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There's a different flavor of codependency for modern women, and I knew it so well because it was my own flavor. It was what I had experienced in my life, which is you being overly invested in the feeling states, the outcomes, the circumstances, the finances, the situations, the careers of the people in your life to the detriment of your own internal peace. So what does that mean? It means as women, as empaths, as lovers, as friends, as dogs, daughters, as aunties, as all the things, of course, we are invested in our people being happy. We love them. We want them to get what they want in lives. You know, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about when you're an hfc, as we call it. It's more than that. We go from I want you to get what you want, Lori, to I feel responsible for you getting what you want, Lori. I feel responsible for how you feel. Hey, everyone.

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I didn't know what the fuck that was before we started talking, but I read her book, or I read part of her book before this because I had just gotten it because it's just coming out. And I was like, holy shit, this is me, you guys. And I think that you are going to completely resonate with this if you are like an overachiever who really just, like, is deeply emotional, deeply cares about people in your family like, but maybe not a very healthy point. And I was like, oh, damn, like, I am being called out. So if you don't think you're codependent because you don't rely on anyone for anything, you're always in control of every situation and you know how to make sure everyone around you feels good, you might also be a high functioning codependent. For women like us who are incredibly capable, accomplished, and can handle a lot, it can be easy to find ourselves putting everyone else first, which leads to burnout, which was me over the last, like, I don't know, 10 years. Terri shares red flags to recognize these patterns, to set healthier boundaries and stop sacrificing her peace for the sake of others. She also shares how changing our behaviors not only helps you reclaim your personal peace, but actually improves your relationships. So if you're ready to stop the cycle of your burnout, resentment, and even self sabotage in your career, which you may not even realize you're doing, this episode is going to be the one. Let me tell you, I feel like this is going to be one of the most shared episodes for all of you. It's crazy. So I want to dive right in. And you guys, the book is insane. I'm obsessed with it and you're going to want to grab it. So let's get started. Terri, welcome back to the earn your happy podcast.

Thanks, Laura. I'm happy to be back.

You guys. This is like our first. I was just asking Terri if this was like her first thing back after the new year that she's doing on her schedule because it's January 2nd right now and you're my. You're my fir. You're my re entry into 20, 20, 25. This is a dream. Can I start every year with you discussing life in boundaries, in family, in codependent relationships? Let's do it. This conversation is going to be so powerful for people because I think people are really ready for it. Like, I think we're all starting to become really aware of the topic and that there's ways to change and there's ways to, you know, show up differently. No matter what family you comes from or you comes from, I'm from the Midwest. No matter what family use comes from that we can really like, there are some major things that we can do. And I love your messages. Sometimes I just go over to your Instagram to read your quick little messages or see some of your reels because they're really powerful reminders of how we can take more ownership in our life. So I'm very excited about this next book, you guys. If you're not watching it on video, of course we have Terri Cole and it's Too Much. The book is called Too Much. It's a guide to breaking the cycle of high five functioning codependency. So this is a really fun one because we're going to dive in and we're going to talk all about this. If people don't know what this topic is, if they don't know exactly what this means. But I love it. I literally can't wait to finish the book. So let's dive into that. Let's start talking about. I think my first question for you just because I'm so curious about how this relates to your life. I know whenever we're teaching something, whenever we're writing something, Terri, it's because we teach what we need the most. So can you tell me how this topic was inspired and how it relates to your life?

I mean, I was a hardcore codependent and didn't know it because I'm also such a capable, accomplished and high functioning person. So I firmly agree that we teach what we most need to learn. And for me, I didn't understand that how I was feeling in my 20s, why I was feeling the way I was. I was feeling frustrated in my relationships, I was feeling put upon, I was feeling taken advantage of, I was feeling underappreciated. And I didn't realize there really was this idea and this thought that it was other people. I really did truly believe, well, if my boss were just different, if my boyfriend had been different, if my friend hadn't betrayed me or whatever the thing was. And of course a good therapist helped me see that I was the fucking common denominator in all of my experiences. Because I was also part of what happened is think about if you just naturally go codependency, do I identify as a codependent? My answer would have been hell no. And so what ended up happening is so I go through my own experience in my 20s, 30s, I've been in therapy since I was 19. I stopped drinking when I was in my early 20s. So this was very much like eyes wide open to the way that I was relating in my relationships. Once my therapist sort of called this out. So then I become a talent agent, do my whole, have that whole career. Then I become a psychotherapist and I'm attracting into my psychotherapy practice women who resonate with my energy in the world, right? So these are people who are literally building empires. They're. Whatever they are, whatever they're doing, they're really doing it. And I would say, oh, hey, what you're describing, that is definitely a codependent pattern. We should unpack it immediately. There would be a rejection of the notion of being codependent. They'd be like, I'm not dependent on squat, Terry. You know this. Everyone's dependent on me. I'm making all the money, I'm making all the moves, I'm managing all the people and all the things. I'm getting all the shit done. I'm doing all the emotional labor. How could I be codependent? Everyone's dependent on me. Which made me realize, Laura, that people didn't know what codependency was and that they were being sort of unduly influenced by. By Melody Beatty. Codependent no more. You gotta be, you know, enabling an alcoholic to be a codependent. Like there was almost this negative connotation, like a weakness or like, you know, a long suffering partner sitting at home crying while the person's, you know, spending the rent check on gambling. You know what I mean?

