A personal monologue by Nick Stumbo reflecting on his struggle with addiction and the early stages of recovery. He describes feeling hopeless, fearing discovery by his wife, and experiencing healing through small victories in group recovery—celebrating milestones like remaining abstinent for a week and discovering new freedom.
I was hopeless. Reality was, I think, best case scenario in my addicted mindset, best case scenario would be, my wife will never find out. I'll die with this sin. And sadly, that was the reality of the best case scenario. And so as I came in group and started to receive healing, I think that was some of the most incredible moments for me in this journey of just having that experience of fighting just small, small wins through overtime, where maybe without acting out for a week was the longest I'd ever gone. And then having that freedom of experiencing a week and being like, wow, I did something I thought was never possible before. Yeah.
