Thyroid Disease, Federal Prison & Illuminati Secrets I Sean Clayton DSH #446

Crutch instead of your strength. And so when you realize that all of those were gifts that you gave yourself in order to be your best version of now, all of that changes. But then in order to resolve each one of those, it takes time. Because we have the solution to time. Right. That sits in front of us. But if I then say, well, let me just eliminate the time, go back before time ever existed, and then apply energy on that and love on that, all of a sudden, it fast forwards into your present moment and you become whole.

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My man. Dude, amazing being here.

Thanks for having me. What a journey. We're just talking a little bit about it.

Hell of a journey. It never ends. Yeah.

And it sounds like you're on a really good path right now.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Things are beautiful in my life right now.

Yeah. What you've been focusing on lately.

So it's a rabbit hole, keeps going deeper. But my general business, I have this marketing agency. Throw that to the side for a little bit because nobody wants to hear about that. But I've been going down this path of what I call Masonic consciousness and how to understand, how to break all of the constructs that we call the Matrix. And there are all these trauma patterns that we walk through. There are all of these different ways that you can kind of get there. There's dispensing meditations. There's know the law of one type of stuff that lives out there. There are people that do Kundalini awakenings, and they all lead to the same thing. And so for me, kind of going through the process of unpacking that to where it's constantly had me go through the process of surrendering. It's been a really deep rabbit hole. But I. Not to say I've figured anything out, but I have to me figured out what our purpose of human existence is.

Wow.

And then how to actually sit in that existence with an aspect of, you know, what I call these practices that we've been given and all the practices we've been given through religion. We've been given those practices through the Kabbalah. We've been given those practices through aspects of meditation. But there's all one central point that we go To. And then when we can go through the process of breaking the trauma that originally existed, then we no longer have to go backward in order to figure out today.

Fascinating. So you say they all lead to the same thing. What do you mean by that?

So it's funny. So I'm going to start with the trauma thing first and foremost and then I'm gonna kind of unpack where we go from there. So when you think about trauma, like one of the things that I went through a couple years ago is this Hoffman process. And I don't know if you've ever heard Hoffman. Hoffman process.

Oh Wim.

Yeah, not Wim. So not Wim Hof, but Hoffman. Okay, so it's a deal out of. They have one in California, they actually have em all over the globe. But there's one out of California and one out of Connecticut here in the US and what it does is it has you break down all of your negative self love patterns and then you realize where you get all your from. We all get it from our parents. I think I developed one on my own. But the rest of them were like, you know, my dad did this, my mom did that and I carry that. Well, then their parents did and then their parents did that. And then as a black man, of course I've got generational trauma associated with slavery and then I've have all this other stuff. So you keep going back and solving it. Then you meet these past life regression people that are like, oh, now you gotta solve this. You were connected to when you were Buddha. And I'm like whatever that is, right. And so you keep going backward and backward and backward and all we're doing is seeking to understand the past. And then through that we never gain the wisdom of today, which is interesting. And you can play whack a mole with your trauma forever, but it never gets you into the present moment. So what I ended up realizing is that where did the original trauma come from? And this like when I realized that it blew my mind. Some people might be like, yeah, whatever. But it, when you go back to the original source and what was source? Source is God, all whatever you want to call it.

Okay.

No name, there's no name to it. But it's that energy that created the universe. And when the energy created the universe, it had to ask itself a question of what it was. And in asking itself of the question of what it was, not being certain, that hesitation created all of the infinite trauma that created life. Right. Wow. So now if you want to solve that trauma because it created all the infinite trauma that created life and all the beautiful experiences at the same point, but it created the polarity of everything that ever existed then. At which point you say, okay, well, if there is all of that polarity that existed that came from all the energy that could have created the universe that created everything in life, then what I need to do, I need to go back and forgive that moment in time for the creation of itself.

Wow.

Right. So when that thing broke into bits. Right. And then we are just a bit of that brokenness that's out there, which is perfect in essence, because it was perfect in the inception of itself, then. At which point I have to say, okay, I have to go back and forgive God. I have to go back and give God a hug. I have to go back and love God differently. And so anytime that I have something crazy come up in my life right now, I just go back and forgive God. I go back and give God a hug. And everything after that moment in time eliminates itself.

Interesting.

I no longer have trauma. I no longer have problems. Like, even if my fiance gets upset with me and she's, like, mad about it, I'm like, oh, let me go give God a hug. Literally, in about five minutes, it's gone.

And this is coming from someone who's had major trauma.

Major trauma. Major trauma.

You've been through.