Right.

And that was none of my clients, and that was not my experience. So let's establish. I've realized now I can't. Obviously it was a problem for me as the therapist, because how could I help them if they didn't see themselves in the problem? And it really got me thinking about there's a different flavor of codependency for modern women. And I knew it so well because it was my own flavor, it was what I had experienced in my life. So let's establish what I say is high functioning codependency, which is you being overly invested in the feeling states, the outcomes, the circumstances, the finances, the situations, the careers of the people in your life to the detriment of your own internal peace. So what does that mean? It means as women, as empaths, as lovers, as friends, as daughters, as aunties, as all the things, of course, we are invested in our people being happy. We love them, we want them to get what they want in lives, you know, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about when you're an hfc, as we call it, it's more than that. We go from I want you to get what you want, Lori, to I feel responsible for you getting what you want, Lori. I feel responsible for how you feel. Right. If we were going to say, at its core, at the foundation of any kind of Codependency is an overt or a covert desire bid attempt to control other people's outcomes. I don't want you to be sad, so I'm going to give auto advice. I'm going to make a lot of suggestions about the situation you're in that's going to help you. Because I was in a similar situation. Right? What is that doing? I don't like the way you're feeling. I want to change the way you're feeling. So I'm going to give you some things that are going to help change the way that you're feeling. The thing that people don't understand is the control aspect. People are always like to me asking the question, I'm always confused, is it am I being caring or am I being codependent? And I'm like, the real question is, am I being caring or am I being controlling? Because that's really what codependency is. We do not want our friend to marry the stupid idiot. We do not want our partner to get fired from their job. And listen, any normal people wouldn't want those things. But when you're a high functioning codependent and when you're so capable, because part of the problem is that the people in my therapy practice and the women in particular that I wrote this book for and the people in my life because I gotta say, hfcs, we travel in packs.

Yeah.

We are highly functioning. Nobody is walking around and being like, I hope Lori is okay. They're like, she's fucking fine. You know why? Because she's always fine. Nobody's wondering if Terri's okay. You know why? Obviously I'm okay. Because we can function at this high level. So nobody's looking behind the curtain. Nobody knows how we feel inside. Nobody understands the level of exhaustion, burnout. This is what I've seen in my therapy practice. Frustration, feeling unappreciated, feeling taken advantage of, getting to the point of burnout. Where everything on your list, even the things you used to love to do, become checking a box. Because we're so productivity focused as well. So the high functioning aspect of it makes it lonely. There can be like an existential loneliness in being a high functioning codependent because. And I think maybe it'll be helpful. And you tell me, Laura, but I feel like it'll be helpful if we could say, what are the traits of being a high functioning codependent? So people listening or watching can go, okay, yes, I identify with that. That's me. And then we'll get into some fixes so the first thing I would say is feeling responsible for fixing other people's problems. Right? You gotta think about it. When your friend calls you and is in a crisis, how quickly is that crisis, literally yours? It's not just you being like, I feel bad, I really, I feel compassion for my friend. You're like, I'm googling things, I'm sending a book, I'm calling an oncologist. Like, I'm doing things to fix this problem. Another trait is just going above and beyond. A lot of times when we're not asked to, we like see and need and we just want to fill that need. So we're automatically doing it. I'm always ready to jump into damage control mode. So one thing that's amazing, and you guys trust me, you get into recovery because that's all we can hope for. When you're a high functioning codependent, we just want to get into recovery from this. But all of the qualities that make you so amazing, there'll just be more of them. And what we do when we're in recovery is that we are starting to do less of the dysfunctional behaviors that make us pissed, that make us bitter, that make us low key, like aggravated, just waiting for someone to cut us off in traffic or just waiting for some. Like, we're so efficient, we can't stop seeing the way the world is so inefficient. And it can be exhausting and frustrating. But what I'm saying is don't worry about getting into recovery because the reality is you don't, you don't become a different person. It's just like me being in recovery for alcohol. I just have a different behavior. Do I never want to drink? No, I would like to drink right now. I just don't. Right. I just choose not to. Right. It's five o' clock somewhere, was my motto back in the day. Another thing, another trait is kind of getting frustrated when people don't take our advice because we can be very generous when people have problems, we'll spend a lot of time talking to them, you know, and then they don't do it and we're kind of pissed. So another residual effect of these behaviors, if we do them consistently, is feeling resentful, feeling kind of bitter, feeling exhausted. So if we were to say what the behaviors themselves, like, what do they look like in real life on auto advice giving is one of the top ones where I wouldn't even, I didn't even save it for the people I knew. Like I'd auto advice Give a frigging stewardess like anyone. I could barely know you and be like, oh, I overheard that you're looking for a new car and I wanted to like just mind your business. I couldn't even let my friends drive the way that, you know, they'd be leaving when I was living in LA and I'd be like, don't take the 405. There's like, just mind your own business. They also have ways, but in those ways I couldn't, I couldn't stop thinking about what could go wrong. Not wanting my friend to have that bad experience. Being overly self sacrificing is another behavior where when you are a high functioning codependent in hfc, we're like always willing to take one for the team. It always seems like someone else needs something else. Imagine that you and your partner. Imagine back in the day when people would drive to work, he's leaving first and there's a flat tire. You'd immediately just yell out the door, take the other car, I'll Uber. Like constantly problem solving on the go. No problem, auto accommodating. So this, you see yourself out in the world. I mean, I tell a story in the book about I was at my hair salon in New York City and I was, they had like put a mask on my hair. So I was laying in the sink but not doing anything. So it was going to be in there for like 20 minutes or whatever. And all of a sudden there's a line started forming for the sinks and every, every person with their little robe that got online. I was more and more stressed out being like, you know, I'm laying here.

