Numbing, running, avoiding, distracting- I get it! It’s too much to carry sometimes - solve it! Zero

Hello, welcome to Susie Unshaped. I'm Susie, and this is where we unshape all those pesky belief systems and, and, um, lies that we tell ourselves that detract us. Is that a word? Detract? Anyway, that take us away from living from our heart and remembering the miraculous, amazing beings that we are. So if you haven't done my 31-day challenge, like a broken record, I highly recommend you do it, and it's totally free. I will eventually link it below, but I'm a bit slow in that. So if it's not there, just go to the playlist challenge, the 31-day challenge. So, um, in it we have like step by step, and I've had the realizations and aha moments and epiphanies like in real time with you on camera. Like, so it is a really great way to walk through. like the progressive journey on how we like uncover who we truly are, which is this divine, amazing being. Like, your soul essence is pure love. Like, you are God's creation. You are a miracle. You are miraculous. All of the things. And I think, um, what I really want to talk about today is this integration. So the 31-day challenge is living from your heart In a 3D world. And it's in a 3D world, that's the part that trips us up, or definitely trips me up, that is for certain. And I've just noticed, like yesterday, it's so funny because you can— I now, I, because I have figured out like who I am and what my purpose is, like I can, I have an awareness that I didn't have before, so I can see it when my human is just like wants to run and hide from this reality. Like it, like I saw it yesterday, it came clear as day. I was like, my human was like brave, brave, brave, brave, and then by about 3 o'clock it's the wheels. It's like, I can't do it anymore, I need to tap out, I need to tap out. Um, and I needed to run away basically. And so I've been playing with this idea of surrender, and surrender is— well, it's difficult for us humans because we've never taken our hands off the wheel before and just let the universe drive. And I'll tell you what, me and my human, we're struggling a little bit with this. We're struggling. And I did talk about how We need to embrace the part of us that is scared to let go and, um, is worried it won't all work out and has fear and has doubt. And embrace— and I suppose that probably was where some of my running away came from yesterday. It's sort of like, I can't be in my brave, in my, in my trust for any longer. I just need to make it Stop for a bit. Like I can't be brave and trusting any longer. I can't stay like positive any longer. And I think it's in that that that's the key because instead of running away, oh, just take a breath. We need to breathe and sit in it and feel the doubt and feel the fear. And breathe and sit in the doubt and the fear and sit in the, like, I'm, I'm scared to take my hands off the wheel. Like, I'm scared because that's actually the feeling I'm not allowing myself to feel. I'm great at allowing myself to feel the brave. I can do it. I trust, I trust it's all going to work out, but I am not Fully allowing myself to feel the overwhelm and the doubt and the what-ifs and the all of that side is the part I'm running away from. And it's really difficult because I don't think we've ever been taught to to really sit with these difficult emotions. But it's just energy emotion. So if I don't sit and feel it. It's just going to come back and back and back and back. And that's why I'm running away and numbing and watching TV shows to take my mind off things. And I'm running away because I'm not allowing myself to feel scared at taking my hands off the wheel, because I've always been someone that has it together, that has a plan, that has a backup plan, that has a triple backup plan, that can figure it out, that can fix things, can get in there and like fix it, make something happen. And we know, if you're still watching this, you know we can't think our way through this. Not anymore. Not this new Earth. Not this new human that we are. Because we are doing things our brain has never seen before. We are creating realities. That only our heart knows the, like, the pathway for it. It's only our heart knows the GPS coordinates. Like, our brain can't figure them out. It doesn't know the— it doesn't know the route. It doesn't know how to get there. And so it's this dance between— a dance between knowing that but also allowing your human to feel scared and Oh, overwhelmed and doubt. And, and then I was just doing something actually before. I was, I was revisiting one of Courtney from the Divinely Aligned channel, one of her replays from the Rich course she did back in November, and it's called Catalyze. It's the 3rd time I've redone just that one. I don't know the other— that just that one was really special. And it's basically catalyzing that resistance that you have to living your most rich, fulfilling, amazing. And rich is not not as in money, although