Day 7 - The Missing Key to Manifestation

Hello, welcome to day 7 of The Missing Key to Manifestation. I'm Susie and this is Susie Unshaped, where we are peeling back any blocks, limiting beliefs, any pesky things that are preventing you from living from your heart in this amazing life, um, full of love and joy. So day 7, that's— it's the week today and Do you know what? I'm still so excited by the realization, not the realization, but how it all came together yesterday. Like it really made me happy because I could just see like the vi— I, as you can tell, I'm very visual and I can just see the round table now with all of our traits and like all our characters, like Selfish Susie, Greedy Susie, Fun Susie, Happy Susie, Sad Susie, all the Susies. Are— it's going to be a big table, but that's okay because we're gonna have as big a table as we like. Everyone is welcome. And I did touch on that. Now what we can do is there's 2 steps. There's proactively working through this, like proactively writing down all the areas where you might Have not felt enough, like, or not worthy enough, or like from a historical place. And they could go back to, um, like when you're a child. Like, I know I've done inner child work, and when I, I of— and I actually have a meditation. I will try to remember to link the meditation to this because I have an inner child meditation that I recorded. Um, and it's designed for you to go into a nice relaxed state, and then you go and meet your younger version of yourself, and whichever one wants to talk to you will come to you in the meditation, or you'll feel, or you'll get an image, or— and actually, if you don't, that's okay too. So I'm really squirmy. I don't know why. I'm just really uncomfortable. Sorry. I'm just gonna do this. I don't know why. Anyway, that's better. Um, the version that presents itself to you in the meditation, or that's what I was saying. If nothing, if you're new to meditation, I'm very visual, so I see things. I see a lot of things that I don't think a lot of other people do see, but you'll get a feeling or the flash of a memory or some little part of you will come up and maybe it won't even be in the meditation. It might be, I often get things later. Like you'll be sitting at the traffic lights and boom, this like memory will come in and you'll be like, oh my God, I had completely forgotten about that. And then it, it like, it's amazing. And the meditation basically teaches you to meet that part of your youngest, like meet that, not part, meet your younger self at the age they're presenting. themselves to you because they mostly need a big cuddle. Like, I remember when I first did inner child work or like younger self work. Oh, she was not happy with me. No, no, no, nope, nope, nope. She was like really nearly wouldn't talk to me because I had just ignored her for so long. The poor darling. But now, and I, when I do it, she jumps and skips straight over, jumps into my lap, big cuddles. Um, because I visit her now. And you can actually, you don't even need to do a meditation to do this. You can actually just close your eyes and just imagine yourself when you were younger and just imagine asking that part of yourself, not part, I don't know why I keep saying that, that version of yourself. That version of you, you close your eyes and just think back to a time. And actually, here's a great idea. Why don't we think back to a time that you can actually remember feeling like, like I did when I wasn't able to sit with the girls at lunch, when they, when that one girl told me to go away. Like the pain, the pain and the shame and the just embarrassment. Like I was so shy. Being publicly like denied entry to the girls' gang at lunch was like my— that was like my idea of hell. So I can actually just— I won't close my eyes because I'm talking to you, but close your eyes and just imagine that version of you. Imagine sitting down with her on a bench at— in the school playground, or maybe you've taken her somewhere beautiful and quiet so that she doesn't have to be embarrassed anymore. And she's got like, A, she's gonna burst out crying and she's just gonna need a hug to start with. So first we're just gonna console that version of you, like just console them and hug them and give them that love that the situation has made them not feel like. It didn't take it away from them, but it has made them disconnected. From the love that they truly deserve. And you know in your heart how much love, like, I know how much love 10-year-old Susie needed when she was completely embarrassed and like, whoa, she was like, oh, it's traumatized isn't the word. Like she was like just completely like, oh, I don't know. I can't think of the word. Anyway, we'll use traumatized for now. It's not it, but, um, Like, go and give her that love and hug and console her. Console that version of you that you can remember in the situation. Like, the vivid situations will be ones that hurt a lot. And then once you've, like, just imagine you're hugging them, because by you hugging them, like, imagining you can hug yourself, even like hugging yourself, because giving yourself that love now is giving them that love then. And in actual fact, and this will go a bit quantum physics-y, but because there is no time, you can heal that version of yourself then, and you heal it in yourself now as well, because you are— there is no time. So you are actually her right now. But that's a bit too deep for a Friday night. Um, okay, sorry, I am crapping on, but, but this actually matters because I'm talking about the parts of us that we're going to like, like go back and