Like, I don't even need a sink. I feel this right now.

I should move. So I raised my hand to get the assistant to come over and I'm like, you know, I could sit somewhere else. And she's like, you're good, lady, whatever. We do this every Saturday to relax, you know. But what, why does that even matter? Because let's look at just in that one scenario, what is the cost? I'm laying there on a Saturday. I could have been meditating. I could have been listening to a podcast, learning something. I could have called my fucking mother. Like there's a million things that would have poured into my cup that I could have done, but I didn't do any of those. I was too busy worrying about some shit that was not my side of the street, trying to taking responsibility for something that was not my responsibility. And it's very bad for your nervous system to do that. Right. There's a hyper vigilance that goes along with being a high functioning codependent where we are so dialed into our environment, the people around us, what's happening around us. And then there's one step further of behavior where there's this thing called antici. I just called it anticipatory planning, right? Cause I was going, all right, what are the behaviors that people do where you know, you're gonna maybe be with someone who's a little bit difficult and you're like making a plan to make sure. Well, I know that Uncle Bob doesn't like Uncle Jimmy. Make sure they don't sit near each other. I'll get the booze that they both like to drink. Like I. It's like being a puppet master rather than expecting the grown adults in your life. And of course that's from, that's from a personal experience like Christmas after Christmas of dealing with these two fucking uncles who didn't like each other and didn't, you know, there could be like a fight could, you know, or an argument could break out. Instead of just being like, if you two idiots can't figure it out, then one of you can't come, so figure that out between you. Instead it's like I would think that I could control it by this anticipatory planning. And then you have the regular behaviors of over functioning, right. Which inspires, can inspire under functioning in other people. So I used to say, oh like I could take a perfectly functional boyfriend in my 20s and literally turn that guy into an under functioner in two weeks or less, just right. Do you know what I mean when I say that?

I do, yeah. Just being normal everyday things of theirs that should be.

I got it, I got it, I got it, right? When you think about what would be the mantra for a high functioning codependent is I got it. Is it has to be me because other traits is that we don't trust other people to do it or to do it right. We don't want to be a burden. We don't like to be vulnerable. Are you good at asking for help?

Am I good at asking for help? I have been working on this now for a solid two years. So I've gotten really good. But before this, never.

Yes, never. That's very HFC to just be like, I just don't want to burden another thing for me certainly personally is I didn't want to owe anybody. Which is so weird. But why like, like when you really think about it, you're like, why I'M so generous. Why, why would I do? I feel like people owe me and if I do, then I'm doing things for the wrong reasons. Right? We have to look at the motivation. So anyway, those are some of the behaviors, some of the traits that we have. But the costs are great. So do you want to tell me, tell me where you want to go from here.

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Yep. I think that one of the easiest and fastest ways to make that distinction that you're talking about, Laura, is to do a resentment inventory. Right? Really think about how you feel in the relationships in your life. Are you holding on to resentment? Because so much of the time, if we are, it means we're over giving or over functioning, or a boundary needs to be put in place, or we need to have a hard conversation, or we need to tell the truth, or we need to set a limit or we need to say no. But all of those things, if we're on autopilot, we're not really checking in with how do I feel about this actual thing? So two things that you guys listening can take right now. Now, before you say yes to anything, you're going to ask these two questions. One, do I have the bandwidth to do this without becoming resentful? That's question number one. Before you agree to anything in 2025 and beyond, question number two, do I even effing want to do it?

Oh, that's good.

