Day 13 - Living From Your Heart (in a 3D World)

Hello and welcome back to day 13 of Living from Your Heart in a 3D World. So let's just take a big deep breath in. I'm coming to you from the lounge room today because I felt like it. I'm normally in the car because I've already got— there's too many kids everywhere and noise and stuff, and so the car is just the easiest place to film. But I really felt today, I felt like having a Proper chat on the couch, like a real, like a real, like, just like a casual conversation. Because I suppose I'll just recap— can't speak— recap quickly for those who haven't joined us through the other days. What we have been doing is figuring out how to come back into our heart and live In the present, in appreciation, not just on autopilot, so that we get to choose our reality that we are— like, we get to create our reality from our heart and fill it with beautiful, amazing things. So, we have proven that we exist, because if we didn't exist, I wouldn't be talking to you, you wouldn't be watching me. So, number one, it is a fact we exist. Look, see? We exist. We exist in whatever form this is. True. Number 2, if we exist, then we had to be created by something. Now, I am the believer that we are created from divine source intelligence, divine source energy. Like, we are all energy. I think quantum physics has proven that. Like I'm nearly sure it has. So we are all energy, and all energy at its minutest particle is created from— is the same thing. So if all energy is the same thing, we are all created from the same thing. And you can call that whatever you like. It is God? Is it God's essence? Is it universal intelligence? Is it universal energy? Is it source energy? Is it divine creation? Whatever it is, it goes by a million names. It is the same energy. Like, that is what has created everything. Not things that just living, dense things like this packet of Scanties here, like this table, this microphone. They're all energy. They're just compressed so that they don't look like that. They look like a solid matter. They look like solid matter, but really they're just energy moving around, like the pixelation of a video or a photo. If you look really close in, it's just a lot of little dots. And that's what energy— that's what things are. It's just energy. Lots of little dots just bouncing so fast and so compressed that you can't see that they're vibrating. Okay, that was a really long-winded explanation of energy. Okay, so those 2 things are fact. They are absolute. You are created from that. That is 100% true. So then we go to follow on with that, that divine source intelligence creation, it is based on pure love. Like I am not going to get into it. Neale Donald Walsch in Conversations with God goes into this into finite details. Like, if you want to really understand it, search up Conversations with God on Spotify. It's on audiobook or on YouTube. It, it goes into it in immense depth. We are created from source energy, which is pure love. So Then we have followed that with, if we are, if we exist, and if we're divine source intelligence, and if that is pure love, then anything that is projected into our 3D world that does not align with that truth, which is the absolute truth, it can't be true. It's not our truth. And this is the big game we've been playing. I just had a lovely conversation, very long conversation with my darling sister, and I've been stepping her through basically what we've been doing on our challenge and the aha moments. And even on the phone call, we had so many more realizations, which I actually am going to dig into a little bit, which is why we're having the couch conversation. I'll just get myself a bit more comfy. Because just once you know the truth, The aha moments are just going to keep flooding you and flooding you and coming in and coming in and coming in. Because you know, like, that is the truth. It is the Ace of Swords. It is the absolute clarity. It is the, like, just the knowing. It's the knowing. And then everything else is literally irrelevant. Like, literally irrelevant. Poof. It doesn't matter. And so that is the part where we're going to transmute those energies that we have latched onto and hooked into for so long that are irrelevant. They have just been keeping this veil of illusion plastered on your face so you can't see through it. But now we know the truth. Like, now we know the truth. The veil is gone. Like, you can get a little projection, a little projection. It's just like boom, boom, boom. I know the truth, and I know that anything that does not align with that is not the truth. So this is where I'm going to dig in. I'm just going to have a sip of my drink here. It's— which I wouldn't really normally do, but anyway, we're changing the rules, aren't we? So belief systems. And so And so basically, an unaligned belief system is anything that tells you you are not enough. And that is pretty much a lot of the information that comes our way. I'm not skinny enough. