A person describes hitting bottom with suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, then getting help and beginning to recover. They call it internal brain noise amplified by external stress, and credit their family with recognizing the crisis and stepping in to save their life.
When you are mentally unwell, your brain doesn't function the way that it should be functioning, the way that it is meant to function. When you are in crisis like this, as I was, when you truly believe that you're struggling and that you're not worthy and that you shouldn't be here and that no one loves you and all you do is fuck up and make messes, when you get to the other side and you get the help and you find that support that you need, as you start to claw your way back, you realize that it was just the noise that your brain was making. It's the noise from the outside, the external. And with all the noise we need to find ways that support us through those days. We need to find ways that help our brains the way that our brains are, because no one's brain is the same as the other person's. Knowing now, the girl that was in that moment, that girl that decided in that moment that that was it, that she had a plan and she was ready to execute the plan, is so grateful that her family noticed in that time.
I'm still shit scared inside even after I wrote a book on confidence - Heidi Anderson