Because as HFCs so much of the time, if someone else wants us to, it makes us feel like either we should or it makes us kind of want to because they want us to. And that's okay. But we really have to ask ourselves those two pertinent questions before we agree. Because the thing is, it is bad for our relationships if we stay in this state of resentment. Not good for our relationships because it's cumulative. Resentment is cumulative. And it becomes more and more obvious that you're resentful the longer you're not handling it or managing it or changing it, or the longer you are self abandoning in your mind, in service, quote, unquote, of your relationship. Because that shit doesn't serve anybody if you are self abandoning. And that's different, you know, Laura, than compromising, Right? And I think the distinctions are important because being in a partnership as you are, as I am for almost 30 years, it's like, obviously we're going to compromise or we're not going to be in long term relationships. Right? Obviously if you're a part of a society or you have friends or you have family. So I'm not talking about compromising, I'm talking about self abandonment is what we want to avoid. Which means if I say yes to this, am I saying no to something that I really need for myself? Am I saying no to filling up my own cup? Because we are the only ones who can do that. But a lot of times we will over give to other people and then sort of expect that in return and we may not get it. And I make the distinction in the book. You know how self care, everyone talks about self care and self love. And it's just, I just feel like it's so convoluted at this point, it's confusing. You're like, what does it even mean? I put it all under the umbrella of self consideration because that's what it actually is. I will consider myself first. And it doesn't mean I won't compromise. It doesn't mean I will not still sometimes do things I don't necessarily want to do, but I will if I'm choosing them mindfully, if I'm doing something that my husband wants to do, that maybe it's not my favorite thing to do, but he is actually my favorite. And if he wants to do it and it's going to make him happy, I, with a glad heart can do it. Even if it's shit I don't like, but I really like him. Do you know what I mean? So we're making a million percent, right? So we're making these mindful choices. That's different than making these decisions on autopilot. So part of this process that I walk you through in the book is raising your awareness about your own behaviors. How are you interacting in your relationships right now? How do you feel in your life? Because what I've seen over the. Literally almost, I mean, I've been a therapist for almost 28 years. Like, what is the cost of doing this? Because I've seen it in young women and I've seen it in women who've done it for decades, you know, and one thing that I see a lot is burnout. You're just exhausted. Exhausted, yes, Exhausted. And what happens is there's this cycle that I've seen. It's in the beginning, when you're in hfc, we have too many fucks to give to too many people, right? For a long time. For a long time. Because we're also like the Energizer bunnies where we're just like, it's okay, I got it, I could do it, I got it, I got it. You know? And then sooner or later, that cumulative impact of resentment, the pendulum will swing all the way to the other side, where you're just either. So what I've seen is either you just end up having a psychological and emotional crisis where you're like, I don't give a fuck about anybody. Like, I don't. None. There's none left to give. It's funny, I was. I was talking to a woman the other day. She was interviewing me for something, and she was saying how she read the book. Book, which inspired her. This was for Thanksgiving. She and her husband have family out east. She's such an hfc. She was so exhausted, by the time the kids, whatever, his family, they already had a hotel booked. She literally said, hey, I am not going east for Thanksgiving. And he's like, all right, babe, it's okay. I don't give me care if we lose the money. We'll just stay here. She's like, no, no, you're actually not invited to stay with me. I literally need to be on my couch ordering pizza every day for a fucking week by myself. Like, that's what I need. And he's like, okay. Not mad. I said, how was he really? She said, actually, he said, are you sure? Is this. What? Will. Will this be good for you? And she said, I'm positive. And he was like, amazing, babe. No problem. I got the kids. Let's go. So they left. That is someone now. She did it very productively. And she had a partner who didn't take it personally because she's like. Because it wasn't about him. It was about her. Now, that is the pendulum swinging, though, right? We're hoping I'm walking you through the book so that hopefully we can make changes enough so that if you didn't want to go out east for Thanksgiving, you would, in July, not make that plan. You would already know I don't want to do it. Or you would already, in July, tell your partner, hey, you and the kids can do that. I'd like to stay home or whatever the thing is. But that's the cycle. So wherever you are, if you're listening and you feel like either you're way over here, meaning giving too many Fs to too many people, or you're way over here and you're just so bitter at everyone because this is where we end up if there's no intervention, is we're just so mad about all the things that we've done that feel unreciprocated or that feel unappreciated. And here's herein lies the rub with that. Is that if I'm doing it to control things. I'm not doing it right. If I'm giving to control things right. I take a hit for the team. Don't worry about it. You guys go, I'll stay home with the sick kid. Or I'll stay, whatever. If I'm doing that to avoid conflict. Because this is one of the major things with being a high functioning codependent. We might be high functioning, but we're not necessarily high confident. We would like to not have that conflict. We are always hyper vigilantly thinking ahead to not have that conflict. But sooner or later you end up feeling mad. And even when people are appreciative because we're coming from a messed up place in doing it, nobody can ever be grateful enough because that has to be an inside job. We have to do what's right for ourselves. We can't like delegate that or we can't farm that out right. So anyway, what ends up happening for people is you're living what I call life light like L, I T E because you're so 50% of life. We're in our head thinking about other people, thinking about what people need and is it going to be okay. And like think about how much you know you personally, Lauren, about the people in your life. Who doesn't eat gluten, who had a terrible breakup, who hasn't watched Ted Lasso, who doesn't like, you know what I mean, who can't stand small talk, who doesn't like warm weather, who. Each one of us has a stadium of data in our mind about the people in our life. And yet most of us, if you're an hfc, don't have the same expectations that others will know all of those things about us because we barely even prioritize those things. You know what I mean? So anyway, we're not fully present and it just doesn't. Life is just about half as juicy as it should be because it's exhausting. Burnout, health problems, bitterness, and just not fully self expressed. So you're not known in your relationships because you're too busy with your attention outward.

