip to Maresh. It was beautiful. It was everything I could have asked for and more. I highly recommend it. And I am another person on the other side. It definitely took me a while to recover from the jet lag. Like maybe because I'm getting older. I also found my first couple of gray hairs. So here I am. So it took me, it took me a minute. I was like kind of exhausted. I actually had really bad digestive issues for the first week. When I got back, I was like, did I get like parasites or something? I felt totally, totally fine there. And my husband too, he. And he often gets stomach issues when traveling. Felt totally fine there. So I would say again, we didn't eat like side of the street stuff. We typically ate in like nice places and hotels. But when I got back, I got a really bad stomachache and I realized it was from the flax milk I was drinking. Just the guar gum and the chemicals that these flax milks and almond milks and all these non dairy milks have, they're not good for your digestion. So I had really bad gas pains and I think it was from reintroducing that back into my diet. So I've gone back to making my own almond milk, coconut milk just. And if you see when you make your own almond or coconut milk, it only lasts in your fridge for like two, three days. That's because it's natural. So these milks that last for like a lifetime, sometimes not even needing to be refrigerated, like what chemicals do they put in there for that to happen? What is that doing to your digestive system? So yeah, like coming back from a long trip like that, it's almost like I don't even know how to work. Like your emails. I. I was still looking at my emails. It wasn't like a total sabbatical. I was still like replying to things that needed to be. But I wasn't coaching, I wasn't doing my Q and A calls. But coming back now that I'm in the swing of things has been so great. I actually recorded this whole docu series that I'm creating. Very inspired by the JLo docuseries. So I've made my own about just like living your dharma and being multi dimensional. I've been really stepping into my artist archetype. Like I've mentioned sharing more of my poetry. Actually booked my first DJ gig at a festival. So I'm gonna be DJing at a festival this fall, which I'm very excited for. I'll be sharing with you more about that, where we'll be soon. So I'm just really wanting to sit into operating from this new frequency. Like I noticed within myself because there were such long drives. I was just, you know, really paying attention to my thoughts. And by the way, I was listening to a really great book called Braiding Sweetgrass, which I highly recommend. It's this Native American woman who's a botanist and she shares just these beautiful stor stories about plants, but also weaves it in with like the medicine and the story of the plants and what they signify and their science. It's really cool. But anyways, I had a lot of time for introspection. I realized that like my nervous system was just operating from such a hyper aroused space that the moment that I had any kind of space, I was like, okay, check your Instagram, check your WhatsApp, check your TikTok, check your emails, check your text, check your this, check your that. Like looking for something to respond to, you know, looking for something that's gone wrong. Like always feeling like I'm falling behind and if I'm not, how can I get ahead? And I just start to really recognize that in myself, you know, especially when you have like slow or not working Internet, you're just like, wow, why am I even wanting this so bad? Like, where am I going? So I'm really wanting to sit more from this place of like being very mindful of the energy that I create content from being in my zone of genius, not in my zone of competence. So doing the things that are really what I'm here to do and spending my time on that and not letting too things like replying to all the DMS or you know, this marketing thing or whatever else I'm doing. Oh, the tech isn't working. Oh, let me revise this. It's like, doesn't really need to be done. So I'm just really sitting with. How can I like, not even just work smarter, but just like work only in alignment and create when I'm in like. And I can't say wait for the muse, like create the muse, but then let the muse guide and then have the spaciousness of the pause. You know, you don't always need to be on because then you're really never gonna get to that space of creativity if you're always just like. Imagine if I'm like always kind of jogging, it's gonna be hard for me to sprint because I'm gonna be kind of tired, right? So if I'm resting, then I can do the sprint when the sprint is there. So I've had some days this week that have been like 12 hour days just like in it and then like days like today that have been more slow. And I'm on this podcast which is just like, this is like my fun part for me. This is basically like my journal that I get to tell you guys. It's like we just had coffee after a long time and now we're here chatting. So yeah, I'm just really sitting with that. I feel a major identity shift that's coming. Just my more mystical essence and letting that be enough and really releasing some of the old expectations that I had upon myself of what success used to look like. Like, looking at, you know, a lot of people out there who have a book come out every single year and they speak on these big stages and they're traveling and you know, they have these big teams and these big launches and like that's what success looks like, right? For me. I actually just don't really care about having a big business. Like, I just don't really care. It's not my passion. I don't want to be on Shark Tank. Like, it's not my dream to be. Like, I have a eight figure business, you know, and it's been interesting because I have a business and people often do come to me for like business inspo, I guess. But it's, it was never my goal. Like I literally created a business so I could have a place for me to create, a place for me to podcast, a place for me to share, a place for me to coach. Like, it was always about me being in alignment. And this was the vessel. It was always about the freedom, it was always about the creation. And the business was the vessel that allowed the success to happen. However, in creating a business, it's just so many things become important that you need to figure out, right? You need to figure out how to manage a team, you figure out SEO, you need to figure out tech, you need to figure out marketing, you need to figure out just so many different things that, that has taken a lot of my mental currency the past seven plus years now. And now I'M just really consciously choosing to not make that be my focus. Like, yes, continue to. To grow. But, like, my goal now is really to build a team that's in their zones of genius and have a more matriarchal structure of us working. Where they tell me what they think we should do with the tech, they tell me what they think we should do with this. Like, I don't believe in patriarchal leadership where I'm the person top down making the decisions. I don't want to be a part of that. I want to be a part of the circle where we're all coming together and sharing, and each of us have our own zones of genius and expertise. And we. And we're each trying things and failing at things and learning along the