Corrina RawlinsonFounder of She's Honeslty Mental

SHM Episode 1 - Part 4

2 Oct 2026 · 1 min

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In this personal testimony, the speaker recounts a period of extreme overcommitment across business, family, school, and community roles, driven by a belief that excelling at many tasks would make her worthy and loved. Despite appearing functional outwardly, she experienced a severe internal collapse, unable to perform basic self‑care tasks such as brushing her hair or teeth, and feeling like an "idiot" for neglecting household chores. The crisis culminated when, confronted by her family, she brutally disclosed her desire to die, a confession that profoundly shocked and broke her family, highlighting the depth of her mental‑health struggle.

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I was running a business. I was helping family with their other businesses. I had my fingers in so many pies. I was a mum and I was on the P&C and I was doing things at the school. And then I was on all of these committees and I just had this like gigantic resume of all of these things that I was doing because I felt like if I could do all of these things really well, it would make me worthy and make me feel loved and make people want to acknowledge me. But instead I was just reaching for things. And on the outside I was functioning and on the inside I was the one laying on the floor in my bedroom unable to Because I couldn't brush my hair, brush my teeth. I know I need to shower. I know that I should put that washing on, or I haven't folded this yet, or my floor needs sweeping and I haven't done those. And why haven't I done those? Because it makes me such an idiot. When I was in that real mental health crisis point, when my family asked me what was really going on and I said to them, I don't want to be here anymore, I want to die, me being so brutally honest with them broke them.