I would say as you're talking, one of the things that I really felt in the past, which I can tell you, I feel, I don't feel recovered, I feel fully aware. So now I feel very. I'll just say where I am now. I'm very happy in my life. I'm extremely happy in my relationships. I still can default to this for sure. But the thing that I noticed before I really understood this concept and started working on it was. I thought that I was somebody who just didn't like people, and I thought there was something wrong with me. I was like, I don't know. I don't really get a lot of joy from people. Like, I had my husband, and he was my best friend, and I'm sure we had our own little weird codependent system going on. We did, for sure, but. But I think both of us really were like, do people just suck? And so I kind of want to talk about how I can go from thinking that everyone sucks and not really having good girlfriends to truly being like, I'm such a girls girl. I go on girls trips now all the time. I do girls masterminds. Like, I'm so fulfilled. All I want to do now is be around friends. And it's truly because I have stopped trying to control people, fix them, worrying about them like, they cannot like me. Don't get me wrong. I still feel all the emotions. But everything that you just said, this is such a process, but that's totally changed. Have you found that with people that they can like. Like, everyone changes in their life all of a sudden?

Oh, yeah. Because the thing is, as Wayne Dyer said many decades ago, when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. So what happens is people didn't change. You changed, right? In my life, people didn't change. I changed. And then my relationships changed, and then how I felt changed. So I think part of it is understanding what is on my side of the street and what is not on my side of the street. What am I responsible for? What am I not responsible for? So. So let's look at some solutions, like how people can move away from being HFCs to being more interdependent in their relationships, because that's really what we're looking for. Part of it is instead of the auto advice giving piece, I mean, listen, you're already raising your awareness by listening to this podcast. Go get the book. You're raising your awareness that there's some behaviors you would like to change. That's step number one. But being really aware, if you only changed one thing and this was it, it would change your life. Instead of auto advice giving, you learn to ask expansive questions. So your friend comes to you, she's in a crisis. Before you say a word of what you think maybe she should do, you say, all right, babe, let's start with. With what do you think you should do? And then just shut up. If she says, I don't know, say, okay, if you did know. What do you think? What does your gut say? Let's talk about it. How does it feel that you're experiencing this? Like. And I say to people, because here's the thing, what you think is way more important than what I think, because it's your life. But I'm here. You want to brainstorm, I'm here. And. And listen, if you've set yourself up, and I have, of course, I've been a therapist for so long, obviously I've set myself up as someone that people ask, ask my opinion on things, but it's never the first stop on the bus now for me. And even with children, right? A kid goes to school, they're seven years old, they have a problem at school, they come back. I had a fight with Billy today. Instead of being like, we don't fight in this family, you go, tell me what happened, happen. Let them tell you. Then you say, okay, what do you think you should do now? And stop talking, because what ends up happening? Laura and I think we talked about this the last time I was on here, I think. Did we talk about what happened with my sister the last time we were here? It's one of the main stories.

Refresh us.

I won't. I could do it quick. But it's one of the main stories in the book, because it's literally where this concept of high functioning codependency actually came from, was my experience with one of my sisters. So I'm the youngest of four sisters, and one of my older sisters had a history of bad relationships. She was. She was an alcoholic. She was involved with a guy who was doing drugs. They were literally living in a shack in the woods with no running water and no electricity. And he was abusive. So that's just an HFC's nightmare, right?

Yes.

Right.

That's your worry every day, of course.

And wanting to. I mean, I couldn't do anything. I mean, I had so much going on in my life, but the only thing I could think about was like, got to get her out of there. Just got to do it. So with my therapist. I remember going to my therapist. I'd been talking about it for weeks. I was bawling my eyes out, crying, what am I? And I remember saying, bev, what am I gonna do? What am I gonna do? And she said, terri, let me ask you something. What makes you think, you know, what lessons your sister needs to learn in this life and how she needs to learn them?

Hmm, that's so good.

And I was like, ah, listen, I think we could Both agree it doesn't have to be with this piece of shit in the woods with no running water, you know? And she was like, I would love to, but I can't agree because I'm not God and neither are you. So do you know what's happening for you? I was like, obviously not, so fill me in. And she said, listen, you've worked so hard to create this harmonious life for yourself through lots of therapy. Your sister's dumpster fire of a life is like, fucking with your peace, basically, and you just would like to fix it so your pain will end. I was like, she is not wrong. That's a fact. I want it to be fixed so I can go back to my happy frigging life. I just got married. Like, I was a bonus mom for the first time for three teenage kids. Like, I had. I was busy. I had shit going on. But the realization and what she helped me do, she was like, you need to have boundaries. You don't need to talk to her about this abusive guy every day. Like, you know, have boundaries. So anyway, I had a hard conversation with myself, sister. Basically saying, hey, I love you and I cannot talk about this. If and when you ever want to get out, though, I'll always be your person. Call me. So within nine months, we probably only talked like two or three times in that period of time, but then she finally called and said, hey, I'm ready. Are you still my person? I was like, yes, I am. Jumped in my car, went and picked her up. And the most important aspect of this story is that instead of her baby sister being the hero of her story, she gets to be the hero of her own story. She got sober, she went back to school. She's never been. That was decades ago. She's never been in another abusive relationship. Like, long term sobriety. All of those things are hers, not mine. And when you're in hfc, what you don't realize you're doing is you're inserting yourself. You're centering yourself as the solution to other people's problems. And that was so painful for me to really realize because honestly, it's not that I thought I was Mother Teresa, it's just that I really thought that I was doing it all from love, right? And what I really got was a lot of it was control. I wanted her to get her shit together so I could get on with my happy life. Please. You are really interrupting my happy life. You know, that's the part right there.

