Putting on a brave face? Speak your demons into existence to reduce their power!!!!

Hello, welcome to Susie Unshaped. I'm Susie and we are unshaping everything that is stopping you from living your heart. So we are peeling off the layers preventing you from living from your heart. If you haven't done my 31-day challenge, it's free. I'll try and link it below, but otherwise just search, look up where the playlist, and start from day 1. And just like, we just go through the process of peeling off All the layers and the aha moments. And I love to reference it to movies and epiphanies and stuff. So anyway, it's fun and you'll learn a lot about yourself. That's what it's all about. Everything is an inward journey these days, like this New Earth, the new humans. It's all an inward journey. So now that I've scared everyone off with the words New Earth and new human, if you're not supposed to be here, you will have clicked off already. And if you are still here, hello. Um, today I really— it's actually interesting because I normally go to my daughter's school pickup early so I can record, and today my phone would not charge even though I had it in the charger. Like, it would not go past 1%. I tried to start recording and it just like shut itself down. So it reminded me of yesterday, um, when I did give you homework, and the homework was to spend 5 minutes Daydreaming and believing in the impossible. And so I actually took that as a sign. I was like, okay, my phone won't work. I've got 25 minutes here that I had set aside to do a video. And so I did that. I just closed my eyes and I just like dream the impossible and then see yourself in it and believe it. Like, we've gotta, um, we don't have to, but Like, how fun to allow ourselves to daydream, like to bring back the daydream. Like, how good is that for homework? That I want you to give yourself some space to just daydream. Like, what would your wildest dreams be? Like, what could— what would be the most amazing thing that you could do or be or see or like any of those things? So I took a leaf out of my book. and did my homework because I have been busy. I did do it yesterday though because I had time before picking her up. It's actually a really good idea, and I think it would probably come under the, um, like habit stacking guidelines, um, which is— I'm not sure if you've read Atomic Habits by, I think it's James Clear, but habit stacking is the idea of if you want to do something repeatedly Pop it in between or with something that you automatically know that you're going to do. E.g., you know you're going to go and set the coffee maker, so you press play, and then a habit stacking is then in between when it's ready— like when you press on and when it's ready— that's when you can put another thing that you want to accomplish in there. And whether you have whatever it is near the coffee machine to remind you that that's what you're doing, like while the coffee coffee is making, I'm gonna do this. And so when I go to pick up my daughter, I go 25 minutes early, which gives me the space. That's why you always see me in my car, the space to do my recordings, um, because I've like, I've got a block of time. So get to things early, get to something 10 minutes early and just sit in the car or sit at the bus stop or sit wherever and just give yourself 10 minutes to daydream. And there's my battery again. I don't know why it's blocking this message But I'm just gonna plug it in in case. Um, yeah, so get to things early. Like, if you want to buy yourself time, like, give yourself some space to do whatever it is. And actually, I'm going to bring up something, another thing in a second that, that is an exercise that you could do in this time you're out. Just get to places 15 minutes early. A, then you're not rushing. And you know what? Everything goes better when you're not rushing. Like, Traffic flows easier, you're calm, you're whatever. Like, it just— everything flows if you're not rushing. So aim to be there 15 minutes early, and then in that 15 minutes, you can devote that time to yourself, to video journal, write journal, um, daydream the impossible, daydream and believe the impossible. Like, allow yourself some space to Like, dream. I think that's pretty good homework. Anyway, okay, so now that the homework's out of the way and that we've done our dreaming for the day, um, I— one thing I want to talk about, which I had an aha moment, and I've had like— I've had a few of like— this has come up a little bit, and it's what are you not Verbalizing because you're afraid of it. And I don't mean you need to verbalize it to anyone. Like, this doesn't have to be— this is like verbalizing to yourself. Because lately I've just noticed there's a few monsters under the bed, and they come from— actually, this is how this started. This is how I pressed play. I pressed play a few days before New Year's Eve on 2025, because I had all this, like, these, like, fears lurking back here, and I was just squashing them down and squashing them down and squashing them down. And I was like, do you know what, I'm just gonna press play with no— I'd, like, there was— I had no intention of releasing. In actual fact, I haven't released that video. I was thinking of releasing clips of it, and maybe I will one day, but I haven't released the video, and it was 45 minutes long. And maybe you're a journaler, maybe writing works for you. For me, it's speaking. So I was like, okay, I am going to press play and I'm going to verbalize the good, the bad, and the ugly. And it was mostly the bad and the ugly. It was mostly the bad and the ugly that has sort of sitting back here. And I was nearly— I think would be safe to say— too scared to speak it out loud. Because then it made it true. Like, then it, then it was true. Whereas when it's lurking back here, it sort of semi-wasn't true. But in actual fact, when it's back here or squashed down, it actually has a much more negative effect on you than when you speak it out. And I only learned this through— I was like, I'm just pressing play, I'm going to speak my truth, all of it. Especially