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not smart enough. I'm not fast enough. I'm not clever enough. I'm not rich enough. I'm not da da da da enough. And that's what we've been storing in our subconscious filing system. For our lifetime, I believe for eons and eons and eons of lifetimes. This illusion that we're not enough. And actually, my sister and I were having a very interesting conversation because we were talking about Scanties. So this is my business, Scanties Anti-Shapewear. That's it. And I created them probably— well, I created them myself in 2008 just for me because I was sick of feeling not, not enough in my clothes. Like, I wanted to wear the long flowy dresses that suited my body shape that I could buy from the shops, but I got chafe, so I couldn't wear them in comfort. And so I was being told that I wasn't enough. And so I created this pair of underwear like that. And I created them so that my body would stop giving me signals that I wasn't enough. Because if you get chafe, It hurts, and I can promise you if you've got your legs going like this, or any other part of your body like like digging in elastic and like undies that are riding up all the time, your dialogue in your head is definitely telling you that you are not enough. Like you are not your legs. Your legs aren't the right shape. Your your stomach's not the right shape. Your you're just not enough. Your body is not enough. So I was like, right, okay. And I didn't think anything of it. I just was like, I do not want to be told I'm not enough every time I walk somewhere in a dress or a skirt. So I'm going to fix that problem. And I just created something. I knew the bits that I didn't like. I created a product and I just wore it. I didn't tell anyone about it. It was just mine for me. And It wasn't— it was like 6 or 7 years later, I think, when someone actually said to me, how can you wear skirts and dresses all the time? Because I did. Like, that is my style. I love it. And this is like through having 3 kids, 3 pregnancies, breasts, like all of the post-kids, and I would love the flowy dresses. It just made me feel like me. And they were like, but how do you wear that without getting chafe? And— It was the first time in my life that I realized that maybe I wasn't the only person that had that, that had that thought pattern into my brain that I'm not enough, that my body is not enough, my body is failing me, which is making me feel like I'm not enough. I'm not thin enough, obviously, because I've got chafe. Like, I shouldn't have that. And it's like— No, that's actually not it. It's just the fashion industry had not created a product that would tell you you were enough. And this is what I got to talking with— to my sister, and we were talking about— I think, I can't remember what day it is, maybe day 4, where I'm like, how our bodies and how we look is literally the The least interesting thing about you. Like, if you think of a friend, your best friend, do you care what her stomach looks like? Do you care what her— do you know what I mean? Like, do you care what her earlobes look like? Or whatever it is that you don't like about yourself, does that part of you matter in your best friend? And then we've gone a little bit further on that. And we were like, okay, so when did body image— like, when, if we look at history, like, if we look back at history, when did body image become such a headspace, like, manipulator, like, occupier? When did that happen? And we, we dissected it down. We think it was from about 1950. In 1950, we'd had the 2 World Wars. The World Wars had ended. So before that, people were in survival. Like, you were on rations. People didn't have time to think about how their body looked. They were just trying to survive. And then in came the '50s and probably the birth of the pharmaceutical industry, because if you think about the magazines and you'll see those articles which will be like, like an ad for some tablet that you take to keep you looking trim, and it's probably like some sort of methamphetamine or something. Like, back then all that stuff was legal. Like, they had coke in Coca-Cola. Like, it was like— it was a minefield of pharmaceuticals out there. But from the 1950s until now. So I do believe that the body image, like, is being flipped on its head. Like, the negativity towards it. I believe our children aren't Anywhere near as bad. I think that the cycle is breaking. So it's been about a 75-year period. Like, even like, I'm just thinking back to the funny, like, the white wine diet and stuff where it was like, okay, for breakfast, have a glass of white wine and a boiled egg and a black coffee or something. For lunch, one salad, a glass and a half of white wine, and, and I don't know, some tuna. And then dinner was like the rest of the bottle of white wine, some chicken and some vegetables. And that was an actual legitimate diet. Posted in like, I don't know, it was the '50s, the '60s, or the '70s, but it was a real thing. Um, but the point is that it's been about 75 years where we've been in this cycle of using our bodies to feel bad about who we are. And which is why I'm laughing at it, because once you know your truth, that you are divine source energy, that you are divine intelligence, like— The idea that our bodies, like these— what we call them meat suits, like what we have chosen to incarnate into, and you have chosen this— like, the idea that it has, like, occupied so much of our mental capacity, I actually now find hysterical. But then my sister and I were just playing around with this because we thought, okay, so if we've only hated our bodies for about 75 years, And all those other eons and eons of time, we haven't hated our bodies. Like, this is a new thing. Like, you've seen the sculptures, like, there's like beauty and voluptuous. And you've seen the paintings, like Renaissance paintings, you've seen like the bodies that were in them that were celebrated. There is no hatred like there is towards our bodies in this generation, this 75-year time period. So then we obviously dug a little