That, like, I'm, you know, I'm thinking about an instance in my life right now where it's, it's like there's, I think for a lot of people, if they have this and have experienced what you just said, there's a lot of anger there. Like, you are up my life. Like, it's like I'm very angry with this particular person because this very selfish action, it's hard for me to pull away from it because it does really affect our family and our life. So how do you deal with that resentment? But also it's kind of like I want to be there for them and make sure they have the therapy or whatever they need, but also stay out.

Of it, you know, but boundaries, right? So if we're looking at what are the fixes, what do we have to do to get into recovery from hfc? Raise your awareness. Second thing is boundaries. And so they need to make sure they're in therapy, not you. I mean, unless they're a minor, which it doesn't sound like they are. So already that's not your side of the street, right? They need to. Because here's the thing, what my therapist also explained to me with that thing with my sister, she's like, terri, every intervention that you do, every bit of money that you're throwing at that, every book you send, you're probably getting in the way of your sister reaching the bottom that she needs to reach to make a change. Like, you're literally prolonging this hell, right, like by inserting yourself and being like, I can help make it better, but it doesn't. It just keeps it going. So that was a real awakening. And I think that we have to also take responsibility for what we're doing if that person is choosing whether it's like, I felt like with my sister, listen, she's an addict, so am I. I'm in recovery, right? Like, so I knew, I didn't feel like she was choosing it like, willy nilly, but I also knew that she was the only one who could change it. You can't get into recovery for people. You cannot have. You can't do the work, right? So you can't go to the gym for someone so they don't have diabetes. Like, right? We, we can't do that. And I think that really moving into surrendering to what is can be very difficult for a high functioning codependent. And yet it is absolutely key to maintaining our own peace and realizing you don't know what everyone should be doing. Remember what Bev said, What makes you think, you know, what lessons that person needs to learn and how they need to learn them in this lifetime. Nobody could have told me. I learned everything the hard way on my own because that's the only way I could have done it. Right. Someone could have been like, you should do whatever it is I needed to do it my own way. And I would resent someone being like, I know what you should do. Really? You do not know what I should do and what makes you think right? It's like presumptuous of me to think that I knew. And not just with my sister, but with every freaking person in my life. I thought I knew what everyone should be doing. Just spending life, yum, yucking. I talk about in the book where we're just like approving and disapproving endlessly all day long about everything from whether that skirt goes with those boots or whether I think their long term relationship is going to work. Like, like, oh my God, stop judging. It's so exhausting.

It's tough for the high functioners because we have the resources and we can typically know how to come up with money if money's an issue. If you know, oh, you don't have access to this person, let me try to get access to this person. When does that start to like? It's kind of like, at what point do you offer that help? But then the, the guilt that can come when you're somebody who has more than others because you're so capable. Can we talk about how you deal with the guilt associated and the selfish feeling of, well, I know how to do this and they don't.

