The Rebirth of Yourself. TIME to Explore Conflict, Be Curious, and Activate Change. DO A LIFE AUDIT

Okay, here we go. Ah, uh, my best friend Debbie Haven't had one of those before that was authentically in the same conversations of me over and over for 1 year now. She has watched my brain explode and regress and blow up and shrink, and she has spent the year next to me grounding me as I have given her wings. We are yin and yang, and it's so beautiful. So we did our first video today. You can see the one before this. Shawna Lynn here. You know, do all that thing. Subscribe, like, follow Instagram, all that stuff you need to do organically. I'm doing this. My limitation with technology is that I don't use it to scroll. I only use it so that people can find me and I share my message. And if you want to talk to me, That would be so beautiful. There's lots of things I'd like to do outside of technology. If you want to— if you're looking to be part of this conversation, well, reach out. You know, I'll have all the right places where you need to do that. Please, my ADHD this year is still vibrating in a different way, and my organization skills are still shifting and changing, so be patient. In the meantime, Debbie and I had a great conversation, and the first time I taped it And her fear of doing that and my invitation to try came today. And this is what we got in our— it was about a 40-minute conversation about our ADHD and how it works for us. So I just picked one. Every time we had a conversation, one of the things came up. I picked a card to tell the story of what we were talking about. So the first one is Projections. Let me find it. I haven't used this deck yet very often. So this is— let me tell you, this is the Inner Temple Oracle. It goes with my Starseed Oracle. I think this one is like one level up. Beginner deck, next deck. Okay. So the first card was Projections, and I'm pulling this for the collective. I'm in the middle, standing grounding with quiet leadership, and follow me to try new things. I do them. You can too. So these cards are about the story in front of me with all of the people around me and where it's going that I don't know, and I'm trusting. Those people who trigger something in us hold up a mirror to what's within ourselves. Projection is a defense mechanism where we mistake what's going on within us for what's happening in the world around us. Nevertheless, that which we avoid facing will show up in our lives as fate. These feelings, behaviors, or beliefs that we choose not to explore, admit, name, or claim are projected onto those around us. That's why shadow work is crucial. Without it, as without it, that which is the unconscious will continue to appear in the external world. On this journey with the community of people around me, we are going deeper than you've ever gone and looking at the things about our family and our friends that we didn't want to recognize as we did our self-development and they did not. You change when you start to learn about yourself and you uncover the layers of your patterns of behaviors that are holding you stuck in emotions that are not self-regulating projections. We can be triggered by those who we despise as well as those we admire. Who frustrates or triggers you the most? What is it about the person that you can't stand or admire the most? How does that quality relate to the way you think about yourself? Who is triggering me? Everyone who doesn't do their mental health. I can't take it anymore. You're wasting your life. It really bothers me. Get the fuck off the floor. What is it that's triggering within you? There are so many ways for you to do things. Hundreds. Debbie does a whole bunch of things for her, and I do a whole bunch of things for me. And Stacy does a whole bunch of things for her, and Elizabeth does a whole bunch of things for her. And these are healthy humans balancing their life in extremes. They work and they play. They learn and they grow. They go quiet and they come out. They try new things over and over. There's no resistance in conversation. It's, thank you for that. Oh, I don't agree. Yes, I do. No, I don't. Maybe. What can I see? It is taking away resistance. Resistance is your ego. Get rid of it. Be brutally honest with yourself. Oh, look at that. I'm going to be brutally honest with you. If you are not talking to me, it's because I don't respect you. If I respected you, I would have chased you and sat in front of you. But you decided that you wanted to be angry or yell. No, thank you. There is no necessity for that personality. In my life, spiritual, calm confidence, beautiful, energetic, magical, unique, powerful. Those are things about me extremely feminine and masculine simultaneously. Ying and yang inside of me. I am a balanced human that is on a journey of more. I will continue to grow. And shake things up and take a detour and come back, because where mistakes are made, that's where I grow the most. Who are you being called? What are you being called to do? I am being called to tell you that your mental health is manageable with your mind, and if you want to start, I will help you start. My job now is to help people start. And my mission and vision is to connect you to the mental health you need to do what you need to do. That is the glory of choice every day. So here's the next card, Scarcity and Plenty. That I think will kind of be at the thing here too. Scarcity and Plenty. Yeah, here it is. These are all called— hold on. These are the polarity suit. So Esther Perel talks about polarity all the time, right? Like, it's amazing. Okay, so this is plenty and scarcity. I also got aligned and misaligned, seen and unseen, connection, separation. I got 4 of these, by the way. Okay, 4. Plenty and scarcity. Here we go. Plenty: abundance, gratitude, receiving, overflowing, more than enough. Scarcity: lack, needing, grabbing, desperation, not enough. Which part of the card is right side up? I had scarcity. Oh, right side up was plenty. Which part of the card is— which meaning is calling you the most? How can you bring both parts into balance? So I've been in plenty and scarcity for many times throughout my life. It has been a flow. Every time something is in front of me, it is let go, with or without my consent, by the way. And the place of plenty allows me to do more work without the flow of energy of money. And when I move into scarcity, it means there's some transformation that is Pulling that will bring me to the next level of the cycle of money, of energy. My goal is to be funded somehow to go and talk about mental health everywhere, all day, for free. I just want to go out every day and just talk. Anywhere I go, I will connect somebody in front of me who wants to have this conversation for free, and I'll help them find somebody and a therapist for them. I would love to do that for free. To do that, I need all my bills