the ugly, yucky bits that you don't want to admit to yourself. But by not admitting them to ourselves, we're lying to ourselves that we don't feel that way. And we gotta feel the feels. And to feel the feels, we've got to admit we're in the feels instead of just squashing it down. And I just think this is so important because, well, what I found was once I spoke out the bad and the ugly, it actually— they— it lost its power by speaking it out. And I did this repeatedly, and I kept speaking it and kept speaking. I even had a thing called the X-Files, X-Files, which were videos that have never been released, and they were the real nitty-gritty, deep-down, dirty, dark secrets that I had in me that I was speaking aloud. And as I said, you might, might be able to write this. I'm a speaker. Like, you're probably— you're either a speaker or a writer. You, you probably— if you, if you aren't a writer and you know you hate journaling, you might be a speaker, because I hate journaling. But video journaling is a very different thing. So just press play and like really speak out the biggest fears and doubts that you have about yourself. Because once you bring them out, like the stuff that you're not allowing yourself— like, what are you being brave about? What are you putting on a strong face about? What are you not acknowledging? Because the, the parts that you're masking with a brave face, like, I— like, good on you. I'm sure we're all holding way more than we need to be. And like, I know everyone, like everyone in this life has gone through it. Like everyone has been through it. Like no matter, no matter what, like how you were raised, good or bad, like there's trauma associated with all of it because like we're humans and Our parents and siblings and friends all have their own traumas, so everyone imprints on everyone. So we all have trauma, no matter where you've been. Like, a seemingly perfect upbringing doesn't necessarily not have its traumas as well. So that's it. That's the, um, like, what are you putting on a brave face about? Like, We need to acknowledge the part of us that we're masking over, and the part of us— like, it's our core vulnerabilities. Like, it's our absolute— just breathe. Like, it is our core vulnerabilities. And I know I was masking over the top of it, band-aiding over with trust and everything's going to work out. And yeah, it is. Everything is going to work out. And I love the saying It will all work out in the end. Like, everything works out in the end, and if it hasn't worked out, it's not the end. And that's why, if you haven't done the course or the challenge, it's, it's all about coming back to our truth and who we truly are, which is an amazing miracle of the divine. Like, we are a creation of the universe. We are like divine source energy. We are Like a miracle. And through our human journey, we have forgotten that. And that's what, like, the veil of illusion— that's what the challenge is about. It's about, like, learning how to peek through, which is what I started in a very clunky way at the beginning, and then, and then dissolving it completely by the end and knowing our truth. And so if you haven't done the course, or if you don't know that you're a divine miracle and that you're perfect and absolute pure love, please go and do the course because it's going to make this easier to transmute these fears and vulnerabilities. It makes it so much easier to transmute it once you know, like, that core essence of who you are, which is a beautiful, amazing, like, divine creation. Like, you are a miracle. You are wonderful. You are fantastical. I don't know, that's not a word, is it? Fantastical. It's like a combination between magical and fantastic. You're fantastical. Maybe it is like fantasy. Maybe it is a real word. Who knows? That or I invented one. But like really grounding like your truth of who you are, which is like, like insanely amazing. And the those fears that you've been sort of band-aiding or like putting on a brave face and not acknowledging. The speaking aloud of them or writing them down— I don't know, I don't know the psychology if writing is the same as speaking. I don't— I am a speaker. Writing for me, I don't know. I think you've got to speak it into existence for this. I don't like— I, I don't even think it's like a journal. Like, I think it's got to be spoken into existence because once it is and you know your truth It loses its power. Like, when it's stuck in here or jammed down, down deep, deep, deep, and like covered over with whatever numbing and binging and running and voiding and like whatever thing you're doing, like, it is going to come out. It is going to explode at some point. So let's just get it out before that. Like, let's just Speak it into existence and look at it. And I know we do this in the challenge, but maybe, uh, an exercise is to either speak or maybe you can write it, because this is going to be quite— what I'm going to ask you to do is going to be like— we definitely do it in the challenge, but get a piece of— we're going to do a piece of paper and pen for this one because you might not be ready to speak it out. But write down all the ugly things that you think about yourself. Like the deep, dark, ugly things. Write all of them down. If you like the stuff that— the stuff that like you don't want to believe about yourself so that you shove it down. Like for example, like I love my children more than anything, so one of mine might be some— like something has happened that makes me feel like a bad mother. And like, I was like, I know being a mother was part of my path more than anything. Like, I— in actual fact, it was like my number one Earth goal, I think, was become a mother. Tick. Like, I was just— my, like, my radar and my, um, like, drive to become a mother was so strong, so strong from a really young age all the way through. Like, that's what I wanted to be. I wanted to be a mother. Like I just it was just my like it was one of my purposes like I was so driven to it. So for me to have that belief for something to make me feel like I'm a bad mother when I don't