heal. Like the big, the big clangers, the big massive ones. You'll have them. Write them down. Write down the 10 biggest times that you felt hurt or wounded or like betrayed or unloved or like whatever they are. Write down your first big 10 clangers and then practice this process for each one. I'm gonna put the meditation in there, but you can also just do it by just closing your eyes and visiting yourself when that was happening. Console them or whatever they need to do. If they need to yell and scream, go somewhere quiet and yell and scream with them. Say, yeah, that does suck. Yes, that's awful. Yes, that's— yeah, I'm with you. Let's yell and scream as much as we like. Get it all out, and then you can start the process. I am so sorry that they made you feel that way. Like, I am so sorry that you had to feel so traumatized and embarrassed. Horrified was the word I was looking for. She was horrified at the situation. Like, I am so sorry you had to feel So horrified at the shame and the embarrassment of, especially when you like gathered all your courage and was the biggest, bravest Susie that you could be, only to be turned around as like not good enough Susie. And then you were horrified Susie, traumatized Susie, like embarrassed Susie, and just wanted to scuttle away and hide and never go back to school again. Like, I'm so sorry that you felt that way. And actually, here's something, you know, I like to think I was rewatching. I know, maybe I was just practicing the words. I was practicing doing it. And I know that we're saying, I forgive you, but I actually feel like it's feeling more natural to say, from me to the part of myself that I And giving this compassion and forgiveness to. It's like, I'm so— like, please forgive me that I didn't know. Hmm. Here we go, I'm getting stuck again. I am so sorry is easy. Like, I am so sorry that happened to you. I am so sorry you're traumatized. I forgive you. No, it is. I forgive. I'm getting stuck here because I'm not sure. Please forgive me, which is the way it is in the Hoponono Nopo prayer, which was the inspiration for this. I'm not running it the same as that prayer, but it was the inspiration for putting all these pieces together and doing a process around them. But now I'm stuck on the forgiveness. Because when I was playing with this last night, I was thinking, please forgive me actually makes more sense in some instances. Please forgive me, 10-year-old Susie. I forgive you, 10-year-old Susie, for not knowing your— that the meanness of those girls had nothing to do with who you are. Please forgive me. Please forgive me. Please forgive me. Sorry, I know I'm processing, as you can tell. Look at me scratching my head. You know, they say that people actually— I am one of those people. When I'm thinking, I actually scratch my head. I know it's like super weird, but then, you know, you've known me for long enough now, you know that I'm super weird too. Um, Okay, I'm stuck on the please forgive me or I forgive you, because I forgive you, at least, I don't know, something's not sitting right. It doesn't feel right. I don't know why. I forgive you. Please forgive me. Do you know why I think it's not sitting right? It's because Susie is a character of me, and I have many characters. So by me forgiving her is not sitting right because she didn't do anything wrong. I didn't do anything wrong either, but I think I need to ask her forgiveness from me, me being Susie with all the characters. Please forgive me, 10-year-old Susie, for not, like, not, not letting you know that scared Susie and terrified Susie and Horrified Susie were not like did not make her any less worthy of love. This is going to be another overnighter, I think, guys. I um I'm trying to figure it out on camera, and I'm just wasting your time. You know, I'll rewatch this and go, uh, what were you doing? Like you know the answer to this, but. It's easy when you hear— when I hear myself say it, I'll be like, oh no, that's not right. What, what are you saying? That is not correct. But when I'm trying to figure it out right now, and I should have written down what I was thinking last night because it was so clear then, and right now not so clear. Okay, I'm gonna park that because— put it on the back burner, as I call it. My brain, my heart, nothing's figuring anything out here right now, so I'm parking that. But what I am going to do— so that is the retroactive. Is that the right word? Anyway, the past stuff. Let's just call it the past stuff. I don't know why I keep trying to use words I don't even know if they're right. Um, I never use that word. It's so bizarre. Anyway, okay, the stuff that in the past. And then so there's 2 sections to this. It's going through and you can actively Actively work through this process with all the big hurts and going back and visualizing and doing the meditation, the inner child meditation. And, um, I also have a, like, a loved one, like a crossed over loved ones meditation, which I'll link as well in case you might need. No, I don't know why I'm— no. Oh, okay. Sorry. I'm being told I need to link that and just to be quiet and link it. Okay. I'll link that one as well, which it's a really beautiful meditation. I actually wrote it for my friend whose friend crossed over, and I was, I was trying to talk to her about some of the beliefs I had and just offer her some support and, and some perspectives about where her friend is now. And I recall I wrote the meditation for her. I didn't use her friend's name in it. I just wrote a generic one, but it was written especially for her. So it's, I really, it holds a lot of love in