paid, or I need to be making money some way. We know this. This is the adulting responsibility. I am letting go of all of my things and taking everything off of my plate so I can move into aplenty. The scarcity right now is coming from being fearful that I do not like the job I have, and I would like to transition to another one. And just like I left teaching. The golden handcuffs. Here is the beginning of a new leaving psychotherapy and becoming doing life audits in your house, in your business, in your practice. It is the energy of all the players and how are they are not how they are not cohesive. They are competing not intentionally, just by ego. Ego to ego, when we're in a place where we are learning and growing, shows up faster than we can put it away. And some of the times our ego is seen by others in a way that isn't the intention of what you're trying to show, and you don't even know it. And your career could be on the line, your relationship, your friendships. Here's where we pay attention. Plenty is the mindset. This card is about resourcing and receiving. It can be a reflection of your current mindset or energy level. I was called to let go of the energy of money and just go and take another risk. The same way I took a risk 8 years ago, it's taking another risk now. This is the invitation. This time I'm doing it just for me, not with anyone else, for anyone else, just me, my responsibility. That is so important in scarcity and plenty. It— I need to understand that there's plenty of me. I am enough. I can do everything. I am everything. I know what everything is. I am grateful for being able to recognize the plenty inside the scarcity and not be scared. Right now I am at the lowest I have been In 8 years. I was irresponsible with my money. I was. I chose fun. That's okay. There's no regret in that. It's just a recognizing I was irresponsible with my money. Yeah. I also have an answer. I was responsible with my money for a very long time, and it kept me safe, and I created a nest egg that I was going to spend anyways. So I spent it on me, and you know what? I deserve it. My irresponsibility allowed me to become this person today, and grateful for the energy of that. Plenty is a reflection of overspilling bounty, goodness, abundance, flow, ease, and joy. The earth is naturally abundant and plentiful. However, if some of us take more than we need, if we hold and grab and get greedy, there won't be enough for everyone. This is where the planet is right. Now, and we're all being called to turn the ship around, right? So if I am granted energy and positivity, I was using it for me. And I wasn't okay. I didn't need to use that much because the life I would— I needed to use that much. I wasn't aligned, aligned in my life. So I use my energy. And I use plenty of it for myself, and I left it scarce aligned in this. I lived in this for 8 years. This is where I was. This is where I healed. And now that I am aligned with who I am, if you want to yell or be angry, no thank you, go away. Judge, go away. If you would like to learn the beauty of me, any day I will discuss it and tell you the good things I'm doing. No complaining at all. Fuck off with your complaints and your judgment. Fuck off. Seriously, like, look at me. There is only beauty here and the curiosity to grow. Conflict, take it out of my life as much as I can. There's always going to be more every day. It shows up with I want it or not, no consent. The consent I have is to make choice, to be curious for change every day. That is the vibration I live in, and that makes me okay. Sometimes I'm down and I want to hide and cry and want to give up. I do that for an hour or 2. I limit it now. I know how to do that with my container and my safe space. And then some days there's a calm confidence where I am just being and doing and feeling really good in who I am. And there's some days where I am just blessed with magical experiences one after the other, or incredible intimacy with somebody that is So beautiful from the mind down to the toes. It is all about the vibration of energy before me that helps me grow aligned and plenty and scarcity. I'm not even gonna read it. You know it. Now let's go to aligned and misaligned and see authenticity, harmony, honest truth, genuineness, ease, flow, embracing what is open. Yes. That is who I am. Those are big words I own now, and I am proud of those words. Inauthentic, left behind. Incongruent, gone with the pain. Pushing, controlling mistruths. I hope, I hope I am past that, and what is coming from me is aligned with what I want to be. Stuck withholding, forcing an outcome. I think that was part of it for me. So right now I'm right in the middle. I totally recognized how I was misaligned, and there was a lot of pain and trauma for the last 30 years. So I give myself grace for doing as well as I did and not fucking it up. Then I was on the bottom. I am on the top of where I was, and I am on the bottom of where I am going, and I am ready for the same journey. journey of grit and grace. This time I'm going with so much knowledge, $450,000 invested in this brain, and keep going. A week on a tour bus with a really cool band, fucking awesome. Amazing opportunities with conversation with these humans that are doing things We don't even know our possibilities. No more jobs chasing. There is time for creativity. We need creative jobs that AI can't take over. What can we do? I'm going out there to find those jobs. Do you want to know what I know, where I find them, what you can do, how you can choose some things to learn outside of our education system that is Crap. If this card appears with a line the right way up, it can be an indication that things are congruent and gives the message of yes, yes, yes. It appears the misaligned— nope, nope, I am aligned. It is the highest vibration there is because alignment is the ultimate harmony, harmony with myself. I am rebirthing, letting go of everything I own. One locker will house my things. My gray chair, I love you. Thank you for holding space for me for so long. I love you, couch. Thank you for showing me that no matter how good the couch is, I'm never gonna sit on it no matter what. It is not a place that is safe for me, that couch. And thank you for the table that housed so many people and had so many great conversations that are somewhere in my computer. And when I am not working for money, I can go through there and post all those videos and show you the great things that happened and how people chose where they were going and changed their life. It's so amazing. Just the editing and putting it out there. And I had that imposter syndrome in front of me. Oh, and thank you for your kitchen. I really do have all the great appliances, and I still don't use them. I spent $1,000 on appliances so that I could eat, and then all I do is eat from my plastic containers. I'm just gonna