A speaker describes how Boston's rigid, fast-paced energy shocked her nervous system after loss, so she sought refuge in softer spaces like a coffee shop and nursery to grieve and write. Now healed, she's ready to return, arguing you can recover in the same place that broke you if you find or create gentler pockets within it.
I really do think environments impact our energy, and Boston is very rigid and structured and masculine and intense and fast, and my nervous system was shocked. And nervous system regulation was a huge part of my healing. And I think subconsciously, without understanding it, I was craving a softer environment, one that's a little bit more flow, and also an environment where I wasn't constantly staring at what I'd lost. That's where Layden was alive. That's the coffee shop we went to with my girlfriends and their babies the last day before I went to the hospital, not knowing she was never gonna leave. That's the nursery. So that's why. And I'm ready to come back, actually. And I think it was like I went into this portal to like kind of heal and write my book. And yeah.