Yeah. I mean, sexual abuse, been incarcerated. Tried to take my life four times.

Wow.

Thyroid conditions, you know, married three times, divorced, like, all. I mean, I really tried to go through this in order to figure out how to love myself.

Yeah.

And so through that experience, I used to hold on to every one of those as a validator of Sean. And then when I held onto those as a validator of Sean and, like, why I was up in life, and it just gave me more reason to not grow. It gave me more reason to then have people have empathy for me or sadness for me. And then to be like, oh, well, I was raped when I was nine years old, so you should feel sorry for me. Oh, well, I went to prison, so you should feel sorry for me. And then you use that as a crutch instead of your strength. And so when you realize that all of those were gifts that you gave yourself in order to be your best version of now all of that changes. But then in order to resolve each one of those, it takes time, because we have this illusion of time. Right. That sits in front of us. But if I then say, well, let me just eliminate the time, go back before time ever existed, and then apply energy on that and love on that. All of a sudden, it fast forwards into your present moment and you become whole.

Fascinating. So what's the process for doing that for people watching this? Trying to get rid of some trauma?

Yeah. So the pro. Well, one. There's knowing that that exists now, that's one thing. And when I talk to people about it, they're like, yeah, that's great, Sean. But I don't know how to actually get to where I'm at. So I started going deep into the Kabbalah, right? When I studied it, it. What it unpacks is that there's three different ways that life shows up. The first way life shows up is in space. The second is time. The third is spirit. Right. I can't think of any other way around it. So you have those three aspects of the way time shows up, even in the hermetics, you know, you have the actual first three laws of the universe, which are the same thing. Right? And so if you understand those and how those things come to some aspect of existence, then at which point you say, okay, well, where does the evidence of space come from? Well, it's in the words that we use, right? And all this is mapped into the. You know, into the Zohar and all this whatnot. So if you read it and you actually understand where that comes from, and you're like, oh, okay, this is actually where all things created humanity, right? And then you say, okay, well, time exists. Well, time actually shows up in numbers. So I have to start understanding. There's an aspect of numerology and a cadence to a practice that I do and a repetition that I need to get into in order to become whole. There's a magical number, 33. Christ. 33. 33 vertebrae to get to your actual, you know, to pop your pineal gland. All these other things that you go through in order to get to your ascension, Jacob's Ladder, all of that goes through the process of 33. In order to get to the 33rd point, which is the point of wisdom, you have to go through 32 steps. When the Kabbalah actually has the 32 steps that you go through in order to get through all the Spherot and all of the spherot. There's 10 spherot and 22 paths and 22 Hebrew letters. That's the 32 that gets you to. When you encompass that whole thing, you have the wisdom of God.

Wow.

Right? Crazy. So in order to get there, I'm going to break it down, is that you have to go through 32 paths of understanding in order to gain wisdom. And because time doesn't exist, when I'm in the moments of questioning myself and I need to go backward to get back to the source of God, I just ask myself, why did I create this? To love myself more? And I figure out 32 reasons why on the 31, it unlocks every single time.

No way.

Yeah.

Holy crap.

It's bananas.

And this is all mental. You're not writing it?

No, I write it down.

Oh, you write it down.

So then you write it down so that you. So there's something about actually putting liquid to paper.

Yeah, Manifestation.

Manifestation that allows those things for you to see them. And there's a discipline of doing that that gets it out. Because if you write it down, you're not going to remember it. Okay. Because you're constantly going back and forth. And there's this thing inside of the cabala called bina, which is an aspect of understanding, which is. Which you're supposed to receive. You're supposed to receive your understanding. But in order to receive it, if I'm writing it down, doing a masculine efforting.

Right.

And I end up backward. Right. So you gain the wisdom by writing it down. Right. But you're going through the process of understanding that when I go back and I read it and I look at it now, all of a sudden, the things unlock. So once I get to that 33rd, it's that now if I really want to lock it in, then I'll play it 12 times. So I play it 12 times, because you have 12 months on the calendar. That allow me to actually go through this entire cycle, to then accelerate the time of that being truly integrated into my process, and then it locks in even further. Wow. So this is how you break the trauma.

That is crazy.

Yeah.

And when you're writing, there's this theory that if you write in the past tense, it enhances manifestation. What's your take on that?

So I look at it from the way that I do. It is from a we state. So there's an I. Oftentimes, the I is always perfect. So, like, I go from I to we. And what. I'll explain it here. So the I state is the fact that there is me in the present moment that is perfect. The we is my past, my present, and my future. So I take my past version, my present version, and my future version, and then I start to say we are, and then I go through the process of writing it down. So it then encompasses everything, not only inclusive, all versions of myself. But also everybody else around me. So then I start to merge into the wholeness of humanity, and then I do this for the benefit of the all, and then I start releasing all of that trauma so that it starts to actually ground itself within me as every version and possibility of myself.