travel with my plastic containers. That's it. That's how I'm traveling. I'm going to get a cooler that you plug into the car, maybe a fridge for my trunk. That's what I'm doing. I get a fridge for my car. That's what I need. I'm just gonna make my car efficient, and then people's houses. Where is where I will land? And if you need help, you can invite me for free, or you can invite me and pay me. It's up to you what you want to work on and how much resistance you want to give me. If you invite me for free, I'm not taking all that resistance. If you want to work on your resistance, well, the energy of money is where that needs to be. You know that. Okay, the next card I got was Golden Thread. So when Debbie was telling— was was reciting to me, recalling all the things I'm doing and validating who I was and what I am. It was so powerful for me to hear that. She witnesses me for the first time. The circle of 360 I used to have around me had never told me that before. Imagine that I knew this misaligned and I was always in scarcity of validation, looking for it consistently. Look what I do. Look what I do. Tell me I'm okay. Tell me I'm smart. Tell me I'm great. It always came with a but, always. And Debbie's just comes with an and and an and and an and and an and and an and. And I serve that back to her with pleasure. We serve each other this beautiful exchange of energy, and we are growing aligned with our future, stronger and better. So the golden thread becomes your soul had a dream to be here now in this body, on this planet at this time, and you have everything you need to realize your soul's destiny in every moment of every day. Me and Debbie, and the man I'm dating, I think too is on the same journey. Just saying. The golden path, the golden thread is the path of your destiny. The golden thread holds the potential of all that was, is, and could be. The golden thread of your life. I'm going to start this again. Okay, this one just needs like a full One day like this one. Okay, thank you. Here's the golden thread. Debbie validated me and witnessed me like no one ever has other than this man that is also 2 Geminis bookending my self-discovery is quite unique. And these 2 Geminis are grounded and quiet, calm confidence. And you know me, flighty and Arian, all over the place. And the golden thread. The golden thread is the path of your destiny. I've been asked to wait by my cards, the Starseed deck, for nine months now. This new deck was deck was presented to me by someone beautiful on my birthday, who validated me and saw me for who I was—another witness to my growth and exceptionality. And Debbie also witnessing me for the year. Doing what I do and moving through all the crazy things I do, insane, overwhelmed, who I am, trying to bring it down or balance it one month off or one month on, whatever it's looking like that will flow in next year. 2026 is the flow. Here is the conflict. Next year's the curiosity. Maybe I'm at the curiosity. Next year's the change. The golden thread is the path of your destiny. Golden thread holds the potential of all that was, is, and could be. The golden thread of your life is always available to guide you every step of the way towards your soul's deepest dream. I am clear to dream again. The golden thread is woven through all of your life experiences. My life experiences are priceless. You can't imagine. You might want to just pay me to tell you my story. It is so incredible. It would change your perspective On something. I could promise you that. It doesn't always make sense, but with your time and perspective, you can see the intricate weavings glistening back at you in the center of your life. I am right now in the best place I've ever been. I could make any choice I want at any time. Any choice at any time. It is mine. I'm safe. I'm okay. I am loved deeply by 2 really incredible people that I respect immensely and have not yelled at me once. I am grateful and lucky to have grit and grace and meet the most incredible people. There is a circle of people around me, my 360, that is about to go on a journey. If I am the leader of this and they come with me, this is going to be extraordinary. I have extraordinary people in my life, and I like to bring all my extraordinary people together next year for my birthday. Anybody on this journey this year who is going to celebrate this Next year is coming, and the golden thread. That is a dream. It's never too late to follow the golden thread of your life, and you can never be too old, for the golden thread of your life is always within your reach. Whatever your soul is calling you to do will lead you to the golden thread. When— wherever you most feel connected with the great spirit of life is where you will find your golden thread. I do not know. It's calling me. I'm following it. I'm going. The card is here to remind you that your soul came here with a plan. The dream is brought to life. It's time to say yes to that now. What is your soul's greatest dream, and how can you act on it now? My soul's greatest dream is to use my positivity, energy, my life experience, and all of the knowledge in my brain to keep helping you Do something better, whatever it is. Ask me. I love sharing, and if I don't know it, I know somebody who does. And I would like to talk to people all day. I can be on Zoom and you can just come in. I could be walking and you can become in person and you can meet me. We'll figure it out. I just know that I want to talk to as many people in a day the way I used to as a teacher when they paid me to go from school to school. I just spread positivity. I didn't care about the curriculum. I spread skills, executive functioning, ADHD. Anything I knew, I gave to teachers, children, and parents. I would like to do that again. Invite me to your office, pay me for a day, and I will talk to everyone. I'll sit at a table all day and talk to everybody. Beautiful. I would like to talk like this all day and read cards for people and talk about your story and help you find where you're gonna let go. Of that pain that holds you back and allows you the safe space to go forward. Look, look, look at me, living proof it could be. I'm letting go of my condo. Please, someone buy it quickly. Thank you for the matrix. Stacy did a matrix on my condo and my name change. I am letting go of everything from the past. It has not served me. The 360 around me was not validating. They were envious. They could not understand me. They were not curious. They stayed in the conflict. It was good for me, challenging, lots of resistance. I learned how to be patient with all of the resistance of my 360 around me, and I've let them go. Bye-bye. Bye-bye, all of you who did not believe in me, who thinks that I don't know what I'm doing or I'm making decisions Goodbye to all of you who don't want to talk to me, that think I did something to you. You did something to