way. Like, that's what feels good for me. So I've been really operating from that. I have a very small team right now, but it's been really great. Like a couple really solid people who are here for the mission and the vision and just empowering them more to make choices, which allows them to be more in their creative zones of genius and align their dharmas with our collective dharma. Dharma. And that also gives me more of that space and less of that, you know, control and the need to be responding to things all the time for me to really channel the next iteration of what's meant to come through. So, you know, whether that looks like this book being a poetry book or taking another shape and form, whether it's like really stepping into being a DJ and performing at different festivals, I don't know the full picture yet, you know, but I'm just. I'm operating from the frequency, and I'm letting the frequency be the message, you know, like, right now I'm really passionate about sharing with people that you're allowed to be multidimensional, you know, you don't need to be one thing. You don't need to label yourself. And in our day and age where we feel like we need to contain ourselves to 180 character words and you can't. Like, how do I explain myself to you when my highest self is still telling me, you know, so I've been sitting with that, sitting, sitting with that like, I know nothing. And that's beautiful. So that's where I'm at right now. It's been just an initiation, upgrade, shift, seasonal, cyclical transition, all of it. And I just want to thank you for listening to this all, and I hope it inspires you to take a trip anywhere that has been the place that You've been wanting to go, you know, like you're going to get the most money back but you're never going to get these years back. And I really want that to land because so often like we put back the, the dream travel and yes, like I definitely had to save up for this trip for sure. And you know, like there were times on the trip that like, you know, staying at the Four Seasons, not cheap at all. You know, staying at these hotels is not cheap. But I'm like, I don't know when I'm ever going to be back in Morocco. So like the couple hundred even couple thousand dollar difference that it makes, it's like I can make like that money back. And also I want to share that I used to travel the world with very, very, very little money, like $2 a night huts in India. So also in a lot of countries, especially developing countries around the world, you actually don't need much money to travel. You can very easily find riads in Morocco for $30 a night that are like nice riads. So I will say with all of this, I hope it inspires you to start dreaming about where it is that you want to explore and, and you don't need to travel to have revelations. You don't need to travel to transition. You don't need to travel to step into the new version of you. And this trip reminded me how travel also can help with that. You know, just being in a different place, being in a change of scenery and it's not always easy. You know, I eat a really, really healthy diet. Like I don't eat any form of sugar bread, pasta, like nothing. And there is like sugar in basically everything like every everywhere. They give you Moroccan mint tea, has a ton of sugar in it. They eat bread with almost every meal. They eat couscous which is pasta. So it wasn't easy. You know, like I definitely had to do a lot of like explaining of like can you just do this with like vegetables? They're like, and pasta. I'm like no, no, no, just vegetables. So also sometimes those changes and like it feels really good to be back and like have my fridge and be able to make my matcha and like have my non dairy milk for sure. But it also shows you you really don't need those things. Like I actually was able to be fine. I brought my own powdered matcha with me. I brought coconut milk powder with me, I brought my inulin, my shilajit. So I just needed hot water and like that was my morning drink, you know, for Lunch, I would explain to them, like, a green salad. And, like, hotels knew that and villages. I mean, there wasn't green salad. But, you know, I made. I made. Do, you know, whatever vegetable they had. I just ate that. That. And you just realize, like, how little you need. I would definitely say bring some protein bars or something that you can eat. Like, there were definitely times that, you know, I didn't feel super satiated because of just like, most of the food were things I couldn't eat, especially when I was, like, out in the villages. Right. But it was still, like 100% worth it and never a problem. So I would say don't let sometimes, like, the comforts of life hold you back from taking that adventure and traveling, because it reminds you that the comforts of night, of life aren't really needed, but having wonder and awe sometimes is really what you need. Like, when is the last time you experienced wonder and awe that you just looked at something, you're like, this is magnificent. How did someone make this? How did God make this? You know, looking at nature, looking at the sunset. Oh, one thing I'll add, when we were in Chefchaouen, so it's like, deep in kind of the agricultural area. So we went to this beautiful river that had this stunning waterfall that we hiked for, like two hours. And there's all these beautiful like. Like restaurants, like little Ma and Pa restaurants that were on the river. And we swam in the water, and it was so beautiful. And then we stopped at a marijuana field. Cannabis field. So it was fascinating to learn about how they grow cannabis and how most of the cannabis that they smoke in, like, Spain and Portugal and lots of parts of Europe are grown in Morocco. So we also got to have some of that nature, whereas. So I do recommend leaving the cities and the Medinas as well to have that nature experience. And of course, the Sahara Desert is such beautiful nature. So I share this with you because sometimes we need to see things that we didn't even know we wanted to see, to experience that awe and wonder. So take that trip. Get on a bus and see where it takes you. Buy a random cheap flight somewhere. Somewhere. You know, there's so many fun deals you can find online that, like, sometimes it's like, oh, for like, $100, you could take this flight to Iceland. Like, take the flight to Iceland. You don't know what you'll learn. You learn so much about yourself through traveling, especially solo travel. I used to do most of my travel by myself and just spending hours, you know, on a train Alone, being in a hotel on your own, you really learn so much about yourself. You have so much time for interesting that it's like it shifts you to a degree that you just never would have if you were at home with your comforts, with your phone, et cetera. So I really want to keep this frequency of continuing to have awe and wonder in my life. You know, there are so many places in Miami that I still haven't visited. I'm sure where you live, there are many places close by you driving distance to you that you haven't been to. So continue to find things that amaze you both locally and and globally. So with that, that was my trip to Morocco. Beautiful, Stunning as usual. And it was just a trip of a lifetime and I hope it inspires you to take yours. 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