bit deeper into that, and we were just thinking, okay, if we incarnate into each lifetime to experience a different facet, like the 3D image scanning— like, I want to experience loss every single faceted way that I can experience it. I want to experience joy in every single faceted way that I experience it. And there, I think it's Alan Watts that sort of says, at first we chose to experience all the good things. And then we were like, okay, now we're going to come in and experience all the bad things so that we can experience it as a whole, because you can't experience one side without the other. And so wait for it, because this is an aha moment that me and my sister had. If we've experienced, like, and embodied all these other experiences on Earth, don't you think the final experience would be to hate the bodies that have allowed us to have these experiences. So I'm going to say that in another way. If we are divine intelligence and these soul essences that choose to incarnate down into an earthly form, human form, so that we can experience and embody the theoretical knowledge that we have of joy, pain, love, bliss, like hurt, sadness— sadness, that's not even a word— sadness, anger. Like, I would say that we were pretty much going to be in appreciation of these bodies that we are in for allowing us to have this embodied experience. So don't you think that The final, like, cherry-on-top embodiment of experience, if we've loved these bodies for allowing us to have this human experience for so long and eons and eons and eons, the final twist is that, okay, let's choose a consciousness collective that's going to go down and decide to hate the bodies. We're going to choose to hate the bodies that We are in, and we're going to throw all sorts of 3D projections in front of us to ensure that we— that these bodies that we are in, we hate everything about them. They never do what we want them to. They're never thin enough. They're never quite right. They've got all these lumps and bumps. And, and, and we're fed things in our 3D projection. Like, if you think about it, from the '50s onwards, Birth of the advertising agency. Like, you think that's where you're getting fed the information. Like all of a sudden you're being fed information from the advertising agency that we want to take this tablet; it's going to make our waist littler. It's like, oh, didn't know my waist needed to be littler. I didn't know my there was anything wrong with my waist. Like, hmm. Do you see? Like, we didn't know before there was anything wrong. We've chosen. To experience. What if there was a world where all the information told us there was something wrong with our physical bodies? So that's what, like, I've just been having this massive aha moment today is I think the last 75 years we have chosen to come down here and embody the experience of not appreciating. Our bodies and criticizing them, controlling them, using them as such a representation of who we think we are. You are not. You are not your body. You are not. You are like— this body is allowing you to have this embodied experience. Your soul Down here on this human plane. Like, that is allowing you to have that. And that's why I now just think it's so funny, because I'm sure in so many other incarnations we have been so thankful as a soul for this body to allow us to experience this. And then we have this lifetime where every piece of information— like, every piece of information is coming at us telling us Our bodies aren't enough. Like, back in the photo— like, airbrush days, and where the bodies that they were showing us in the ads weren't even real bodies. Like, they were airbrushed and Photoshopped and nipped and tucked. And it's interesting because my sister and I were talking about, like, who were the rule breakers? Like, who were the changemakers who saw through— who saw through this facade about Telling us our bodies had to be a certain way. And like, how did they know that they were going to be those people? And I feel like Scanties— this has sort of evolved a little bit like that. Scanties there, see? Look fabulous, feel amazing, and be unapologetically you. So the reason why I'm tying Scanties and the Scanties journey into this is because I think it's really important. Because originally I made— so number one, I made scanties because I wanted my body to stop telling me I wasn't enough. Like, I wanted the physical cues to just shush. Because if those are shushed, then you've sort of got a blank slate. So originally I made them for myself to feel good in my body. And that was it. And then as it evolved, I realized actually other women want to feel good in their bodies as well. So I was like, okay, this might be a business. And then I was like, okay, I'm going to make this a business because how about heart passion, being able to help other women feel good in their bodies the way that you've helped yourself feel good in your body? And so that was just like, it was a very basic unraveling of, great, if I can help other women feel good too, that seems like a pretty purposeful, passion-driven business. I can help them feel good. And then over time, I've unraveled slowly, why do we not feel good in our bodies? And initially it's the bait, like the obvious, like don't follow accounts with, um, like people that use like, like, um, filters to make themselves look skinnier and like, you know, to change their proportions. Like it started with promoting people that are speaking the same message. It started with, um, uh, like following brands that