you, not me. You didn't follow my advice and now you feel sorry for yourself, or you're mad that I'm here and you're there. Fuck you. All of you whose energy is so negative when we go to the same places and see music, and you come with this anger and energy. You're mad at me for something. That doesn't even matter. It made no difference to me. Like, I don't care at all if you decide not to be in my life after everything I gave you. This personality is awesome to have in your life. You would— I would want the people around me that I share this amazing energy and positivity with to be grateful they get it. This is amazing to find. If you find this, you harness it. This is invaluable, priceless. I am priceless. I am invaluable. Wow! Woo! I am seen. Oh my God! Next card. See, I'm saying it before the card. That was the next one. And I can do this so well with Debbie and Neil on as my anchors. Oh, and Morella's with Debbie. Another 360. Dorit. And Stacy, oh, these beautiful people, 360, that have stayed in my life this year and grew with me and were so part of good, of pushing resistance with me. Oh my God, it was awesome. And if you were not part of this life, it's you weren't ready for resistance yet this year. If you want to head into resistance in 2026, just know You know what you're getting with me. It will be delivered kinder with an invitation that is the next 4 months to work on, to connect with my gentleness again and my leadership. And if you want something, I'm here. No more chasing, no more fighting, no more lecturing. Teaching, psychoeducation, knowing, growing. What do you want to know? Ah, the seen, the unseen. So exciting, isn't it? This deck of cards can validate all the things I've been thinking for 9 months. I know that might be interesting and unique for you to believe in, and yet my whole journey of being okay and landing on my feet came from The place. All of that came from the place of spirituality. It was not in the logic of society, of our systems of stupidity. It was in the cards in front of me. I have a box of 25 decks, and each one of them has held a special place. And every time I need a new message or a fresh start, a new deck lands in my lap. Isn't that interesting? Someone brings it out, and I see it, and it talks to me, and then I have it, and then I use it, and then another one talks to me, and here I am seen. What's in the physical and form obvious, certain, known, masculine, smoking about conscious manifested, and what you see is what you get surface level clear goals clarity. Yes, Shauna Lynn identity. What is what the unseen? What's in the spiritual, mystical, energetic, mysterious, feminine, unconscious, subconscious? Look a little deeper, subtly, depth, secret dreams. Oh yes, I have both of those. This card is a prompt to reflect on where you've been focusing your energy. Remember, I was giving it away. It's also an invitation to look a little deeper and do the opposite and get out of your head. The next card of that was Aligned with Me. Who is Shawna Lynn? What is the identity within her that she shares in different communities? Every community has a different identity and a different wardrobe. You know, you've seen my closet. It's my— Favorite part of me who wants to house my closet for the next year and have me come and visit every couple of weeks. That's up for grabs if you want it. It comes with free mental health and a life audit. Up to you. This card is a prompt to reflect on where you've been focusing. We just did that. If the card appears with the scene facing right side, it's an invitation focus on what's happening in the physical. Right? Letting go of everything. Not to overanalyze people's words or motives. Nope. Anything you say bounces off of me, and if you want to say it again, come back and discuss it. Energy exchange. Not to, uh, and to take care of the practicalities. Practicality is like my first name. Look at what I do every day and what's happening in the real world. The real world sucks, by the way. I do not want to live in it. I hate it. I hate hate, and I don't want to hate anything. I want to love love. I want to eat hate with love. I would like to go out and have negativity without hate. You can be mad at something, but this hate and the things you're doing in all of our systems, like the school, et cetera, disgusting. And like the organizations and associations and even CRPO, disgusting. You guys are disgusting. You do not stand up for balance. You didn't take sides of hate. You let people say terrible things about Jews, and I am Jewish, so that is not fair. I do not respect your organizations or anything about you. I do not respect anyone out there who is standing there hating Jews for no reason. It is disgusting. It is a cult that has been implanted in your head through technology. It is ugly, and you are ugly with it. I don't want any part of it. There are places of the world that this does not exist. I'm going to go find it. I'm not playing that game on social media. Find me! Look at me! I'm an influencer. No way. That is not how I want to be seen. I want to be seen for the authenticness of what I'm doing every day. Every day I wake up, I do not look at technology. I don't scroll. I don't look at the TV. I don't turn on the news. I'm probably the most naive person when it comes to what's happening in. the world. And you know what? It doesn't matter. I'm here every day in the present doing what you need every day to be grounded in today. I am today. You can look at the news and all the shit out there and all the lies they're telling you and take sides and be angry, or you can look at yourself today. You today. What are you doing today? People in my family, they're— no, don't do anything for charity. I've been volunteering and running charities for years, and the people 360 around me— not philanthropy. They are selfish scarcity. They take everything for themselves. They change the energy of plenty by making it about money. People around me, it's always about money, money, money. If I'm not doing this, I'm not making money. I worked 4 jobs to make money. To build the life, to have a mortgage, to have a home, a safe roof over my head and a couch, and I'm not happy. That is not what makes me happy. So if that doesn't make me happy, what does make me happy? I don't know. I lived that for 30 years. I paid mortgages for 30 years. There has been a responsibility to a bank for a place I live to feel safe, and I've never felt safe. I need something different. I need to try again and do it again. I just need to. So now I am seen by myself, letting go of all of this and moving into the flow. The next one is the train. Was it connection or separation? I think it was connection and separation. The scene, right? Connection, unity, relationships, interaction, interdependence. Separation, isolation, detachment, disconnection. Relationships are things that test