Crazy. I like that, though.

Yeah. Yeah, It's. It's. It's nuts. Yeah.

And that's Kabbalah.

It's Kabbalah. Plus, like, I got into Rudolf Steiner, Rosicrucianism, some spiritual science stuff, and a lot of this stuff just kind of channels in, and then I write it, then I find it somewhere else, and I'm like, oh, well, that's kind of crazy. And then in my coaching practices, I help individuals through it, and it just unlocks like clockwork.

I love that you tie in all those different philosophies, because some people go all in on one, which is fine, but, like, I feel like you're taking the best from each.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I mean, we're all. It's. It's one big puzzle piece. Like, it's cool that we're all individuals and unique and different.

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Flip side of it, we're all one in the same. We're all the same energy that derived it all. So when you can take and all of the love and all of the fear and all of the things that kind of, like, have been fractured all over, and you don't put judgment on them. You just apply justice, which is balance. Then you start to see the wholeness of why they're all created. Then you bring those things into, like, a unified existence.

Yeah. And I've been questioning balance a lot recently. Right. For every good, there's an evil. Do you think there's ever a time in society where everyone could just be a positive energy?

I think there's a time. I know. I'm not even gonna say. I think. I know that there's a time in life when we all understand how to hold that balance in the unity of oneness. And that's what I'm gonna call. I'm gonna. I call that Masonic energy. So not Mason, not like Masons, but like the Messiah. Okay, so one of the things that, you know, the greats ever did. Buddha, Jesus, Moses, whatever you Want to call it biblical, you know, avatars that we've seen in the past is that they were able to look at the light, they were able to look at the darkness, they were able to understand the balance of the both, and that within that. You wouldn't have the light without the dark. You wouldn't have the dark light. There's two different. If you go into certain teachings, there's two different versions of what they call the devil. You got Lucifer.

Yeah.

And you've got this thing called Aramon. Have you heard of the.

I haven't heard of Arman.

All right, so Aramon is the devil of the domain, the devil of the material space. Lucifer is the devil of the light or the lightbringer.

Right.

A lot of people are like, oh, I want to be a light bearer. I want to be a lightbringer. I'm a light worker. I'm a light this, I'm a light that. If I put too much light on something and that light has no structure, then what happens? It doesn't actually manifest itself into real world. And so you get lost in that. And so you have to. Oftentimes what happens is if somebody's going crazy on the light, there's a law of rhythm and hermetics that says, okay, as. As the pendulum swings are left, it'll swing to the right. Then you actually have to have darkness that comes in and then shadows onto it. So the thing actually has existence that it shows up.

Wow.

So there is no good or bad. There is no evil. There is no any of these things that lives out there. There's just this container that needs to be loved and held and honored. And the reality of it is, is that we are all, every one of us in this world is the Messiah. There's not like one thing. Now, what Christ showed us in the space where we. He got labeled as that was the fact that he walked a path that showed a way to do this, a way to perform miracles, a way to take psychedelics, a way to do all of these practices and create a practice accountability ceremony that allowed all of us to actually learn how to step into the now. And once we do this, and we do it in a rhythm and a vibration of each other, then we all become like one entity together. And then this whole healing thing starts to happen with humanity.

Yeah.

There's no more wars, there's no more sickness, there's no more death. There's no more any of this. And that's this whole process that we are ascending into. And that's why all of this consciousness is, like, starting to bombard humanity. And, like, where the is this coming from? Why is it showing up in TED Lasso all of a sudden in all these movies? Because it's real. Like, it's starting to come and, like, literally shower down on top of us. And the thing that we have to do is one, let go of the trauma so we can have a container to hold the worthiness of ourselves.

Yeah. And that's important because some people live their whole lives not letting go of trauma.

Exactly.

But that's going to go on to their next life. Right. Because of karmic debt.

Right, right.

You got to address it at some point.

You got to address it. Yeah, yeah. I mean, and the thing of it is, is that you always address it at the moment that you die. You always figure it out in that little window before you die, and you start to reconnect back with Source because your soul is worthy. And if your soul is worthy and you're carrying this unworthiness in your body, then you're going to drop the body in order to reconnect back with the worthiness of the soul. Right, Right. So you always figure it out. You get back to that moment in time. Now you might come back. The thing about it is, is the soul isn't individuated. It's just. It's like all. It's your soul and my soul are the same soul. Right. And everybody's soul is the same soul. We just have these different perspectives so that we can experience you. I can't experience me through my eyes, just in my body. Right. But I'm experiencing me through your eyes. Right?