it is in money as well, but it's abundance, like your most rich. And in it, I was sort of shown this time when she was— had us in doing a process or something, and it was like what I saw was I can see the inflection point where it gets too much and I run away. And I like I am aware of it. Yesterday I was fully aware of it. It was three o'clock by the time I like I managed to get to three o'clock and then I was like, ah, can't can't cope can't cope too scary. Gotta gotta like focus on something else. Like gotta numb and like distract. I was distracting myself from creating my own reality. Like it was because of I wasn't accepting the fear and the And the scaredness and the lack of control probably is what it really is. If we want to boil down to it, it's the lack of control. We're taking our hands off the driver's, like, off the steering wheel, and that's scary. So when you get to— and today I got shown, like, when I get to that inflection point where I know it's too much, I watched myself actually connect. And she had like a portal, like the zero point, which is— the zero point is the Point between our hearts and us and our heart's connection to the entire universe. So that's our zero point. And so now, and today I was just doing that, and when I get to that inflection point of wanting to run, to breathe into that zero point. If you're still with me, you must know what I'm talking about. You probably already follow Courtney, because if you're still watching and you don't, you'll be going, she's nuts. But anyway, breathing into that zero port, and I actually like imagined like a portal, like a, you know, like the movies where they have like a portal that goes to another dimension. And I actually imagined that portal like at my heart space and just breathing in. It's like, yes, I trust. Like, yes, I I know that you're scared, human. Yes, I know that you have doubts, human. And we can't— our brains are never going to figure it out. The only place that we can feel into it is from our hearts. So when you have those doubts, when you want to run and numb and hide, connect into that zero point. And you don't just turn your brain off. If it's still overthinking of things, just say, that's great. Just put it outside in that basket that we can get, we can get, pick it up later. Just put it in the basket and connect into that zero point. Connect into that portal. And the point being that you're not trying to figure it out. You just wanna connect in and feel. That connection to your zero point. And just breathe there. Breathe that connection to your zero point. If you need to send the versions of you that are scared love, do that. I know you're scared and I'm sending you love and we're connecting into our zero point and we're just gonna sit here and breathe and feel. Breathe into that zero point portal, which connects you to the intelligence of the entire universe. It doesn't speak in words, it speaks in feelings. Just breathe into that. And how does your body feel? And just remembering and having the awareness of when you notice yourself wanting to run, numb, hide. If you're able, closing your eyes down and just breathing into that zero point and allow. And what was coming to me was it was, I was chasing a feeling of relief. And so when you numb and run and hide, you get relief because you've switched off your presence. But we know that's not gonna get us, that that's just turning us onto autopilot. So. Breathing into this zero point until you can feel that relief of not having to know the answers. Feel that relief in your heart of not having to figure it out. Feel that relief Like, actually embrace the relief of taking your hands off the wheel. And we're just gonna sit there breathing in and feeling that relief, because that's the feeling I'm looking for. I'm just like, I need to feel the relief. Of like when you drop a heavy burden, cuz that's why I'm trying to numb it, because I'm carrying it all day. My human is carrying it and needs to put it down because it's too heavy to carry. And it's interesting because I even did yesterday, like I did a beautiful big long beach walk, like beautiful big long beach walk. And whilst I was present in it, I really do feel I had like one— I was, I was there, but I wasn't there. It wasn't quite autopilot. It was something in between. I'm not quite sure how to place it. I went to my favorite coffee shop and got a coffee, but the coffee was burnt, and I had it to, to drink in when I know— when I would have liked to probably have it on the beat. I don't know. I was in, I was in a bit of A discombobulation, I suppose. So I went to the beach and went— it was beautiful long walk, an hour and a half. But like, I feel like I was only half in my body while I was there. Like, I was only maybe not even half there, maybe 10% there and 90% probably stuck in my head. And then yes, by about 3 o'clock. Gone. Um, but that's what I got was today is connect into that zero point anytime you're feeling doubt and