and teach us the most. Connection is a human need, and through relationships we're able to experience the most, the most deeply. Both connection and separation are part of the human experience. Wasn't— one isn't better than the other. I am separating from my past in all of its entirety. Every single last piece of it. I am letting go of everything I am before September 1st, the rebirth of Shawna Lynn starting again. No idea where I'm gonna go, but aren't— isn't it gonna be fun to try? Yet there are times when connection is needed, whether that connection with others or connection with self. Well, I definitely connected with self. Yay me! Connection with others is an ongoing process. Who will stay with me on this growth journey, and who will just watch from behind? If you were in my life in a moment, a lifetime, a reason, a season, whatever it is, I adore you and thank you for everything you gave me. And if you're on the outside of my life, I wish you the most beautiful journey wherever you wanna go. Be amazing with yourself. Go do. I'm gonna be amazing with me, and I have no interest in you judging it or saying anything negative about it. I don't care what you think in your head. Go away. For some, separation becomes a coping mechanism to avoid getting hurt. I tried connection so that I wouldn't have the separation. For those who are afraid of being alone, separation from others so that they can return to themselves may be the exact medicine they need. I didn't think I was afraid to be alone, but I think that the fear of standing on my own 2 feet and understanding that I'm priceless— 10:10 on the clock, it seems. There we go. The fear of letting go of my family and not having a safety net other than me was terrifying. And I think when I saw my kids do it, I think like something snapped in me, and I realized the connection, the cords I have with the 360 of my history is so unhealthy for me now. It was really healthy for me then. And not healthy for me now. At times of conflict, sometimes the antidote is to endeavor to see the other person as part of you, to find a way back to connection. I gave it my best over and over and asked them to go to therapy with me. No more talking with me up here and them down here. I'm tired of trying to convince them, but they don't want to listen. I'm done. It's not going to be part of me anymore. If you don't see what I have to say and you don't value this, I'm letting you go. At other times, taking some time apart can be helpful to the situation. I hope that is true. I hope that they see how much they can grow and how much they hurt me. They don't see that they hurt me. They're just mad at me, and that's not an energy I want to be in. If you're mad at me, it's because I hurt you. And I hurt you, and I don't know how. You didn't share it with me, but I can tell you how you hurt me very clearly if you'd like to listen. And I have every right to every feeling, even if I did something wrong. So did you. 50/50 in a relationship, just saying. At a time of conflict. Okay, if this card appears with connection right side up, the invitation is for you to consider how you can deepen your connection with someone. If it appears with separation right side up, regardless of the meaning, inner temple and ask the situation, what's the medicine? So interesting. Debbie said today this is her medicine. I most need connection or separation. And what's one practical thing you can do to act on that? Well, today I connected with someone beautiful who helped me. I connected at the gym with a few people. I connected With myself in many ways. Tonight I will connect with my wardrobe on who's going on the trip with me, which lucky outfits get to go traveling on this one. And tomorrow I will be connecting with someone that I, I'm falling in love with slowly and carefully, with a lot of boundaries as the chamber of Transformation comes into my life. Connection is very important now for me to be discerning and test the waters that someone can stay in my life for the time, for a year. Things change quickly in my life, and I'm very impulsive in the knowing and being of what I'm looking for. I know what I'm looking for. I can't explain it to you because it's an energy and a Something in my head, and you wouldn't believe it, actually. But, and what's in front of me is showing me that I'm right. So if I believe I'm right, and I believe my intuition, and I know that my history has proven me right and proven you wrong, you didn't try and I did, and here I am and there are you, and here's what I'm doing, and the luxuries of What's in front of me, and I'm celebrating it not being small. I planned this for a decade. I built this dream for a decade, and I didn't really know what I was building. So itchy today. I ate so much bread this week. My nose is a mess. It looks like I'm like snorting coke all the time the way, but it really is the deviated septum. It's freaking killing me. So here's the chamber of transformation. I decided I'm going to be that and decided. Ah, good morning, sweetheart. Ha! You're not who you once were, and you also not who you'll soon be. I know that embracing this takes courage. Embracing this requires faith. We're all alchemists, shapeshifters. Transformation is our natural state. Yes. Aligned connection, golden thread. Bring me together with people who see me, who have plenty, who have great projections. Yes, me. It's exciting. This is the energy of positivity that I created in a decade. Just saying, it took a decade. There was a lot of pain and people and things to get to move through, right? The invitation of healing was massive. We can do it differently with you. There is no— There is no reason you need to do what I do. There are things you can do a little differently. Don't let this scare you, please. This is like extreme, right? Me extreme. If you like extremes, I get it. If you do not, I have many beautiful people who will walk you through this carefully, layer by layer, from this level to that level, from this modality to that. There's so many beautiful things to do. 30 years of incredible learning and growing. Ah. Embracing this takes courage. We're all alchemists. Here we go. But if we're seeking a constant state of perfection— there's no perfection. I'm a freaking mess. We'll hold ourselves back from the glorious transformation of all. Remember, mess, right? Like authentic, organic. I don't care. Not editing, no makeup. This is it. I can make this look so much better for sure, and that would take so many hours. And are you going to look at it any differently? You want to judge me? Yeah. Here. Oh, this sunspot there. You got it. I sit in the sun a lot. Yeah. Gray coming in just in here. Do I dye it? Do I not? It's beautiful white curls. Do I let it come in? Can I get a halo coming? Am I ready for that? I could always dye. I don't know. Let's see what happens. True transformation isn't