Unlocking Memories to Heal Your Pain

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Welcome to the Soul of Innovation podcast. I am Thomas Anglero, and I apologize for my voice. I've been sick for a week, but during this time of sickness, I had a reflection that I think all you can relate to, and I hope all of us on our journey called life Do you remember when you were a kid and you were sick, home from school? And if you weren't super sick, you would maybe watch some TV and enjoy that day off from school. But as an adult, it's different, or should be different. And that's what I want to get to. How much time do you invest and shutting off the TV set and shutting off the distractions and putting down the mobile phone and just dealing with you. This past week when I've been sick, it was really easy to put on some Netflix or something like that and just let time fly and distract myself. But I realized I, I honestly I felt this calling, this calling to absolutely take off my socks, ground myself to the floor, sit in a chair, a comfortable chair, and do nothing. Let the fever control my mind, which is quite scary because with a fever you start to hallucinate and you start to see things But the beauty of being sick and having a fever, the beauty of doing nothing when you're sick, is that your mind goes to where your mind doesn't want to go. You will see things, you will recall memories of things that are very disturbing for you, things that happen to you. Now you may wonder, why the hell would I want to experience this? It is because when you are sick, the firewall, the layer of protection that your mind has, or has placed there to protect it, and most importantly to protect you, is gone. But wouldn't you want to know what are the things that are holding you back? What are the memories? What are the Instances, traumas that you have in you that you don't even know you have in you. What are the things that you did that you should never have done? What are the things that you didn't do but you should have done? What are the things that people have done to you that you wish they never have done? And on and on and on goes the equation. But irregardless, it has changed who you are and it holds you back. And when you are sick, and especially with a fever, You get to meet that person face to face. You get to relive that moment once again. You get to smell the smells. You get to hear the sounds. And let me tell you a story. I went through it. I sat on my chair and I said, "I don't know where this is going to go and this ain't going to be fun." And ladies and gentlemen, let me tell you, This is not fun. It's scary as hell. It is scary as hell to tell your mind, I am giving you complete freedom to go where you want and take me to places that are— places I don't want to go. And the older we get, the more places we have that we don't want to go, but yet we know we must go there. Why do we create these places that we go, I don't want to go there anymore? That is the words and the mindset of a child. An adult says, I own my life. You say you own your life. You own every moment. You own every interaction. You own every word. You go to where you need to go. So I sat in my chair took off my socks, rounded my feet, put on another sweater, sweating like a pig, fever was raging, almost had on just one little light so the room wasn't completely dark, and just let the mind go. I wasn't trying to sleep. I was just relaxing. And man, did this mind just start going. Visions, uh, at first I started seeing things from like, uh, seen on TV. I started seeing visions of things I've seen in videos. And that's like this top layer, but it's so thin it doesn't have any impact in you because you know the journey you're going on is your journey into your life, not into the stuff that you see day to day. And then I started getting into my life, and man, did it bring back— we went to places that I had not thought of or remembered. And it wasn't, it wasn't the place, wasn't the memory, or it was the memory, but the fact that that memory in that moment and the emotional— I can't say the word impact— emotional damage it had on me. Because I was back in that room, I was back reliving that moment. And then today, years later, where I realized that moment was horrible. That I actually survived through that moment. But today when I go back, and I have not gone back since then, and that's the mind protecting itself. Oh my God. Oh my God. And that's a gift. That's a gift to be able to go back protected now, years later, to go back to a memory that hurts so deep. But I didn't even know that memory was of such significance that my mind had buried it in my body, had buried it in my thought processes, but so deep that it took a raging fever, sweating all over, to go deep into my soul. And say, this is no longer going to hurt you because you're going to deal with it right here, right now. I relive that memory, and then I thought about it again and I relived it again, and I didn't let go of what I was experiencing. I wanted to relive it as much as possible because I needed to respect myself. I needed to respect that something that hurt me emotionally, spiritually, it hurt my soul, happened. And today everything's all right, everything's actually beautiful from that, things are so much better, everything's better from that one moment, and I felt better. What a gift! What a gift when we get sick and we have a fever, when we get through this crap of feeling sorry for yourself, it's actually your moment for you to take, actually heal yourself deep within inside you. This is not physical healing, this is spiritual healing. This is a gift for you when you are sick. So let me ask you a question. When you're sick, do you go to those deep, dark places? You allow those memories to come up and you live in those memories. Don't run from them. Don't run from who you are. Or what some of you may say, don't run from who you were. You're still that person. That's why it's buried inside of you. Call your own bullshit. You haven't changed. You may have changed, but you still did it.

Now live it again.

Why did you do what you do? Why did that hurt so much? Why was your heart torn apart? Why did you disrespect someone? I don't know your memory. I don't know what happened, but go there. Reliving a memory of maybe someone who passed away may be the hardest thing in the world to do, but to cure your heart, you have to go there and say, it's okay. Things are better now. That person's in a better place. I'm in a better place. It is a gift to be sick. It is a gift that your mind and your soul come together as one to take care of you. Go forth and spread beauty and light, and don't run from yourself. Embrace yourself. Take those moments that you have Don't feel sorry for yourself. Give yourself a hug. Spend time with yourself. And that's what I did. I spent time with myself from a few years ago. I went back into— I literally went back to my body in that moment. And I relived every single, every single thing that happened there. And I'm reliving it now, but it doesn't hurt me as much because when I reflect on it now, I realize everything is so much better. So that memory doesn't own me anymore. I'm just in awe of the fact that that memory is in my head. I didn't think that that incident was as big as it was, but what it was was that incident was just a moment. But the emotional, the emotional trauma, the things around that is what's so damn devastating. And I'm okay with it now. What are you— what is buried inside of you? What memory? What action? What regret? What incident? Don't let you hold you back. Let me say that again. Don't let you hold you back. Spend time with yourself. Shut off the mobile phone, shut off the TV, shut off the PC. Shut off the music. Yes, don't play music, that distracts you as well. Ground your feet. You can close your eyes if you want, but open your heart, open your soul to you. Spend time with you and let the thoughts, the emotions, and memories come. And embrace them because you're embracing yourself. There's nothing to be embarrassed about. When you are— you're older and you could look back on them, you could experience them again from a different perspective, and it's safe. And now you could do something about it, and now probably you can understand better. It's the beauty of life. It's the beauty of wisdom as we grow older. It's the beauty of maturity as we grow, or as you grow, wiser. I am Thomas Anglero. I believe in you. I know what I'm talking about sounds scary, but it's necessary. Go on that journey and spend time with yourself again. I love you. Until next time.

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