Yep. But again, what makes that's not your side of the street true. Even even though they don't. Right. It's like, how will they learn? And just like with kids, when parents are like, I don't know why they don't know anything. You're like, because you never let them learn anything. That's why. Because you were so afraid for them to have one negative thought, one negative feeling that you are jumping in and going to the principal or talking to the teacher or talking to that kid's parents. Like never teaching kids how to actually work shit out on their own is not helpful. And that's the parent's fear and that's what the parent is doing. I feel like feeling guilty. Like you need to look at your own relationship to your abundance. Right. One of my friends is an energy expert type person. Her name is Lara Riggio and she always does this thing, she does muscle testing in groups and she has you say, it's okay for me to have more money than my friends, my family, and the poor. And most people go weak when you're muscle testing that. And the thing is, it actually is a okay for you to have more money than your friends, your family, and the poor. You can choose to set up a trust fund. You can choose to do a nonprofit. You can choose, like, there's lots of things I can choose to help my sister's kids go to college. Like, there's many ways, many things we can do with our money if you have it. But I think that just the guilt that can be associated and the feeling like, I don't want that person to suffer, but I want you to look at that person's suffering as their growth path, right? And when you start switching your combo, Laurie, maybe you already have, but when you start switching to what do you think you should do? You're going to have a lot less guilt because you're going to be in much more rich conversations with people because you are now going to give them the most expensive coin you can ever spend, which is your time and attention, rather than trying to check a box. And like I was trying to do with my sister, like, ugh, I just need to get this thing fixed. You know, being able to say, what do you think you should do? And listen expansive conversations. Give someone the floor and actually give them the floor. And is there more? Is there something else you want to say about that? Then what do you think would happen? Like, we can become really great conversationalists when we move from thinking, even if it's unconscious, that we're responsible for what happens, because what we're doing is projecting what we would want in life onto that person, thinking we know what they need and we really don't. We really don't. So how do you deal with the guilt? Was your question. And I think that I would ask you to not run away from it. I would ask you to journal about it and say, why we all make choices in this life. You got gifts and you got deficiencies. I got gifts and I got deficiencies. Right? It's like, whoever you're talking about, they got gifts and they got deficiencies, and it's like their path to get on or to be on. And again, I'm not saying, like, like, my husband and I helped my sister after, right? We had this little shabby little lake house thing, like, in upstate New York. It's like a camp, they call it, you know, not nothing, not. Not fancy. But we winterized it quick and just let her live. There free for two years and paid all the bills just so she could, you know, get on her feet, get a job, make some money, that's appropriate. I knew I could do that without being resentful. Example, because I knew if she was safe, it wouldn't be obsessing my mind. Right. I knew that. Just give her space to do what she needed to do. And I asked her, how can I best support you? Right? Just ask your people what you can do, if anything. Because part of it is, again, we take over a lot of times being an hfc, we're just people who are in charge. We're just in control of things in life and we're sort of like, just get it done. Because that's the way we function. And yet when we're getting it done for someone else, we're on the wrong side of the street and we need to back up. So anytime you think, here's another clue that could be helpful, anytime in your mind, you say, well, I don't want them to think whatever it is, or I don't want them to feel whatever it is, then I want you to back your hiney up onto your own side of the street. Because what they think and feel is their side of the street. What you think and feel is yours. So you have to surrender to what is and realize that. You know, Cheryl Richardson wrote a book called Let me disappoint you. And we really need to learn that sometimes in healthy relationships, we're going to disappoint people. Because if not, we will be self abandoning. And any relationship that is built on your regular self abandonment is not a healthy relationship. You will only end up resentful. You will only end up somehow having a rupture in that relationship. Because we can only do that for so long.

Do you think it's ever appropriate to have this conversation with some people like. Like, I'm gonna show up differently because here's what I've been attaching into, here's what I've been spiraling out with you. What is that that useful? Or is it better to just kind of start minding your own business?

You know, it's funny, I think it depends on the situation, but as HFCs, we really want to kind of grab the bullhorn and make an announcement. Because we would like to manage all the expectations immediately.

Yes, I would.

We just want everyone to know the follow.

I'm managing the follow.

Exactly. So my feeling is, I don't think it's that helpful. Because the thing is, when you change your behavior when you just, even if you just start with, and I'm curious to know, you have to text me, you have to let me know, because I know you've already been on this path, but really, consciously not auto advice giving, really consciously asking people what they think they should do and being supportive of them in that way. I'd be curious to see how your relationships change, because here's the thing, people won't even, you know, they might in the beginning, resist, right? Because we're changing the dance. As Harriet Lerner talks about, like, relationships are a dance. And so you're doing a different move and they're going to kind of be like, hello, normally I come to you and then you tell me what to do. Why are you not doing that? So, you know, you have to sort of stand your ground in not doing the old dance. And if they say, well, why won't you tell me what you think? And you could say, you know, because, well, I realized that the truth is that what you think about what you should do is just infinitely more important than what I think. Because it's not about getting it right. It's about getting it right for you. And only you can do that. So I feel like it's okay to talk about it. If someone pushes back and goes, I don't get this. And even if they say, I don't know, no, I love saying to people, how can I best support you right now? You want to watch a movie? You want to talk, you want to not, you want to shop. Do you want to go have a cup of tea? Like, this creates this expansion for people to let us know what makes them feel loved or what makes them feel supported. And I think that there's also something that, it's funny, I had no idea that Mel was writing a whole book on the let them thing. Thing, Right? I didn't, I actually didn't know it, but she had talked about it like, I don't know, three years ago maybe. And I included it in this book, just saying, you know, just her quote about let them. Because I had my own sort of version of it, different but similar. But I, I, I just credit her, her to it. And what that, how, how I look at it from an HFC standpoint is that when someone is doing something that I kind of want to be like, oh, there's a better way to do that, or there's a different way I think you should do that, I say in my mind, let them fucking. And for me, I used to always say, let them live. Right? Just Let them live. If it's a mistake, it's their mistake to make. And I always point to this thing. My mother, it's funny that I came all full circle around to writing this book with these concepts is my mother had this quote on her refrigerator always from Irma BOMBECK, probably from gotten to 1972 that said, I promise not to take credit for your accomplishments if you promise not to blame me for your failures.

That's really good.

Right? Which is basically the parents version of not being a high functioning codependent. Wow. And that planted seeds so long ago. I mean I remember seeing it in high school, I think where I was like, what does that mean? I remember asking her and her saying things exactly that. Tara, your life is your life and I'm here to support you, but your decisions are your own. And I was like, wow, how you doing? I'm 19. Are you sure?

You're like, do they have to be.

I know.