pretty. It's like I say something and then it says it here, right? It's beautiful. It's glorious and messy as we expand and contract, expand and contract. Rebirth isn't possible without death first. I died on my birthday. Shawna Poslan, Shawna Ackerman, Shawna teacher, psychotherapist, following the rules and responsibility, died on September 1st. And breathe. Shawna Lynn rebirthed by 3 o'clock on Sunday— Monday, 3 o'clock on my birthday. I had reset my nervous system, projectile puked 12 times all over the place, resentment and anger and everything that was within. And I fell to my knees and cried like No other. And then I stood up and I felt different. And I'm still trying to understand what that difference is. It's only been Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. It's only been day 4. And I feel like I was reborn. How I get up in the morning, how I brush my teeth. I didn't procrastinate. I brushed my teeth right away this morning without thinking. That's like the first time I've done that in a long time. That is a big one for me. Go figure, as an adult. And it is while we're in the fertile void of becoming that fertile— did I just not say I was a baby?— that we discover what feels like the tome is actually a womb. And this is the moment we realize that we're birthing ourselves anew. I did that 9 months— well, 10 months, actually— when my heart was broken abruptly and suddenly with no respect of my personality, my identity. No respect at all. The person who broke my heart had no respect for himself or me, and that was really surprising. I didn't see that, and that was so soulfully sad for me that I was with someone in this love affair and I didn't respect myself or him. And it wasn't about that. It was the pain we were in. We found each other in extremes and our pain. We trauma bonded in our healing trauma, not our authentic trauma. And that wasn't possible to keep moving unless we separated and reset. This rebirthing was necessary this year. And had that relationship stayed with respect of that love, that love was sacred. It was beautiful. It was absolutely the most love I had felt in an energy of somebody for the consistency that was plenty, that helped me align in many ways of my personality, really did see me in so many ways. Was a golden thread to a lot of things I needed to be triggered that I didn't know I was still holding. Those triggers brought me to a level where I could connect with myself with— on a different knowing, and my projections changed. Let's go backwards from that. It could have been different if we respected each other enough not to break up like that, but that respect was not there. So here we are in the chamber of— Transformation with a different 360 around me. When my community is severed by anger and people's judgment and changing sides, that's what happens when you break up. It's so just devastating. Everyone chooses. There's always someone who's angry. Go take the community with you. I'll let go of everyone. I won't even stay. Half my, half my connections in this city are based are no longer because of men who have broken up with me because they don't respect themselves. And then I can't respect them. And here we are. So we are starting again with a different level of respect. And I actually have found 2 people on either side of me that have this circle of respect for themselves and great boundaries. And I have set those boundaries and respect myself so much with them. It's so beautiful. The Chamber of Transformation. When a significant period of initiation is occurring, initiation isn't smooth, but it's significant. And when you pass through the birth canal of the transformation, you'll be reborn differently than before. It's a crucial crucible in which we were born anew right in the middle of our lives. That's me. This card appears in a spread to tell us that our soul is scheduled to go deeper than before. be a beacon of light inviting you to keep hold of the grace that's carrying you through, or it can be an indiction that finally you've been reborn anew. Well, isn't that the validation I needed today? And to everyone else, fuck you. Welcome to Shawna Lynne. If you would like to come on this journey with me, and if you feel that you are ready to be in the ceremony of life and choose the dream you want to go after and be in positivity and Share some of this energy and positivity that I have abundance of, that I'm willing to share for the energy exchange of money or something spiritual, whatever it is. The energy of money is in front of me so that I can fund this talking for free. Bring me anywhere to your organization, your nonprofit charity. I would like to help. Everybody that I can integrate their emotions and their energy and do what they need to be great in their lives for as good as they want to be. No expectation, no demand, only what you want for you, and move it up level by level, slowly over a decade. One month at a time. That's it. Commit to yourself at least a year or 2. It takes a long time. For me, I did a lifetime of healing in 9 months. That is because my brain is half a million dollars, and I've been doing this for 30 years. If you are just starting, remember, we start at the bottom. You're in kindergarten of self-discovery. And in kindergarten, we learn to share and care. Sharing is caring. Emotional regulation is important. Independence. Do up your own zippers. Tie your own shoelaces. Mommy, stop doing that for your children. You are in kindergarten. Learn to do everything for yourself before you get to go to grade one. We're not going to graduate you just because of your age. We're going to graduate you when you match all the skills of kindergarten. So in the ceremony of life. Okay, hold on. This card can appear in a. Oh, we know that. I'm reborn again. Let's go. Ceremony of life. Woo! Where's that one? Oh, this is gonna be my favorite deck for the rest of this year. Oof! It is powerful. I feel it. This is a card of devotion, of weaving the sacred all the way in and all through your life. No kidding! You're being asked, how can you make your life a ceremony? Every day is a celebration of life. I'm in it, the present. How grateful I am to have a chance to live. In a life and build another one with the life experiences and the education I have from the last and bringing it forward. Yay me! It's a card of sacred ceremony and integration. You're being asked, how can you make your life a ceremony? If you were to live in prayer, what would it change? My prayer is, can you do something today to feel a little bit better and tell me about it? I'd love to hear what you're doing. I'm your accountability partner. Can I hold you to something, please? I'd really like to. What if you saw it all as a sacred celebration? You're worth it. I see it. I see you. If you need a witness to who you think you are and the people— your 360 is not paying attention. Come