In this personal vlog, Shawna Lynne (Delulu Today) recounts a high‑stakes day when a $54,000 payroll deposit failed to arrive for her nonprofit summer camp. Facing a 5:30 pm deadline, she races to five different banks, confronts withdrawal limits, fraud alerts, and identity‑verification hurdles, ultimately securing the cash needed to pay staff. Throughout the ordeal she reflects on the fear and responsibility of leading a passion‑driven nonprofit, describes the uncomfortable yet productive conversations she held with staff, and acknowledges how her ADHD amplifies anxiety. After resolving the crisis, she shifts to self‑care: reading tarot cards, allowing herself to cry, and processing the emotional residue of the day. The narrative blends crisis management, leadership, mental‑health awareness, and personal resilience.
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I did it. I actually did it. Yesterday afternoon, the money for camp from the summer employment did not make it to my bank account for payroll. $54,000 to pay my staff. That needs to come out tonight at 5:30. I could let everyone down and make excuses, or I can be responsible and figure out how to do that, which is what I did. I'm so proud of you. I reached out, I got some really great support. I got a few snatches in that support that took a lot more work to sort out than I expected. But at the end of it all, I could stay in the middle part that was really hard, but I'm gonna jump to the end part where I figured it out. I went to a couple of banks to get cash because banks don't keep that much there on a Tuesday. Who knew? I thought banks had lots of money. They do not. And you can only take out certain amount from a limit. And when you take out money from all your accounts over and over, you know what happens? They call fraud. So I had to prove myself. I had to prove myself at each place and show all my bank stuff. It was quite interesting, I have to say, and I'm glad they did that because if someone had my stuff, right, you would want them to do that. And I was able to prove myself, and everyone had a good laugh over what I was doing and how I figured it out, and they were all part of my story and cheering me on. I made it fun and enjoyable because boy oh boy was I fucking scared, man, like Like, can you imagine being short that much money? Like, I run a nonprofit charity, the camp barely makes money. It's more of a passion project that does so much good for so many people, and it gives me an opportunity to be with lots of youth and learn and help as many families as I can in a masked area, but It's just not as right. It's not working the way it should. So here we are. And, uh, I had to cover payroll and I did it. Bank to bank to bank to bank. 5 banks, Dufferin, up and down. I did it. Now I'm home and it is definitely self-care time. So I'm gonna read my cards. I'm gonna have a really good cry. Because we really held it together all day today. I went to camp and I was the big boss and put a lot of boundaries down and led some very uncomfortable conversations that turned some really good conversations around today that needed to be done. And the outcome of that is phenomenal, and I'm so grateful for having The skills and the ability to set that up for this community, and they had such an amazing day talking and vibrating this afternoon. It was beautiful to watch, and we do that again tomorrow. And I was really nervous, like, what if I wasn't approved and they pulled all this out from under me? What if I did something wrong that I didn't know? Because that usually is so with my ADHD. But like, you know when you hold yourself tight all day, like all day, and then now I have to let it go, and it's really hard to let it go, right? Like that feeling of anger, frustration, negativity is like in your veins. How do you let it go? Let's see. We're definitely going to start with some arm. Oh, you know my favorite, right? Oh, definitely hanging out with me. Here we go.