like speak it out acknowledge the feeling of of that that might be true and yes I think this is the part is like like all mothers are probably bad mothers at some point do you know what I mean but it doesn't make us It doesn't take away from our truth. And so, God, I'm muddling this now, aren't I? It's like the fear you have about yourself, speak it aloud. Because once you know your truth, who you are, the divine soul, amazing creation, you know that yes, I might have done some things that would be a bad mother, but as we know, there is no good or bad. What, I fed them dino nuggets because I wanted to hop into bed early and And I was exhausted. So they had dino nuggets and no vegetables. In fact, there wasn't even a live— an alive piece of food on the plate. Do you know what I mean? Stuff like that, which we can shame and guilt ourselves about. But when we know our truth, we know, yeah, okay, we did feed them dino nuggets that day because we were exhausted, but it doesn't change my truth of who I am. I can feed them dino nuggets And I'm still an amazing divine source creation. And I can feel that feed them the healthiest, most balanced meal in the world, and I'm still worthy and an amazing miracle of God or universe source, whatever you want to call it. It doesn't matter. So I hope that you've like—I know I've really dragged you through the mud on this one—but I hope you can understand that. When you know your truth, speaking out these deep dark secrets you're holding about yourself, your fears that you're not enough and you're not worthy, and, and speak them into existence. Because then when you know your truth, you know, yeah, okay, I might have done some stuff that— yes, I'm a bad mother. I'm also a good mother. I'm a horrible mother. I'm a great mother. Like, we are all— like, we are all aspects of a mother, and which is the part of our human journey why we came here, to be all aspects of a mother. I've been an amazing mother. I've been a shitty mother. It doesn't change who I am though, and that is our truth. So I think the point I'm trying to make is If you've been putting on a brave face, or yeah, if you've been putting on a brave face, I want you to just look at what you're hiding behind the brave face, and I want you to speak it out, write it out, all the reasons why you need to have a brave face. And this doesn't have to be shared with anyone, this is just for you, this is only for you, but write out All those things, this is just for you to get them out of you, to verbalize them, to acknowledge them, and acknowledge those parts of you that you're trying to be brave about. And then remember who you are, and remember we came to Earth to be all things, all aspects of the coin, all— like, any situation can be looked at From any perspective. It's just our upbringing, societal beliefs, like family beliefs, friendship beliefs, that skew us in a way of what is good and what is bad. Like, everything can be viewed from a higher perspective in any, in any way. There's equal good and bad for each situation. Breathe and breathe. Breathing's really important. Just breathe. Oh, just breathe. But I really wanted to bring that up. And as I said, you're still listening. I love you. You're amazing because I dragged you through the mud today to get where I was going. But just— it's just a remembrance to look at the wobbly parts of you And like, love them and accept them and don't hide— like, don't hide them from yourself. You don't need to front up to your friend's house and then say, oh, I'm this, this, and this. It's like, this is a— this is an internal acceptance. This is for us. Because when we accept all the parts of us, that's when we can feel whole and not like we're missing or that parts of us are bad, because not a single part of you is bad. Not one single part. Not the mum that feeds dino nuggets and no vegetables— that part isn't bad. Not the mum that feeds— like, the same as the mum that feeds a nutritious meal is good. Like, there is no bad and there is no good. Like, there is just pure love, pure truth, pure soul essence, divine creation. It's all there is. Actually, I'm just going to bring up one funny— one last funny thing. Um, I can't remember who this— oh, it was actually Anne Tucker who, um, channels, um, the Mother of Creation. Anyway, she was saying apparently back in the 1100s or something, if you had forks, you know, like you eat with forks, you had forks, you were like shunned from society like a crazy person that you would be eating with a fork and not your hands that God gave you. These hands, like That was a belief system that if you ate with a fork, that you were just like, yeah, mad. We have hands, why aren't you eating with your hands? Like, why would you use a fork? Or Ariel uses it as a— the dinglehopper as a comb. I love that movie, The Little Mermaid. The dinglehopper, she would thought it was a brush, but I wonder if they were allowed brushes. Maybe not, you had to use your fingers too. But that's what I mean, like Where we get these belief systems of good and bad, and like a fork being like crazy and, and like shunned from society for using a fork. Like, we can't trust these belief systems of society, do you know what I mean? Like, that's crazy. And we all use forks. It's not like we're not being kicked out of the club for using a fork. Anyway, I just sort of want to use that, um, example because it was so like, like Like, to highlight how silly society can be. And like, dino nuggets to a child in Africa would be a delicacy and like amazing. I got like protein and fats and carbohydrates all in one. Like, it's just perspective. Anyway, I'm gonna stop talking about dino nuggets, and I love you. I want you to love you. And see yourself through, like, the eyes of who you are, which is beautiful and divine and gorgeous and a miracle. And you haven't done anything wrong, and there's nothing wrong with you, and nothing you can do can detract from the fact of how amazing that you are. Like, nothing. You are amazing, and you are a miracle, and I want you to see yourself through that lens. Okay, love you. Goodbye.