fear. And even if you can catch yourself holding it all, like carrying it all— it's actually what's really funny. In the middle of the night, I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep, and a song popped into my head, and it was my song that I wrote And then, um, Suno AI helped me create like the music and stuff for it. So my own song popped into my head, and it's basically saying like, you are doing enough, you are enough, you're doing better than you know. Breathe in, breathe out, let it flow. Breathe in, breathe out. And I was like, oh my God, my own song is popping into my head to make me Feel better in the middle of the night, because you are doing better than you know. I'm going to link that below. I'll try and remember to do it straight away, but the thing is I upload from my phone and then I've got to go into the computer to put the link— the links in. And so that's why sometimes I forget to do it, and then I'll do it all at once for all of them. Okay, this has been quite the wild twisty ride of a, um, A wild twisty ride of a video. But actually, that's the one more thing. I have an itchy nose today. Sorry, I keep scratching it. Is when I was doing the catalyze with Courtney, it was like what like what frequency do you want to be remembered for? What feeling do you want to be remembered for? And I was like really sitting into what frequency and feeling. And I don't. I think it's. I don't know if it's only Pen, my middle one, or if my youngest son does it as well. But they do this little like wiggle bum down. dance when they're like happy, you know, like, um, wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle. And that's the frequency, that's the feeling that I want to be remembered for. Like, I want to make you feel like that. And so I was thinking, like, you know the— you know when you, um, like sit down at a restaurant, your favorite restaurant, and you order your favorite food and you're waiting, you're sitting there waiting for it and you're just like in a beautiful setting and you're so happy and you did that feeling like, oh yeah, I'm so excited, I've got that coming, it's going to be so amazing. And that's, that's the feeling I want to, um, you know, like that's the feeling I want to leave people with. You know, like when your favorite song comes on and you just like drop everything that you're doing and just like have a good old boogie to it in the lounge room or whatever, or Like that feeling. So it— that is what I feel like my purpose is, is I want everyone to rediscover that feeling and be like just lit up, you know, like sort of like a dog wagging his tail because they're so happy, and like they're jumping up and down because they're so excited and so happy. That's it, that's the feeling. That, that's the frequency I want to be known for. So I was like, at the moment my songs I've been creating have been quite, um, more like a, like a chanty sort of thing to get stuck in your head. But maybe I need to create some songs that make us wiggle our tails. We don't have tails, we're not dogs, but well, maybe we do. Um, like that excitement, like a, like a kid when they see bubbles in the air and they're chasing after them. They're so excited. Like, um, oh, when you're driving down the highway and your favorite song comes on and you've got the windows down— well, maybe not on the highway, but you know what I mean— like, and the music's loud and you're singing at the top of your lungs. And that's the frequency. That's the frequency that I want to be tapped into and shining a light on and igniting Igniting that heart, like that heart joy and excitement. And so I think that, like, I was looking back on all the videos that I've done, and I've done quite a few videos now, and there's a lot on the remembering who we are and, and peeling back this 3D, like putting it into practice in the 3D for how to, like, navigate What we've known our whole lives and shift into this new world, this new Earth, as a new human, which is connecting into that zero point and letting this lead. And I have been told that at the moment it will be clunky. It's like riding a bike, like learning how to ride a bike, like, or snowboard or ski or walk or drive a manual car. Like, we're bunny hopping our way through this. It's like, oh God, I see my humans running and numbing and avoiding and distracting. How do I pull it back? Okay, into my zero point, connect into the infinite source intelligence because it knows the way. Our head doesn't know the way. And if you try to navigate this from here, that's when you numb and run and avoid and distract because our brains can't figure it out. Like, it's like, you know, in Excel, the, you know, the spreadsheeting, how you get a circular reference. It's like it's using the information from one cell to give the answer to another cell, but using that same cell to give the answer to the other. So it can't solve the problem because it's looping, and you get an error mess and an error