Yeah.

And vice versa. Yeah. So now, like, you can't experience you. So what's cool about what you're doing is you have all these people coming and talking to you. Right. That you having these really awesome experiences. And when you do them in authenticity and vulnerability, what ends up starting to happen is you start to expand because you become more worthy, which is no accident why you're successful.

Yeah.

Right. It's kind of interesting when it all shows up that way.

I felt. I felt just more attuned with everything because of the podcast, just talking to different people. Because I think a lot of people are so closed off, they just talk to the same people.

Exactly.

And I think it's important to get different perspectives.

Right. And you're a vessel. And the more that your vessel starts to be worthy to expand. Like, I always have these. This framework that I work with people on, and you have the Future. And you have the past. Right. And if your future is not actually walking in integrity, you're not walking in integrity of your future, then all the blessings that run into your life just kind of flow out one side. Okay. If you're not living in the wisdom of your past and you're trying to understand your past, which is ass backward, like how you understand it when it's already gone, like it's. That's there. All I need to do is apply a loving energy onto it so that I can bring it back into the present moment. All of your flies out the back. So if you have these blessings and you got two holes that are stuck in the milk carton or the. Or the cup that you are, then you're never receiving what's there for you. Yeah. Which is why people are suffering and they're sick and they're broke and things like that. All you got to do is basically buffer both sides of it. And then literally what happens is your entire cup starts to fill up and you're constantly abundant.

I love that. Yeah. I've done some past life work as well.

Yeah.

It was really helpful.

Yeah.

I highly recommend that to people.

Yeah. Super helpful. Yeah.

And I know certain religions don't believe in it, but it's. I think it's important to at least entertain it or explore it.

Yeah. It's just gaining wisdom. It's gaining wisdom. So, like one thing that the Kabbalah talks about and you know the cabal comes from, Right? Yeah. Okay. And you know who founded it? Abraham.

Oh, Abraham.

Yeah. So what's cool about this, this is. This is trippy. Is that Abraham derived the Kavala. Right. And it came out of him and brought it into life. Right. And this is early, early Genesis stuff. And then he had sons. He had one son, Isaac, with Sarah that went west. Okay. His other sons went east. All of the principles of Buddhism, Hinduism, everything else derives out of the Kabbalah because those sons went from lore, founded all of those other religions. Right. And then you got west, you got Judaism. And every single aspect of modern day religion that we know comes out of what Judaism, which was grounded off of the Kavala.

Wow.

So everything comes from that one aspect of source. Then when we understand the construction of the Kabbalah, then at which point we can then turn back around and say, okay, if I just walk down that map a little bit closer and I start studying this and it actually helps me understand why Christianity works the way it does. It has me understand why Judaism works the way it does. You know, or any of anything from an Islamic perspective or Buddhism, I can understand all of it. And it all makes the same sense because it comes from this one thing.

Yeah. And how do you feel about modern day religion? Because there's some mixed things on it now.

It has purpose and there's codes in it. So to me, what I see is modern day religion left us a bunch of roadmap to be able to figure things out. Like, in Christianity, there's a liturgical calendar that actually has code of how you need to practice your year, which is pretty cool, that once you get it, like right now, we're in Lent, okay. And Lent is the same 40 days and 40 nights that Jesus was in when the Devil was tempting him. And so in this 40 days and 40 nights, I have temptations that have come to me. I have all kind of like, crazy like, oh, I could have gotten, you know, X millions of dollars if I would have signed this deal with the Devil when I can actually see it coming. And I just stay in balance. So that's why there's a fasting and a letting go process in that window of time where you don't try to consume too much. And then at which point, once you go through the Holy Week, you will be betrayed in that window of the Holy Week when you're on your ascension path and then you slingshot out for the rest of the year.

Wow.

Other things. Yeah.

I've gotten so many offers. When did this start?

It started February 14th.

Dude, that was my birthday. Yeah. I've gotten so many offers in between then and now. That's hilarious.

Yeah.

Wow.

Yeah. And even the fact that it's February 14, Valentine's Day, a distraction, like, there's different things about it that we as humanity have thrown in there to have us forget Christmas is this window of epiphany. Do you know about this? No. Nuts.

So from 25th, ruining Christmas for people.