use real size models. It started with me putting myself out there as the face of scanties. Even though I'm— I am actually an introvert. I do not like to be out on center stage, but I knew that I had to in order to get this message out there because you deserve to see someone who authentically has been where you've been. Like, I have authentically been you. I have had thighs rub that made me feel like I wasn't enough. Like, I have been exactly where you are. Like, and not even to name the countless diets and exercise regimes, and like, you name it, I have done it. And I've even done anti-dieting. And anti-dieting is where you just don't diet, but then you put on weight, so then you feel guilty and shameful anyway. So you know what? It's all the same. And just where I've just chucked it right off because— Oh, let's just take a breath because there's nothing actually wrong with you. You don't need to change. It's just identifying your truth first and then allowing yourself to see with the new lens of your truth all these unaligned beliefs that you're not enough. So it's very easy now, like Like there was, um, what's it called? Um, bull— bull— oh, I can't actually say that properly. BS was called on the advertising industry and Photoshop and, and using models that they wanted us to aspire to these bodies that were unnatural and unachievable for the majority of us. Like, I think the body shapes they use in a lot of advertising, only 5% of the population have those body shapes, and the rest of us will never naturally achieve them in a healthy way. So they were literally setting us up to fail. And in that failure, it was just that message of, I am not enough. I am not enough. So then you add on to that shapewear. Like, that's how Scanties evolved into an anti-shapewear movement. It evolved because it actually— I actually coined the phrase The day I saw Sara Blakely from Spanx, and she did a video showing how she achieved this particular look, and you had to watch it as a video because no one would believe she could achieve it if she didn't show you the proof in a video. And then she proceeded to put not one pair of Spanx on, but layer it, 2 pairs of Spanx on to achieve this set look. And that's when I just threw down the towel and I was like, oh my God. When is enough going to be enough? Like, when— when is enough? When is it enough? 2 pairs of shapewear. Like, 2. Like— I was just like, we need to stop this. We need to stop telling people, like, the message out there that your bodies need to be shrunk to be accepted. Like, we need to stop promoting that you're— there's something wrong with you all the time. Like, I understand Sarah had great intentions, but it's just enough is enough. Like, any messaging that is promoting that you are not enough, it's not your truth. It is not your truth. And that is the part that we are going to transmute And get rid of anything that tells you that you're not enough. So anything, because I can tell you 100%, because we know you exist, that you are divine source energy creation, whatever you want to call it, and that you are 100% perfect exactly as you are right now. And And we need you to hook into that truth. Like, you are made from the divine. Like, you are the same energy as the magical sunset. Like, you are the same energy as every single human on the planet. You are the same energy as every single animal on the planet. Like, anywhere where you find joy and magic, that is you. And you are enough. Like, you are enough. So I was trying to align, like, how scanty— so the anti-shapewear movement, it was like, it was enough to be told that our bodies needed to be shrunk and squished and made into shapes that we're not. Like, and you know how comfortable that is? Yeah. We were made to believe that Discomfort and like squeezing and shrinking ourselves into unnatural shapes was beauty. Like, how can putting yourself in an uncomfortable situation be beautiful? If you just like just like picture this. You've got 2 women. One is in 2 pairs of Spanx and you're at an event. Okay, you're sitting down because you know how practical that is in 2 pairs of Spanx. So, she's— you're both sitting down. This other one, let's pretend she's in scanties. She might be in nothing for all we know, but scanties feel like nothing, so we'll just pretend that. They're both sitting down, they're at an event, and it's a dinner. So, put yourself in the body of the person wearing 2 pairs of Spanx. Like, just imagine the tightness around your stomach, like, it's sort of digging in, it's feeling a bit like— like that— it's a light pain, it's not a full-blown pain, but it's just like a— it's like that squeeze of discomfort, like, oh, you know, it's just— it's like, I'm okay, like, I'm surviving. And then the girl that is just sitting next to her, she's eating her food because she doesn't have to think about, is it going to fit in there with the 2 layers of Spanx? Like, she's drinking, she's having a whatever she's drinking, she's laughing, she's moving around, she's like— she's like embodied in presence and joy. And the other girl is just feeling miserable and— What's like— I'll actually remember some friends. I was speaking at a school, a big school luncheon. It was one of my first public speaking events for people that I kind of knew. And at the end, I was texting the coordinator and she said, oh, I wish I'd been in your scanties because I, I couldn't flop on the couch after the event because I had my Spanx on. And this lady was a size 4. Like, she was tiny. I was like, why are