here. We'll build your 360 better. If you can devote your life to some to something, what would it be? Creating everyone's 360, doing a life a life audit, life strategy. How can you create a circle of beauty around you so you can be authentic as me? Woo! Don't be jealous. Just try it. What would you do? Gotta stand up. The invitation of this card is design your life in a way that feels sacred. To dare to embrace all aspects of your life and let spirit be with you in every moment. So many people on a spiritual path lead lives that are compartmentalized. They go and do their spiritual practice, and they go about their everyday lives. But what if you made it your whole life a celebration of the sacred? Celebration of the sacred. My whole life is a celebration. My whole life is a celebration of doing. Every day is sacred. What if you found ways to bring the spiritual into the physical? If you think I do that already, can you validate that? I think that's something I do. I'd like to know how that lands for you, really, to tell you the truth. How do— how is what I do inspiring to you? Is there something you would like to see me do that you would like to be inspired to do? I'll do it. I'll do anything. You want to do something? Let's do it together. Let's go. What do you love here? Okay. Oh, hold on. The invitation is to design your life in a way that feels sacred. Really? Thank you. I did it, and I'm doing it more and more each day. It's a never-ending story. It doesn't stop. Every day is a gift. Every day is a present. Open it and stay in it. To dare to embrace all aspects in your life and let Spirit be with you in every moment. Thank you, Spirit. Thank you. Thank you. Who's out there? I would love to get those messages today. Jay, show me you're out there today. Evelyn, Elisa, Larry, show me you're with me, that I have the power to stay positive with good energy And you're going to help me spread this differently from afar. And the people around me, the 360 who want to come back, can do their work, right? And if they do their work, we can have connection again, right? Maybe. I know they're angry, but that's okay. So am I. The invite— I would like an apology, even though they think that I did something wrong. People around me did something wrong to me for a lot longer than I took. I don't think I respect myself in a lot of those relationships because I put myself in them and I didn't want to be in them. There was a sense of responsibility and obligation to the life I was in to fit in, and now I'm over it. This card is an invitation to design your life, to dare to embrace all aspects of your life and let spirit be with you in every moment. So many people Okay, here we go. What would— what if you found your— found ways to bring the spiritual into the physical? How would you change? How would you spend your time? I told you I would sit in coffee shops, and you can sit there and talk to me over and over and over and over again. There's just a responsibility to making money that I need to have. I'm not sure what that is. How much money do I need to feel good, to pay my bills? I'm letting go of everything, so no overhead. If you have a room for me and you'd like me in your space, invite me anywhere. I'm going. I would like to travel and learn people and get more experiences under my belt. If you have a story you'd like to share with me and we can videotape it and make a docu— make a videotape out of it, my friend Elizabeth will make a documentary out of all of my stories of positivity that I find. Invite me to your home. Have me for a week. Show me your city. Let's talk about all the things that you've changed or need to change. A life audit. Let's do it. Oh, it's up to you to feed me for the week. I need to eat. I suck at it. And take me around the city. I really don't want you to think— I want to learn your city from you, where you live, your neighborhood, what you do. I want to meet your community. Help you find your life audit, spend a week or 2 with you, and then you report back to me. Nope, change that. You share with me all the beautiful things you're doing in your life, and we keep the connections going in positivity. Look what I'm doing, look what you're doing, look what I'm doing, look what you're doing. And if you struggle in a moment, there's therapists and healers that will help you over those humps. Find your support, your 360. Let's do it. Another invitation of this card is to let your life be an expression of your passions. What do you love doing that you can embrace even more? Exercise. Invite me to exercise with you. I will teach you how to exercise every day. I'll teach you how to create your kitchen like mine. I'll do it with you. We'll go to the grocery store. You'll tell me what you like. We'll figure out how to eat, how to Exercise, how to balance in the moment. Hour by hour, nothing's going to change with your routines. That's psychotherapy. This is life strategy. This is a life audit. This is me and my passions of exercise and spirituality and learning. I'm doing my PhD. 6 degrees, tons of hypnotherapy and EMDR and body psychotherapy. While I'm there, we'll release all your emotions. We'll take all of that stuff out of your system. So not only will we reset your routines during the day, we will reset your emotions at night. Imagine self-regulating every day and finding your grounding. With me in the moment, you don't have to go home and do it. I'm going to do it for you, teach it to you, and then you're accountable to it. And I'll support you, and I'll find you someone else to support you even better while I go on and support other people. And if I find someone who's really good for you, who's doing the same things as you, and you want to be connected to them, I'll connect you. Oh my God, doesn't that sound so beautiful? Ah. If you could really wake up, if you really woke up to the gift, how would you spend your days? This is what I would do. If you acknowledge that you only have a limited amount of time here, what would you do? What would you create? How would you love? I would love huge and big with this big bold personality. Who would you embrace? Everybody. What do you truly yearn to do while you're in this body on this planet? Honor it. Continue. I need to work out all day. I'd like to keep this, and I want to walk. I need people to walk with and places to walk. Invite me on a walk with you. 2 hours? Let's go. You buy lunch, we walk for 2 hours, we talk, and then a week later you come back and we do a life session with you where you pay for the summary of everything you told me. So you tell me everything. We work on your resistance. I leave you. All it is is exercise and lunch. And then you go home and work on your resistance. I'll give you some things to do. That's your homework. You don't do it. It's— you can't come back to me until you do your homework. And when you come back with your