No, no, no. It's actually going to help. So from the 25th through the 6th of January, 25th of December through the 6th of January is this window of time where if there's 12 days, 12 days of Christmas. Remember the song, the 12 Days of Christmas? Every single version, every day, has a very specific thing you're supposed to do. And in the wintertime, the earth's soul is more awake, which is why it's cold. Okay. Why things are dead, why, you know, the animals hibernate and all this whatnot. And in the wintertime, remember Shakespeare's Midsummer Night's Dream, Okay. So that's when the actual. The earth goes to sleep and humanity wakes up. So this whole thing flips and you have the liturgical calendar that follows that same path. And inside of Christianity, that liturgical calendar is specifically mapped for us to be able to understand those codes. Okay. Now, what we've done as human beings is because of our greed and everything that we want to do, we start with it, people, so that I can make more money. I mean, I could literally manipulate a lot of individuals knowing what I know right now.

On Christmas.

On Christmas, when it ends, like how to. How to play around with those specific days. Because those days people are more vulnerable because they. They are literally asleep. I am walking asleep.

So true. Everyone talks about cuddling during the winter. Right. Because they're vulnerable. They want someone.

Yeah, yeah. Wow. And then in the summertime, my body wakes up and I'm more awake physically. And the world, like the three dimensional magnetic field that we're in is more awake. But we call the electric or the spiritual field is more sleep in the summer. So there's different elements. So if I am looking to gather wisdom, information, understand kind of what my next year is supposed to be, and understand the true plan of God, source all, whatever it is has for me, if I listen in that 12 days and I understand how to take those things, and I can set a practice for myself, and those same 12 days will map to the same 12 months of the year.

Wow.

And then I'll be able to pay attention to when, like temptations come in that 40 days of Lent, when the resurrection happens in Easter. Has nothing to. I mean, it has to do with. I guess the story of Christ has nothing to do with Christ. It has to do with us all resurrecting as the Messiah to be able to do the work that was intended for us based on God's plan.

Fascinating. Is this a form of astrology?

Astrology is mapped to this too.

Okay, Right.

But it's all, you know, everything that's out there, it's as above, so below. Once I'm a. Do you know about all the hermetic principles? All right. So these things called. They say Thoth, develop these hermetic. You know, I've heard it though.

Okay.

Develop these hermetic principles. All right. And in those hermetic principles, it's basically what they call the laws of the universe. So inside of every one of those, you have a roadmap of how to walk and live in life. Now, they're not very detailed, so it's kind of up to the interpreter, which is oftentimes why it hasn't, I don't believe scaled very much because the thing that religion does is it gives you kind of playbooks, parable stories and things to do that for a common person who is a little bit lost and maybe stuck in their trauma, they can walk down this path and they get a little bit further down the road and it feels good. Right. That's to me the purpose of religion. Right. Which is cool, you can do that. But everybody's like also calls on it. There can't just be one way to heaven. It can't just be through Jesus Christ. Right. It can't just be that I have to do this very specific prayer, you know, from an Islamic perspective, for me to be worthy. Right. It can't just be that I have to follow all of these Jewish principles in order to actually get where I need to go. So it can't just be that way. All of it like that. That would mean that God that created us, created all these different religions to with us. And that's not the case. Right. It's for us to remember. Back to the hermetics. The hermetic principles are. So the first one is thoughts become things. Right. That's the most simple way to put it. It's kind of weirdly written, but thoughts do become things. If I think something happens, I think things, things happen. I think beautiful things. Beautiful things happen. Mind's pretty powerful, right?

Yeah.

The next thing is, is the law of correspondence. As above, so below. Right. So as within, so without. So everything is interconnected to us. Like people talk about flat earth, but I also know that my, my cells in my body are very much so spherical. So if that's the case, then there's a disconnect. Is the thing that contains me that's containing other things. That's containing other things. All of a sudden there's this one glitch in the matrix that says it now needs to be flat. Right. Now is there probably versions of what it could potentially be? Maybe, I don't know, but. And then so you do that. That's as above, so below. Then you move over to the. Everything has energy, everything has vibration. Which is true. We've proven that through science, right?

Yeah.

So these are the first three laws of business, right. And isness means that they just are. There is no balance to it. It's just the way that things are. Then you go into the bottom four laws which are about balance. Okay. So one, the first is the law of rhythm. As the pendulum swings to the left, it swings to the right. If you have a really good day, you're gonna have a really fucked up day. Right, Agreed. Agreed.

It's never.

No.

Exactly set in one way.

Yeah. Now when you understand that's the law, and you see the pendulum swing back, well, what can I do? I can just rise above it. It's like a jump rope. The thing's coming. I was like, okay, now I see the momentum coming back, and I've timed it to where I know that when my days are going to swing that way. Really? Yeah.

