Who am I without my company?

25 Jun 2025 · 1 min

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In this candid monologue, the speaker recounts a period of intense professional overload, having been responsible for five different teams within a business while feeling fundamentally misaligned with that role. Recognizing the unsustainable situation, they began seeking external help, working with both a teacher and a therapist as their life started to unravel. The speaker reflects on the inadequacy of traditional measures of success—financial achievement and alignment with a grand mission—to provide lasting fulfillment. They explore the concept of "enoughness," questioning the need to prove worth through external validation. Central to the reflection is the existential query, "Who am I without my company?" The speaker concludes that pursuing a perfect relationship with any external entity, including a company, is the wrong game, urging a shift toward internal self-definition.

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Holy shit, what do I do? It was so clear that I was like, this is not the game that I want to be playing, but I don't know what game I do want to be playing. I was running several, 5 different teams in the business, and I was not in a place to be running teams in the business. So I started calling in supports. I was working with a teacher, I was working with a therapist. Things in my life started really unraveling or falling apart. What does it mean to do this type of work from a place of enoughness? Financial success isn't going to do it. And attaching myself to some amazing mission also isn't gonna do it. It was really about the need to have to prove myself as worthy or to be this thing. You know, it largely had gone away. And what was left was just the sense of, who am I without my company? How did you answer that question? Um, if the game is to be the, have a perfect relationship with something, you're playing the wrong game.