you wearing Spanx? Like, this, this message that we are not enough is not discriminate against any body shape. Like, everyone feels like they're not enough. Everyone feels like their bodies need changing. And I know this has been a really big rant party, but... I think that our bodies are just like a 3D representation of everything that's going on in our heads. So I think we channel our not enough feelings into our bodies. Our bodies become the scapegoat. I think, I think because they're something that we can like manipulate and control, we can starve them, we can over-exercise them, we can Like, we can do stuff to either confirm or deny if we are enough. And so, then comes the big battle of, are we in starvation control mode, or are we in effort mode overindulge? Like, who cares? I give up. Like, I give up. And then there's that real fine line between Like you don't even know it's on autopilot because it's so ingrained, like trying to remove it layer by layer. And I think that's what started this whole Living from the Heart Challenge, because I think our bodies are just a tool that our, like, that our programming, our unaligned belief system, like, has us shackled to. I think we're shackled to them, to how we feel about our bodies. We're shackled to the incessant chatter that goes on. Is it— am I having a good day? Am I having a bad day? Is it a cheat day? Is it a— like, am I like doing intermittent fasting today because I had a bad day yesterday? Like— Like, where, where does it stop? We just take a deep breath in there on that. Like, I know I'm really rambling on this today because I think I wanted to tie in with how I've come to this realizations about, like, so scanties, they started as something to make me feel good about myself. Then I realized That maybe they might help other women feel good about themselves. And then I realized this bigger— like, it was bigger. It was enough to turn off the body, like, shame and guilt that things like chafing and riding up underwear and digging in waistbands would bring about in our brains, like, turning that off. But then anti-shapewear is more than just about feeling comfortable in our physical. It's about— The emotional shapewear removal that is like suffocating our souls, like the, the emotional shapewear we're wearing. And that is what has brought me to this series, to live from your heart. It's actually seeing the emotional shapewear and seeing where it comes from and seeing how it got there and Noticing it and noticing the stories that are coming up for you and the programming that's there. Because I know this started out as like— and I love her because, well, I know Marilyn was a complicated person, but this is kind of like a merging of me and Marilyn, like a combination of identities. And at the time, she was considered, well, voluptuous for the, for the age. Like, she wasn't voluptuous in our terms at all, but at the time, she was considered voluptuous. And at the time, she was also considered quite her own person, even though we now know probably she was actually quite troubled. But for her time, she was quite her own person. And she owned her body. She really owned her... Feminine essence, I think, is what she did. And I've spent like a long time trying to own my feminine essence, and it's been a real— like, it's been a journey, and it, it's still a thing every day. But I think once we— like, still a journey every day. I think once we can appreciate our truth and who we truly are, it takes off like Like, you can see the messages of I am not enough so much more clearly. And once you can see the messages of I am not enough more clearly, that's when you can start transmuting them. But you've got to understand your truth, this like sort of truth of who you are. Like, you've got to embody that first. Because then the unaligned beliefs, they're like boom boom boom, ching ching ching ching ching ching ching. You can just kick them out of bed. Kick them out of bed. They're gone. They are gone because I know who I am. And who I am is definitely not someone who is putting on two pairs of shapewear to fit into an unrealistic body standard that like we don't even know where it came from. I think it came from us so we we projected this so we could experience. This hatred for this divine vessel that we are in because we'd never experienced it before. So I don't know. This has been way too long, this video. So I am going to leave it here. But just notice the emotional shapewear you're wearing. And if you're still wearing physical shapewear, ask yourself why. Why are you wearing? The physical shapewear. Why do you feel like you need to be compressed into like a form that is not all your raw beauty? I don't even know if that's even the question. Like, you do you. If it makes you feel enough, do it. That's what it is. If you're coming from a place that I am enough because I know my truth and you want to wear shapewear, go for it. But for me, I am enough is feeling like a conf— like comfortable and at peace and at ease with my body, being able to breathe, because our breath is our connection up through, like up through to our soul essence, which is In the universe, it's the energy all around us. It's connected to absolutely everything, and it is enough, and you are it. So therefore, you are enough. Okay, I love you lots. That was a very large day thirteen, but needed to come out, I suppose. I hope that you understood where I was coming from. I will cut this one up into shorter ones because it is very long. But love you, day thirteen. Bye.