homework, and if you need someone to help you do your homework, I'll set you up with that. So I need 2 hours and movement. Well, you talk and I listen. Then we come together with all your resistance, and we make a plan to deal with it in whatever way you need, as long as you want to take. And we see which resistance piece comes up first. And then we rebirth you when you're ready. Right? It's probably a 9-month to year process for you to rebirth yourself. With intention. And the only way of rebirth is to have a clean slate and then start to build up your dreams again. If that's what you're looking for and that's the journey you want to go on, well, then you just saw that. Oh. You saw that there were projections that were detours, and I picked the right one. And at the beginning, there was a lot of scarcity and plenty back and forth. I need to understand which both of those felt like and who I was in both of those. And then we get to the place of misaligned and aligned. There was no way to be aligned in the life I was living because I wasn't aligned with the life I chose. And I could have stayed in that life over and over and be misaligned, and I chose to blow it all up. No one wanted to believe me, so I'm doing it in pushback boundaries. Yeah, anytime you want to come back in, I'm open. It's with an apology and a belief that you have faith in me. What's happening next is nothing but magical. I have no idea how it's happening, so come with me. Misaligned and aligned. Then there's the place where we're seen. Unseen and seen. There's always a place where I will be unseen. I'm doing new things all the time. I need to bring your attention to them as I do them to be seen in the next level of where I'm going. It's just a vibration. There's no negative or positive to these anymore. These are the extremes of me. I will be misaligned as I let go of this apartment. Where am I going? I'm so aligned with letting it go. I've been so unseen by the 360 around me, and now the 360 around me is validating me every day. It's like, wow, look at me, I'm pretty awesome. And there's the projections of what's going. I just trust it without knowing. And the scarcity of plenty— well, scarcity is in front of me right now, and I'm figuring it out day by day. I'd like to get back to plenty so that with plenty I can give more away and still reserve my energy for the self-care. So I think I, I think I just got something. 2 hours, you feed me and we do exercise together. I need to see you move your body. We talk about your life story. You share everything you want with me. I take that away. And then you work on— I come back to you with the things to resist on. You work on it as long as it takes, 2 weeks to a month. And then we get back together and we come up with a plan, an IEP for your life, a life audit. You do your taxes. This is your life. Do your life. Take it seriously, right? With all my life experiences, let me like blow you open and rebirth you. And then I'll give you the support along the way of all these incredible people who are my community, or find you the ones that are yours, who you need. You might not need what I need, but you might need something that you need. Let's find it. And with that, there's so much connection out there. Please connect with me. I am yearning for connection to help you find your way. If you're struggling to find your next career, you have a couple of degrees, You know kind of what you want to do, but you don't know what it's going to cost you emotionally, physically, relationship-wise. Come see me. Let's do it. Then there's the golden thread. It's all in front of me. I know it's possible. I'm at New Track September 20th to December 12th, Monday through Thursday, 4 to 9. Keep following me for more information. Or go up and look at New Track. It will tell you everything. The calendar will be up by next Monday. Oh, there was the Chamber of Transformation. Everything I've done over the last nine months, unfucking believable. Like really? So fuck you, and like I love you, Shawna. You are friggin awesome. I can't believe that you put your mind to something on December eighth, and you landed here for your birthday. Stronger and better than ever. You fucking rock. Like honestly, karma, right? Karma. Oops. Karma. That's what it's about. I stayed my higher self through all of this, trying to understand why people were so mad at me for things that I had no recollection of, and I couldn't understand why. They didn't see the pain I was holding. No victim here. There was no victim. And if you saw me as a victim, you weren't looking. There is despair, grief, emotional sadness. There is an extreme of life's not fair, life sucks, it's not okay. And how much energy do I need to put out to fix it? If you didn't see the energy I used to fix it, And you're only stuck on the part where you think I'm a victim. You're the victim, not me. I am powerful. I am incredible. I am a hero. I did my story, and I did it well. And I am everything I ever dreamed I could be in my starting. Right now, in this moment, the ceremony of life is before me, and I'm going to celebrate and jump and sing and move. And jump. Oops, table in my ass. Move furniture. I'm going to do all of that because that is who I am. That is me. And I could be a PhD student and a little girl at the same time. They exist together. I can be smart and professional, and I can be erotic and sexy. I can be so sad and depressed that this world is falling apart. And I can be really grateful that I'm a part of putting it back together. I'm all about solutions, all about it. And if you do not believe in miracles and spirituality and law of attraction, that stay in your lane. And let me be in mine. And if you are still watching this and you want to come with me, come on in. Sharing and caring. This is kindergarten. We're all friends here. So come into my community, come into my kindergarten classroom, and let's learn how to be honest and authentic and talk about our feelings together. That will be at New Track starting September, whatever the Monday is. I think it's the 22nd. That's when I'll be there. Come visit. And if you're far away and you're seeing this, where there is things called virtual, right? We got this. Rebirthing, restarting stronger. Oh, look at that. Wow. Thank you, F45. Oh my, I haven't had that since I tore my Achilles, right? Let's see my back. That's looking good too. My ass, not bad, not bad for 53. We're rocking it. You go, girl. Tomorrow you go on tour with your band, and you fall more in love with your man and more in love with yourself in the calm confidence time integration and activation of Shauna Lynn. Breathe. And be everything you want to be. Fix it by the minute takes a decade. Come with me, sharing and caring. Mental health really matters. Please take yourself seriously. I'd like some friends at 100. Shawna Lynn signing off again. Thank you.