message saying, uh-uh, circular reference cannot solve because we haven't given it enough bits of data. That's what our brain is. Our brain is going to be looping in a circular reference. It cannot close out the equation because it doesn't have all the data. The data's in here, and we just have to keep coming back and remembering that, remembering who we are, and remembering that we don't access the information from here anymore, and catching ourselves when we find ourselves trying to access the information from here because it's exhausting, and you will end up running and numbing and distracting yourself because Because it is too much to carry. It's too much and too tiring and exhausting. And you will, you just, you crack. It's like you can last for so long and then you'll crack and run numb and avoid, distract. Breathe in. Breathe in. I suppose you have to breathe out. Breathe in, breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out. I might actually even, if I'm that clever, I'm not sure if I know how to do it, but add on the song to the end of this video so it just keeps playing through. Oh no, I won't. I'll just link it. I'll put it on the end screen. That I can do easily. Connect to our zero point because that's where the data is. Or the data— the data is in our hearts, in our heart connection, which is our soul connection to the universe, which is infinite source intelligence. It has all the data. It's not AI, it's II. Is it infinite intelligence? Yeah. AI. Not artificial intelligence, infinite intelligence. So connect into your AI, which is funny, especially because it's like the I am. I am because I am. I think that's like one of the philosophical questions that people have spent years and years Contemplating. I am because I am. I know I could have really messed that up. It's something to do with I am. Oh, just breathe and connect into that zero point. That's connection into your I I infinite intelligence because only it knows the GPS coordinates. It oh this is where the GPS is coming from now. Your Apple Maps has rerouted down in here. This is your GPS system now. If you try to do it from here, oh my God. And you'll be able to see, like, if you look back without judgment or criticism, look back on yourself. Where are you running and numbing and avoiding and distracting? And see, like, really, like, look into it. Why Do you need to do that? And I think it's because it's too—it's just too much. It's too much. It's too, too hard to hold it all. That's why we're getting to put it all down. Just breathe. Remember to breathe. The breath is so important. Literally. Breathing is the number one thing that you need in life. Remembering to breathe, and breathing is our connection to this infinite intelligence. Like, I have had the biggest breakthrough aha moments when I've been doing breathwork. Biggest out of all my life through breathwork. Like, Proper led processes, like a proper— they're called breathe sessions, where you go in and you breathe and you're told to do it in a certain rhythm and it breaks open. You have more epiphanies and like, aha, like, like connections to God, past lives. So many experiences I've had, all from breathing sessions. No, no plant medicine required. Just straight from straight breath. And I've visited many past lifetimes, many different galaxies, different, um, races, different, like, starseeds. I've visited lots of things. I've been through lots of experiences, all from breathwork. That is how important breathing is. And we will just dedicate that part of the session to Maureen, who— The beautiful Maureen. Who I cannot thank highly enough for teaching me most of what I know. Just breathe and remember to connect into this zero point. This is your connection. And I'm telling you this as much as I'm telling myself this. This is for me. This video is for me as much as, as much as it is for you. And if you're still watching this, You're, you're my family. You're my frequency family because, um, most people will be going, what is she talking about? Absolutely gone bonkers. So I love you and I get it. I get how difficult it is to navigate this new Earth and new human and clunky 3D, 5D. I think they throw some 4D in there. I'm not really sure what the difference between the 4D and the 5D is, but 3D, 5D, 3D, 5D, 3D, 5D. It's just like, it's like I know, like when I, when I'm sitting here in my presence right now talking with you and we've like talked it through as I love to do, and look at the lighting's going really funny on my face. Um, like we know who we are, we know we are divine source creation, we are, know we are miracles from the universe. We know we are all connected. We know we are all one. We— there is nothing separate. We are all one. We are all nothing and we all, all everything. Like, we are, we are the one and the zero. Ta-da! Like a binary code, ones and zeros, because that's all that anything is. Anyway, I'm gonna wrap this up because I've been blabbing too much. Love you, bye!