Oh, interesting. So you. A bad day.

Oh, you can avoid a bad day. You can watch it and see it coming back. You're like, oh, here comes the evidence of it. And then what you do is you just become still. You actually receive it, and you transmute it into love and you can start playing. That's where the alchemy.

I love that.

It's bananas.

So how can someone do that?

So what I started to do, I started journaling my days, and I started to see the rhythm of what I was creating in my life. Once I saw the rhythm, I'm like, oh, at 10:30 every night, this starts to happen. I wake up, and about noon the next day, this starts to happen. And I just started cataloging it. And as I cataloged it for about six months, I'm like, okay, I can see this coming. Then what would happen is, is that I could see at 10:30 that next day. That's when the negative downswing started to come back. I'm like, okay, well, now I'm just watching it. And so instead of me going and doing the efforting and the participation that I think that I should be doing, because everything lives in cycles. I just, like, would take that day off, not, like, fully off of, like. Like, I'm not going to go to work. I'm not going to do anything. But I would just sit back and watch it come. And then whenever those road. Road bumps would hit me, I would just look at them all with an aspect of love. I would apply all this different energy and I would just jump over them. Wow. Okay. So it's like a jump rope. I'm just jumping over instead of allowing it to trip myself up and be like, well, here we go. And then what happens is, is that it. The momentum skips you, and then when the swing comes back, you just jump on the swing and it carries you higher. Okay. So you're not tripping it up to slow down the momentum of how things start to expand in your life. You just allow it to Then keep doing its thing, and then it carries you back the other way.

I love that.

Which is dope.

Like, it's, like, so sick.

Coolest practice.

I try not to force anything anymore because I was a big forcer growing up.

Yeah.

Like, I would just try to work my way through everything, but I feel like you're working against your energy.

Yeah. 100%. And you'll give yourself signs like, your right side of your body is your giving side. Your left side of your body is your receiving side. So if you start to recognize the fact that you're giving too much, all of a sudden on your right side will start hurting. You'll start bumping into things like, it's nuts.

I'm a big giver, so I can relate to that.

Yeah. And if that's not balanced with receiving, then your left side will start to, like, ache, and then there's the dream state. I mean, dude, this. This rabbit hole goes.

So I love that.

Things. You could play around in that.

What's the ratio you think of give to receive?

I mean, it needs to be balanced. 50. 50. It needs to be 50. 50.

Wow. So I probably give 80 right now, to be honest.

Yeah.

You think that's too high?

Either. Either it's not too high, or you need to learn to receive more.

Okay.

So it could be you give 80, but you're not open to receiving. You might be like, oh, I don't want to. I don't want to receive. You might have all these offers and things coming at you.

Yeah, well, when I say receive, I'm thinking of asking for stuff. Is that what you mean?

No, no. Asking is efforting.

Okay.

Or being open to receive. That's what's around you. So that you can just be a vessel to where it comes in.

Okay.

Is different.

So I'm probably more 50, 50 if that's the case.

Yeah. Yeah. It's not asking. Asking for help and being vulnerable is one thing. Yeah, Right. And that's an actual kind of, like, masculine, feminine thing that people do in order to kind of get themselves back into balance. But just being open to receive, like, you just have to just open yourself up, and then things start coming at you, and you're like, oh, let me get out of the way and let. Let the energy of the universe do its work.

I love that.

Yeah.