my heart, that meditation. Okay. Digression. Sorry. Now what we're going to do, the past stuff, you can work through that. The situational stuff, this is the triggers that you have. This is every time something triggers you. I heard it was the responsibility is Your responsibility with a trigger is to read the response, your ability to read the response. So whenever you get triggered by anything, first deep breath, and then write. I'm gonna get you to write this one. I'm gonna get you to write, or if you're me and you're a verbal processor, record yourself voice memo. phone video. Um, I find it so helpful. But what we're trying to do is find the core emotion behind it, and then we're going to do what we suggested in one of the previous days, which is link it, brainstorm all the other times you felt that emotion. Um, and then we're going to do some group healing of all the emotions, like You can instantly talk to yourself. I am so sorry that that person pissed you off. I'm so sorry that they irritated you so much. I'm so sorry whatever they've done, whatever they've made you feel. I'm so sorry you feel like that. And then, okay, let's get out our filing cupboard of all the other times we felt like that. Okay. The file. The file. So pissed off, where does that emotion come from? Well, the other person— if you're pissed at someone, like they're making you angry, why are they making you angry? Have you Maybe denied yourself from protection, like some protection. I don't mean from the anger. You are the one that's angry, but this is, I'm talking from experience. This is what I do where I give, give, give, give, give, give, give until I'm depleted. And then someone turns around and tries to take advantage or says I didn't, doesn't say I didn't give anything, but just completely disrespects all the time and effort that I've put into whatever I was helping them with. And that would make me pissed. But I didn't have a clear boundary, so I kind of let it happen to myself. Now, we are not spiritually band-aiding over the top of that with set boundaries, et cetera. We're, we're saying, I'm so sorry you're pissed. I'm so sorry they took advantage of you. And this part's the key because instead of just jumping to gratitude, it's like, well, you should have set boundaries, but I'm grateful that I have this. I have this. I have this. I have this. Healthy kids, like my legs work. Da da da. You know what I mean? So that's the part we're not skipping to anymore. We're not sticking the bandaid, the spiritual bandaid, and shoving pissed off Susie into the cupboard. No, she gets to stay. She's got a seat at the table. So here, Susie, pissed Susie, sit at the big table with big round table with everybody else. And actually, that's really funny because it reminded me of my sister Cass when she was on Camino, and she calls it the internal committee—the ones that all trying to make decisions and have a say in in the process—and she sometimes just shush. I can't. I cannot listen to you all right now. Just be quiet. I'm trying to listen to my heart. I love you all, but just be quiet right now. So the internal committee makes me laugh about my round table because. I want to come to Cass's roundtable and meet her internal committee. Anyway, sorry, I'm so sorry I'm digressing. I don't know why. It's late here tonight, as you can tell. I've got the lights on. Sorry. Pissed off Susie gets a seat at the table. We are not band-aiding over her now with gratitude and love and affirmations and, um, and, but look at what you do have. We're gonna be like, no, right, you have every right to be pissed. Sit down, get a chair, pissed off Susie. Come down and sit here with me. Who are we bringing with us? Okay, angry Susie's coming too. Angry Susie and pissed Susie, they're very good friends. Um, angry, angry Susan steps it up a level when pissed Susie's not being loud enough. Um, okay, who else is coming? Oh, is Abandoned Susie wanting to come up? Abandoned Susie would like to sit at the table as well. Now, why is Abandoned Susie coming? Because I had abandoned her by not setting my boundaries. So she's sad too. It's like, you keep leaving me in the closet. You keep forgetting about me. So Abandoned Susie has now Got her seat at the table. Do we have anyone else here that would like to come up? Oh, Sad Susie. Sad Susie's coming too. So we've got Pissed, Anger, Abandoned, and Sad Susie. Anyone else? Who else would like to come? I just had an image of like the athletic version of me, like doing warm-ups and stretch-ups, like with the headband on and stuff. But I don't think they need to come to the table. I think they're just being funny to make me laugh. Okay, Susie character traits can be quite funny. Okay, we have got you all here now. We've got Sad Susie, Abandoned Susie, Angry Susie, and Piss Susie. So I am going to like, I am so sorry that you guys feel sad and angry and abandoned and pissed off. Like, I am so sorry that you feel that way. I am so sorry. Now please forgive me. Oh, I'm gonna get stuck on this one too. Oh, is it I forgive you? I just feel like I forgive you is not right to poor sad Susie and abandoned Susie. If I'm saying I forgive you, it just feels— the compassion feels off anyway. Okay, so the compassion— I'm just gonna pause this because I can't get past forgiveness now, and we're just gonna have to have— hopefully tomorrow will be another clanger. Okay, I've gotta drive now and get My daughter from faraway place that I do not like going to. Okay, I love you lots, and I promise that I will come back tomorrow with some resolutions. I promise. Okay, see you tomorrow. Bye.