Personal first-person narrative by Corrina Rawlinson recounting childhood sexual assault by a household worker, delayed disclosure until age 21, longstanding childhood anxiety, and strong family relationships (large blended family) that now provide joy and support. The speaker is processing trauma and contrasts difficult memories with current positive family gatherings.
I don't know how I feel about it right now, because it's something that I'm still trying to process. But when we were younger, we had a guy living in our house. He was working for my parents at the time, and he was so fucking dumb anyway. What a fucking shit person. But he thought it would be cool to sexually assault me, so that was fun. Not. And I never told anyone about it until I was 21. Wild, huh? There was that, and then there was just this, like, general anxiety around lots of different things as a child. I always remember being such a helper. So I'm the eldest of six kids. These days, we've got a bit of a Brady Bunch family because my parents have separated, and I've got my stepmom and my stepdad and they've got their own kids. So there's literally 600 of us. And then you get everyone together for Christmas, and then there's all the grandkids, and it's honestly the best time of my life, being with all of my family. Like, it's absolutely crazy, and it's wild, but it's just amazing.