I just want to give them to you.

Please.

Oh my gosh. What do you think in. In conclusion of all of this? Because we could talk about, there's so many layers we could talk about about family relationships, siblings. I mean on and on and on.

Which I do cover in the book.

All those things, everything which I love you guys. This book is so in depth of. I, I have found every single scenario in my life. You've gave, you've given it an answer in this book. So I promise you there's not a problem that you're having that is not seen and discussed and given a tool in this book. So. And I love it.

It's.

It's so great. It's very, even though it's complex, it's very simple to understand.

Yes, it is.

And your different situations and scenarios that you describe as well. But let's give people some just ideas of what comes out of doing a little bit of this work.

Oh, so much more. Expansion, joy, abundance. But such a deepening, the real thing is a deepening in relationships where the.

People a million percent.

Right? Because now you're really starting to not just know the people in your life differently, you are allowing them to know you differently. When you're not over functioning so much, when you actually make the simple request about what you need, when you actually allow, allow people to help you either even ask for help. It's like you're seen and loved and celebrated in this different way. And the people in your life, what you're going to find too is that you will have so many people in your life who are like, this is so amazing to, like, know you in this way, in a real way. And then you're going to have some people that when you change the dance, they're not that into the new year. You.

Yep.

And that's okay. We can. We can sort of step back. This is where boundaries come in, where it doesn't mean we should cut off from all those people. No, it just means we need to have that VIP section, like, and make decisions about who gets to be really close to your most tender heart. And it's gotta be people who are emotionally trustworthy, you know, because not everyone deserves to be in that VIP section. No.

And, you know, if people are like, oh, God, I hate that confrontation of, like, people leaving or what that looks like, I will say that what happens on the flip side with your. The positive relationships, it's like the contrast is so extreme of how beautiful it is that it actually hurts less because you. Once you realize how good it can get those other ones, you just don't really want them in your life. And those people are. Yes, they're now so, so much more supportive and loving that you almost don't. You almost start to not really care because you have these other people in your corner and you're not gonna lose them because they see you, they know you, they. It's people that won't leave. And Terri, I feel like for the first time in the last, you know, I told my husband, my 30s were just like, kind of just all this, your whole book figuring that out. And I feel like 40 was the first time I really started to, like, show up to my life. Like, I understood what life was about in relationships. And it's from. It's from this, like, what your book is teaching.

So it's so beautiful. And there is so much for you on the other side of getting into recovery from this. And the last thing I want to say about it, two things is that you deserve it. What an incredible gift, an honor and a privilege that we get to be alive on this earth earth at this moment in time, even with all the strife that's going on. Like, it's. It's a gift that you're here and to be fully present. You cannot be living with codependent relationships in this way. And you deserve to have all the adventure and all the expansion and all the joy, and you deserve to be known. And the thing is, if you don't get into recovery, then you're never going to contribute. Because one last thing I will say that I've seen over and over again in 30 years as a therapist is that this behavior creates a glass ceiling of our own making when it comes to business success, entrepreneurial success, relationship success. Because you can't do both. We can't serve the people pleasing vibe and also be who we actually are because we're not that. That's about manipulation and control and making sure appeasing people. So this is different. Right? And you can't do both. So it's really like the quality of your life depends on it. And I wanted to give you guys a gift to make it easy. Besides the book, that is my gift to you too. But I created just a little HFC toolkit because I know it can be overwhelming when you start this process and you're like, well, where do I even start? You just, you can go to terricole.comhfc see to get it and there'll be a link to purchase the book there as well.

Amazing. And you guys, we're going to link that up in the show notes too. So you can just go down there, which I love, because those are, those are quick things. The gift is a quick thing that you can go and do and learn from right away. Which always feels good to our. Our little dopamine receptors.

Indeed.

Exactly. We get to learn fast. But truly, like such a gift, so much work has gone into this book. Like, yes, so much work. I'm so grateful that you wrote it. Let me see if I can get my husband to read it. If not, I'm just going to, you know, kind of read him things in the morning through it.

That's right, you'll start. All you got to do and you're doing it is you start changing your dance. And trust me, your hubs is the first one to notice the change. And so much of the time just my husband just kind of rolls with it. He's like, okay, I guess we're doing this now. I mean, he's pretty therapized, but it's helped. Helpful. That's.

That's probably me again wanting to help everyone, but there we go. Okay, so I'll do it with your book. We'll do that one good deed and then we'll let it go. We'll let it go.

That's right. Okay.

I'm so grateful for you. Thank you so much for coming on, you guys. Like I said, everything is linked up in show notes. And one of the most fun gifts we can give to Terri is to screenshot this podcast and let her know what your biggest takeaway was. It's always fun to to just know like what impacted them, what hit on this podcast and give her a tag.

Terri, what's your Instagram Just at terricole T E R R I.

Perfect. And we'll link that up too. And thank you so much again for coming on the show. We're so grateful for you. And you guys definitely go and grab this book. It is life changing. There is not a person who has not experienced something like this in this book that will totally affect your year and give you more space and more energy. So you guys, until next time, earn your happy.

Bye everyone.