So we started this off with purpose, and I'm sure people are watching this. What is the purpose of life? Let's dive back into that conversation.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I didn't finish the other. The other Hermetics. But go on my. Go on my Instagram, check it out. Like, I have more in there. But the purpose. So the purpose of life is we. So all right, we all have the same purpose. All right, that stair stages into this Masonic consciousness. And Masonic consciousness means that we are here from a purpose perspective to hold the light and the dark together. Okay. And make sure that we join those in a covenant that allows for us all to be able to ascend. Now, I can break that down a little bit further because that's very, like, cryptic in some regard. So we all have, like, wars that are happening. We have trauma that's happened in our life. I guarantee every listener on here has some that's happened in their past. Can you love that? That's the first thing of it all, the darkness that's ever happened. Can you apply light to it? And so, like, that's part of what we need to do. And then when you do that, when you see others that are going through it, can you help them? Really simple. Like, these are the processes that we have to go through. Then what ends up happening is that once we walk and we have the ability to say, and they call this Abraxas energy, okay, they call it the God of the threshold of being. Even the firmament that's out there, like when they talk about it in the Bible, us being able to be the thing that takes all of the energy from God's source, all. And then being able to pull it into this, like, ermonic realm, this material realm that we live in. And once we do that, then what ends up happening is that this ermonic devil that's there, that was just split off of the polarity of God, starts to feel embraced. And then what happens is that the magnetic electromagnetic field that we live in starts to re architect itself because of the energy that we give it is no longer avoiding the thing that needs to be loved. Okay, so that's the dark side of it. The light side of it is the fact that you've got Lucifer over here who's bringing all this freaking light and saying, okay, well, everybody's calling me the wrong thing because they keep calling Lucifer the devil of this domain. All Lucifer's trying to do is shine light into it. But Lucifer needs some of the shadows back on Lucifer because it can't show up as anything if it's pure light, right? So it's asking for that. So what we have to do is be the barometer of choice. This is where you talk about free will of being able to take that choice point and then start to understand how to balance and dull things out one way to the other. And not in an aspect of judgment, just to the point I talked about before with justice and balance, so that we create the equilibrium, so that we all start walking as one. Wow. And that's what love is. That's how we show up in the world differently. And that's when we can actually be the true container that heals the brokenness that created all the separation that ever existed. Once that happens, us as human beings, the work that we're here to do, we start to unify back together. And then we walk through this universe through time much differently because now we're here to actually help all of the fallen angels. We're here to help all the off planets. We're here to do things that we have never thought were possible. We just have been in this container of unworthiness, and we're trying to solve our own little problems when there's so much more to do in the universe.

Yeah. It seems so insignificant when you compare it to the bigger problems.

Right.

And this was achieved in ancient civilizations. Right. This enlightenment.

Right.

So we got to get back there.

Yeah, we got to get back there. Yeah.

I wonder what happened, man. Seems like we've taken a step back.

Yeah. Egos. Egos get in the way. Yeah. I mean, you get one person that's like, I can do a little bit more, and there is no more. There just is. So the person that thinks that there's more and doesn't understand that their purpose, even in the moreness that they're looking to create, is just part of the. Is in order to help the others. Then what ends up happening from there is that that person kind of like stretches themselves out from everybody else, and then the entire structure falls apart.

Yeah.

It'd be like if I went to the pyramid and like pulled the keystone out and then the whole thing broke. Wow. Right? That's. That's. That's what ego does.

Interesting.

Yeah.

You mentioned you attempted four times.

Four times.

Was death something you. You really feared or did you accept it at that point in your life?

I. I feared. Put it. It's interesting. So at that moment in my life, I mean, I. So when I was younger, I was sexually abused and raped by a family member for four years. Right. You come out of that, you know, you are. Because it's like 9 to 14 years old, you're kind of broken, and then you see your family get torn apart, and then you're like, okay, well, Life has to have more purpose in it. So then you end up stepping into, like, I got married at 19 years old. Wow. And I'm like, oh, I need to have a family, because my family's. And it wasn't. I just didn't know how to love it. And then I'm married for a short period of time. I ended up getting divorced, and I got married again. And then I saw, like, this. This woman, had kids that I saw my version of myself in. And then anytime anything outside of me wouldn't validate me, I felt like I wanted to die because I put so much stock into the outside world. And so that it wasn't necessarily being accepting of death or anything along those lines. It was just the fact that the trauma that I was running away from was chasing me. And all I wanted to do was get out of this world. Right. And so, I mean, I ended up, you know, slitting my wrist. You know, I ended up putting a gun to my head, pulling the trigger four times, fully loaded, and it didn't go off. I hung myself. I took a full bottle of Ambien and throw it up.

Holy crap.

Yeah, it was nuts. And so that was in my 20s. And after that, I still didn't have a worthiness for life, but then I just was like, well, let me just work harder and do better. And, you know, people validate me if I give them stuff. So if I make more money and I kick, then great. Like, that'll be the thing. But it ended up just creating a bigger hole for myself and then ended up being incarcerated after that.

Holy crap.

Yeah.

That is crazy. You are here for a reason, my man. Four attempted and nothing worked.

Nothing worked. Yeah. That is crazy.

Subconsciously, I feel like they teach you to fear death, though, growing up, I actually feared it as a kid.

Did you?

Yeah, A lot. I used to think about it.

Yeah. Yeah.

And I'm in, like, first grade. I'm like, I don't want to die. Like, I feel like they teach that girl.

Yeah. Well, that's because you had such an appreciation for life and then the unknown and death. I mean, life, when you see it, is very known. It's like this bottle, this table is very real.

Right.

The death is, like, so unknown, and it's the dark darkness. Yeah.

I also think religion might have played a role in. In fearing it because of the devil and stuff, going to hell. And I was a bad kid, so. Yeah, well, bad is subjective, but, yeah, I was in the principal's office every day, so I thought I was A bad kid.

Yeah, you're expressing yourself. Yeah, yeah, that's dope. That's dope. But look at you now, so.

Absolutely, man. I want to end off with this interesting section on your website called Illuminati Secret. Yeah, what's that about?

So the. The Illuminati secrets, I went down, once again, rabbit hole. I went down this rabbit hole and I'm like, oh, what's this Illuminati thing? You know? And I started to, like, tear this whole deal apart. And it's. The Illuminati is what we make of it. I'm sure there is a thing out there called the Illuminati. And when you understand how they play the game of the universal laws, like one of the things that I got into, you can see why they can humanity. So what the course is that I teach is that how can you see the evidence of those things happen and then start to actually play the counter game to it so that you're not actually being controlled by whatever that is out there and you are the actual cause creator of your life.

Wow.

And so, you know, all of they go deep into the hermetic principles. Right. They understand, like, this whole thing means something very specific. Even in the Kabbalah, it means something based on where the hands are. The aspect of those fingers coming together means that you can actually move through life, remove love, and actually create different things in the universe. So you can manipulate individuals without loving. Without having love in your heart. Damn. It's freaking crazy, right?

Dangerous.

Yeah. And so if you understand that and then you know how to break, pierce that veil, then at which point, when some of those things are happening to you from all of the different ways that the architecture has been created in humanity, then you're no longer subjective to it. You know, there's no accident that like every single company that uses, like Yellow five and Red, whatever, all of those things have been wildly successful up until now. Right. This is all code that's been set. And if you look at the actual, like, breakdown, like how they carve that into humanity, they are doing that intentionally. Right, Right. And it's for us to remember why they're doing it so we can counter it and then start this process of bringing it back together to do this Masonic ascension that we're talking about.

Interesting.

Yeah.

It's not a coincidence. The Simpsons predicts almost every major world event.

Right? 100%.

I mean, like 50 times.

Yeah, yeah.

They predicted Trump becoming president like 30 years ago.

Yeah, yeah.

Like he never thought of running back.

Then no, no, you know that. So they did this whole egregore practice, which is where you actually create mass consensus off of individuals once you put them in an alpha state. So you can put individuals into an alpha state, start to do this Igor Gore deal where you put like signal to them. And then if you have enough individuals watching, it'll create the reality, really. It'll snap it into like, holy crap.

So is that the Mandela effect?

Somewhat. Yeah, Yeah. I mean, there's. The Mandela effect is. Is kind of a space time tear. Yeah. In some regard. But then, yes, individuals can place an intention inside of that. And so like in the Mandela effect, we hit this moment in time, where is an aspect of individuals saying, okay, I want the world to go this way and want the world to go that way. Okay. And then the world basically has kind of done this and it's going to come back together. And then some of us remember both sides of it. Yeah. Which. Those are the individuals that we talk about, that threshold that sit in the middle. So those of us that remember both sides of it aren't in NPC land looking at different versions of it. We're watching both sides and saying, okay, I can see both of it and I can actually see it starting to converge back together. Dang.

Yeah, I need to get there because I only remember one side. Must be nice to remember both.

But your awareness, here's the thing. Your awareness of both sides.

Yeah, okay.

Is the thing. The fact that you're curious about it allows you to then go back into the middle. Okay. So it's not the fact that you judge yourself of where you are. It's the fact that you can actually bring yourself back into that middle point because you're getting signal and you're like, okay, there's something not right with this. And there's something else over there. Right. It's the red pill, Blue bill.

Oh, I love that.

Yeah.

The Matrix. We really are in the matrix, man.

Yeah. 100.

Like, it's crazy. Matrix and Terminator, like, I mean, they predicted this stuff 20, 30 years ago.

They did, they did. It's sick.

Yeah, Sean, it's been fun. Let people know where they can find you and what you got to promote, man.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. So I mean, you can find me. Instagram is probably the key place. Abundance 10,000. Have a podcast. Just Google like that. Google search Sean Clayton in there and that'll pop up. There's two different versions of it where we talk about these things. Website Science of Abundance. AI. I've got this. AI. Purpose generator statement that helps people walk into their purpose and remember what they are. And we're to just going going deep. We're putting this stuff into technology so that we can crack this code, get into this rabbit hole, and then dig ourselves out so that we become the gods that we are. Love it.

I can't wait to do a part two with you one day, man. Thanks for coming on. Thank you so much. Appreciate you watching, guys. See you next time.